Yessssss Please Omfg Please Let This Happen 🙏 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

SOOO Huion Kamvas Pros were on sale a couple weeks ago and I picked one up because duh why wouldn't I??? I'd be insane not to!

This is my first finished piece using it (also I learned how to apply textures to my art and omg it changes everything) I had to draw my mans so.. enjoy.. ignore his blob hand, I still don't get hands tbh

Back from the dead once again with yet another update to this relationship situation..

First of all, I'm pretty much completely over him.. though he will be bringing my stuff back eventually I have no idea when... gotta give it to the fucker, he does seem like he wasn't lying about being a massive pussy about winter 🤣... a single snowflake could fall and he'd refuse to get in his car and go anywhere.. I feel sorry for whatever poor bitch he meets next if he continues to act like a baby. And btw... the Christmas gift I bought him before we broke up shall not be going to waste, it's going to my bestie who has been there for me through it all.. she's not reading this.. at least I don't think she is.. but LOVE YOU SAM!!!

Aaanyway I just met someone new.. we first started talking 2 weeks ago.. he had stuff going on so I left him alone for a week genuinely thought it was over with him before it even began bc he hadn't said a damn thing the entire week... but I reached out over the weekend and we talked until like 3am lol

He seems like a good guy, seems to be more dedicated than the last (that remains to be seen ofc.. not comparing him to my ex, but still trying to guard my emotions and keep from getting too attached too early on)

He has severe body image issues it seems.. I'm trying my best to help him a little by challenging his self critical beliefs and giving him compliments often. Not only about how he looks ofc...(this guy is seriously a beautiful human being, beautiful smile, jawline so sharp it could cut a bitch, beautiful eyes, beautiful lips, seriously... I'm surprised he hadn't gotten asked out more often.. not only that but he's genuine, sensitive, kinda funny too, respectful, Hella romantic lol)

This one is the type that wants to treat me like royalty.. he made me promise to one day go stargazing with him on a clear and warm night and kiss him under the moonlight.. (I ifc added slow dancing to that bc.. well that has ALWAYS been my dream date) but I'm thinking for a first date, I might go up and meet him for lunch or something on a day he has off of school (university) and work... he is an hour away and I don't drive so I'll probably be relying on my dad to take me there.. unless I can get my friend and her boyfriend to go on a double date with us and hitch a ride with them lol.

Though he has said he wants to come here... but idk.. that may not be possible for a while and I'm thinking we need a meeting face to face sooner rather than later.. I find it solidifies the connection better.

I really hope this goes somewhere.. I quite like him and can totally see this working 😊

H!

I'm back from the dead!

And I have things to talk about 🤭

Last month into this month has been fucking wild for me!

I was connected to a girl my age through my therapist, her name is Sam. We've really hit it off and I now consider her a friend.

Then... for some reason I felt confident enough to make a dating profile.... and

AGAINST ALL ODDS I MET SOMEONE.

Like I live in a town over an hour away from any cities.. but he only lives a half hour out of town... so not a super long drive.

Anyway, we've seen eachother in person twice but I fell so deeply in love with the guy.. and I can tell he feels the same about me... the way he looks at me.... How he talks... He is also a total romantic.. much like myself, so it's been going really good! I'm hoping we'll get to see eachother again next week.

But I never thought I'd ever get into a romantic relationship... if I'm being honest

Don't read on if you're easily triggered by mental health issues and/or sexual themes.

I never intended to be around this long... I was literally planning on ending it all shortly after my 18th birthday... But for some reason... I kept going.. and I'm super happy that I did, otherwise, I wouldn't have ever met my friend and boyfriend.

Seriously...

Things are finally going right for me after so many goddamned years of being alone, isolated unable to find any real connection and incredibly miserable because of it...

I have finally realized I am not unlikeable, I'm not worthless and I can find friends. And for the rest of 2022 and into 2023, I will work as hard as I can to not let my anxiety control me anymore

My next big leap comes in November. I will be looking for my first job!

