Lies Hidden On The Inside
Lies Hidden on the Inside
You see that I smile
You see that I cry
You see that I'm calm on the outside
But you don't know me.
You would know me if…
You knew how loud I scream inside
You knew how I hide that anger, scared to black out
You knew how my mum manipulated me, made me scared to let out that volcanic eruption of rage.
You see that I wear the clothes that I love
You see that I cry when I hurt my friends and family
You see that I keep “bad” feelings inside
But you don't know me.
You would know me if you took a second to look in my eyes, at the emotion hidden inside, to feel the anger and rage boiling up inside like a kettle, water almost reaching the top.
You would know me if…
you let me trust you enough to let you in
You would know me
But you don't.
You don't know how I worry about my body, I hate the way I look, because my dad called me a slut.
You don't know how I forced myself to throw up because as a kid I was obese.
You don't know how I wasn't even allowed to hate because “hate is a strong word” so instead I said I “strongly disliked” someone or something instead. I felt too anxious to even feel my emotions fully because what if my family got upset about it because GOD FORBID I feel any emotion aside from happiness.
You don't know how I've had to learn to gauge people's emotions so I didn't get hurt.
You don't know how I was raped 4 times and none of them got caught because obviously they're “mentally younger” than me so I'd get in trouble, not them.
You don't know how everyday for years I cut just to feel something other than pain.
You don't know me and I hope you never do.
I hope you never figure out my “lies hidden on the inside.”
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Hehehehe, I surprised my Dom, he needed help but I didn't know what and all I saw was his boner so I started to help and it surprised him alot. It was very fun. "You said help, what were you expecting??" "Ion know but it wasn't that" 😝
Me on Tuesday and Wednesday when my dom fucked me 4 times and fingered me 4 times in 2 days.
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So, I drew a picture. I've never heard of a lemon girl (I have heard of a lemon girl in Strawberry Shortcake) but heard of a lemon boy so I drew a lemon girl. I've never heard of a peach boy so I drew a peach boy as well.
I used references.
I found a picture of a lemon girl and kind of used her hair a little bit. I used the first outfit for the lemon girl and the last outfit for the Peach boy. My usual signature is Apollohaslanded but I forget that my username is different here than in other apps.
You're so cuteee
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I'm struggling to feel like a valid regressor because I'm pregnant...
hole inspections. reblog if you agree
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A 20 year old, almost 21 year old, age regressor. Mother of a beautiful daughter. Older siblings of 2 intelligent kiddos. I am married.
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