And here comes the part where I gush about my boyfriend

I now have this dream now where I'm settling down with my boyfriend.... we move into a little apartment in one of the cities nearby (in fact that dream could very well come true... because we both want to go to the same city for college) and we settle into a peaceful domestic life together.... hopefully with cats!

Ok... but like honestly this guy is literally the one I've been dreaming of. He's very attractive and emotionally available, and he doesn't judge me for who I am! I neglected to mention here, but I have discovered that I am agender and my pronouns are they/them... I live in probably one of the most conservative provinces in Canada and to make it worse, I'm in a small town with like 4 churches of the same exact brand of extremely homophobic and transphobic Christianity... I fully expected him to lose interest in me. But no, It hasn't affected how he thinks of me. and he is very careful to respect my pronouns...

He's also very funny (which I really love in people... I can't be around someone who is super serious all the time) I mean... when I last saw him on Monday, we were at my place, playing around (in an adult sort of way) and he discovered my toys

One of them had a suction cup at the base, so he goes and sticks it on the wall a few times... then he sticks it on his forehead looks at me and says "I'm dildo man" we laugh about it together.... and he goes to pull it off his face only to discover it has suctioned pretty hard to his face, so I help him by wedging my finger under the suction cup and lifting it off...

and HE HAS A BIG ASS BRUISE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS FOREHEAD... We're still laughing our asses off... me almost pissing myself with laughter as we frantically search for way to get rid of bruises and hickeys online... we try the fork method, icing it... everything we can do, nothing works.. so we decide to just take a bath to clean up before my parents get home from a trip they were on (at this point my parents don't know we've had sex... and I wasn't exactly ready to tell them) While we're in the bath, my parents get home and my dad calls out to me... I fucking panic and we get out and dress at breakneck speed.

My parents brought home some takeout and my boyfriend stayed for dinner... he met my mom for the first time... but damn... coming downstairs after that was... super awkward... but thankfully my parents aren't the type to be bothered by that kind of thing, all they needed to know was that we used protection (which we did ofc)

It's funny though, he really gets along well with my dad.. Maybe it's their sense of humour. Or maybe the fact they are both quite talkative..

But damn.....

This guy is special.. and I hope we last for years, decades... life even...

And done.. Sorry about all that.. just had to write this all down somewhere.. It's really hard to contain my happiness right now.

Vandy reacting to finding blood on the bathroom floor and freaking out, thinking MC was hurt, but she just accidentally cut herself while shaving and forgot to clean up?

Thanks for requesting, Anon!

-It was like a horror scene…

-Blood EVERYWHERE. 

-But mostly in the tub and on the floor.

-Vanderwood was mortified

-How could that much blood come out of a person? 

-He looked around the house for you. 

-He called out your name. 

-He had finally found you in the living room. 

-You looked to be okay. 

-”MC Are you alright? There’s a ton of blood in the bathroom and it’s not mine.” He asked

-You laughed

-”Oh  don’t worry, I just cut myself while shaving. I must have forgotten to clean up… My bad” 

-He breathed a sigh of relief. You weren’t hurt.

-But you did leave a mess…

-A big mess… 

-He still didn’t understand how you could have bled so much… But he didn’t question it.

-”You better clean it up” He growled.

-You gulped.

-”Y…Yes sir” You said before  racing to the bathroom to clean it all up. 

Ready to bother every living soul around me with terrible halloween puns... prepare your pumpkins!

Vanderwood with an MC who’s mumbling about how much she loves him in her sleep?

Thanks for requesting, Anon!

-Vanderwood couldn’t sleep…

-He was staring at you trying to calm his mind. 

-He knew you talked in your sleep from time to time.. 

-Usually you’d mumble about things you’d experience in day today life..

-So this was kind of expected. 

-You started inaudibly mumbling…

-Then it got louder and more intelligible

-”I love you Vandy” 

-He smiled at that. 

-”love you too princess” He whispered

-”I wanna be by your side forever” 

-His heart MELTED

-How adorable. 

-The fact that you thought about him even when you were asleep made him love you even more If that’s even possible

-You said one last thing before going silent for the night. 

-”I love you more than anything” 

-He smiled before hugging you closer and finally drifting off to sleep. 

Zen, Jumin, V, and Vanderwood reacting to their MC being assaulted but trying to hide it so they don’t worry?

Oh man...I had to sit on this for a while to come up with enough content. I think I need to replay some routes lol. Anyway, thank you for requesting, anon!!

Also TW!! If you’re sensitive to themes of abuse, you might want to skip this one...

Zen

-You had been beat up by your ex. 

-You tried your best to hide the bruises and scars with makeup and clothing... 

-You just didn’t want him to worry about you, he had enough on his plate as it was with his acting and all that. 

-But he eventually found out.

-You were both sitting on the couch, watching TV, when he reached for your arm

-You winced in pain. 

-He noticed and pulled up your sleeve seeing the many bruises all over your skin. 

-”Where did those come from, babe” He asked, his voice dripping with concern. 

-”Oh... I fell.” you lied.

-”Oh come on, you can’t get bruises like that just from falling, Please tell me what’s wrong, I want to help you” 

-He gently caressed your face in an attempt to comfort you. 

-You sighed and told him everything.. 

-And let me tell you, he wasn’t too happy with your ex. 

-Zen went out of his way to try and be with you whenever you went out so that hopefully, your ex wouldn’t harm you ever again. 

Jumin

-You had been mugged. 

-You had your money stolen and you were beat up. 

-You had a few bruises and scars. 

-Before going to Jumin’s for the day, you decided to change clothes and put on makeup to hide the bruises and scars on your body.

-You really didn’t want Jumin to worry about you. 

-You were kind of paranoid that he’d find out while you were there. 

-But he found out a few days later. 

-You had thought most of your bruises had healed to the point that the were unnoticeable.

-So you started wearing your regular clothes. 

-But you had one, single bruise just on your side. 

-Jumin questioned you about it when he saw it..

-You denied that anything happened, but he saw right through you. 

-From then on, you had to be with at least two bodyguards at all times. 

V

-You had been randomly assaulted by someone earlier

-Your bruises were mostly quite easy to hide under your clothing.

-You hoped V wouldn’t notice the ones that peeked out from under your clothing. 

-But to your dismay, he noticed almost immediately

-”MC, what happened?” He asked with concern. 

-”Nothing” You replied casually. 

-He knew something was off and he wasn’t gonna let you pass it off as nothing. 

-”Then why do you have bruises?” 

-You sighed and confessed reluctantly. 

-You really didn’t want to stress him out, but you knew he wouldn’t stop asking until he got a satisfying answer. 

-V notified Seven to try to track the guy down. 

-Turns out it was a guy who had just gotten out of prison. 

-He was arrested shortly after you were assaulted.

-V didn’t worry too much about you since this didn’t seem to happen very often and he didn’t want to restrict your freedom. 

Vanderwood

-A crazy ex decided to beat the shit out of you. 

-You tried to cover up your bruises so that Vanderwood wouldn’t notice. 

-He had so much stress from his job and everything.. 

-You didn’t need him worrying about you. 

-Later, you headed to your shared house.  

-He noticed almost immediately. 

-He has a keen eye, he is a secret agent after all. 

-”MC, why do you have so much makeup on? And what’s with the long sleeves?” He asked. 

-You tried to deny it... 

-You tried.. 

-But he was too good at reading you. 

-”Stop lying, MC, something happened, so tell me, who assaulted you” 

-”Fine, It was my ex, you know that one that’s a complete jerk”

-He nodded, knowing exactly who you were talking about. 

-With a little bit of Seven’s help....

-He got rid of the problem.

Vandy’s reaction to a reallllllllllllllly drunk MC?

Thanks for requesting, Anon!!

-You were pretty much wasted.

-Vanderwood was the one to take care of you. 

-He sighed as he held a bucket in front of you and your hair back as you violently vomited for the 5th time. 

-He had to forcefully pry the bottle of alcohol from your hands earlier and replace it with water.

-You were a complete mess. 

-Your speech was slurred

-You stumbled around like a newborn foal learning to walk for the first time. 

-You laughed at everything... 

-He knew he had to wait this out. 

-It would pass eventually. 

-He brought you to bed to let you sleep off your drunkenness. 

-After a bit of a disagreement you finally gave in and got into bed, falling asleep. 

-Honestly, Vanderwood never wanted to see you like this ever again.

Hi! Can I request HC’s for Vandy dealing with an overworked MC who hasn’t slept in like 3 days?

Haha I’ve been there before.. with school and stuff…  all nighters suck lol. Thanks for requesting, Anon. <3

-You hadn’t slept in DAYS 

-You had piles and piles of paperwork that you hadn’t finished. 

-Vanderwood was starting to get concerned. 

-”MC, You should go to sleep” He’d say every now and then, you ignored him.

-You had just finished your 6th cup of coffee

-You asked Vanderwood for another cup but he refused. 

-”MC, You need rest, please. You can’t keep doing this to yourself. Work can come later.” 

-Vanderwood grabbed your wrist and led you into your bedroom. 

-”Vanderwood, I have to finish this.” You complained tiredly 

-He didn’t listen to your protests as he forced you to lay down in bed, got in beside you, pulled the covers up and locked his arms around you effectively preventing you from getting up

-You sighed in annoyance

-”Vanderwood, please, if I don’t finish this I could be fired.” you pleaded. 

-”If you want, I can do some of it for you.” he suggested. 

-”No.”

-”Then sleep, if you get fired, I’ll deal with it.” 

-You were getting nervous about what he’d do to your boss. 

-But you decided that you needed a bit of rest and slowly drifted off to sleep.

-You awoke the next morning to a phone call from one of the higher ups.

-apparently your boss had been murdered.. 

-And you knew exactly who did it… 

Hi!! Can I request hc’s for a movie night with MC? With Jumin and Vanderwood?

Ooh I haven’t done Jumin before lol, I hope this works out XD. Thanks for requesting, anon!

Jumin

-You had seen an ad for a movie and had been super hyped about seeing it, so you suggested going to see said movie with Jumin. 

-Jumin agreed… but not in the way you’d expected. 

-This man…

-RENTED

-AN 

-ENTIRE

-THEATER

-He made sure you were only eating gourmet food.. No popcorn for this boi. 

-He made sure the entire theater was spotless and that the seats he chose were the most comfortable. 

-Only the best for his beautiful princess.

-You’d arrived at the theater and were shocked to see all that Jumin had done for you. 

-He greeted you at the door and escorted you into where the movie would be shown. 

-You both sat down and you were both poured a glass of wine. 

-He put his arm around you at least once during the movie.

-In all honesty he wasn’t that interested in the movie.

-Because he was too busy staring at you to care about the movie

-Once the movie was finished you walked into the lobby to see a grand dinner table, on it was..

-Perfectly grilled steak

-You thanked Jumin a million times after that for the experience he’d given you. 

Vanderwood

-You two were sitting on the couch bored out of your mind…

-When Vanderwood had an idea.

-You two were going to watch a movie… 

-It was a secret agent movie he’d bought a few years ago 

-He liked to make fun of how inaccurate it was

-Before you two started the movie he made popcorn for the two of you 

-And let me tell you, this guy makes hands down THE BEST popcorn. 

-He’d finished with making the delicious popcorn and he played the movie. 

-He found it cute whenever you’d jump from the sudden bangs of the guns and explosions. 

-Vanderwood took every chance he had to get closer to you…

-By the end of the movie, you were a human pretzel.. 

-You thoroughly enjoyed the move, Vanderwood also enjoyed it, but only because it made him laugh. 

-You two agreed to have more movie nights since you never really watched movies together and it was a perfect cuddle opportunity.  

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