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5 things I love about you.

1 Your smile

2 loved it when you held my hand and put your he's on my shoulder.

I know you don't like showing affection in public but when you did that it made me feel special.

3 only twice did you say I love/miss you first. That kept me glowing for months.

4 you met my family and chatted with them comfortably

5 when we where lying next to each other, cuddling, I closed my eye and felt our hearts beat the same. X

I miss you Aleema Ali

So yeah 2021. Turns out this is the worst year I've had since I was 20.

I was a gambling addict and lost £19k at 18/1o. Wanted to raise the money to go into further education in courses I wanted, not what others wanted for me. I lost the family money, had to get a. Job to pay back what I lost and more into the mortgage and too a loan out to pay my uncle back, with both combined mounted to £65k. £65k of debt and nothing to show for it plus the fact all the education I had I was losing. I was very good at maths but I could tell my skills where fading away. I could read English properly as I'm dyslexic but I could read sheet music. That too was fading away. I had to work to pay back what I lost. I was stuck, didn't want to know the world as everyone my age where going out, having holidays, finding partners and settling down. There was NO WAY I was going to settle down while in debt, depressed, suicidal, feeling worthless, miserable. It wouldn't be fair on the other half. So life was passing me by. I had to live with the consequences of my decision to gamble.

Why I gambled I will post in a later blog, but that was the worst point in my life. My matter what happens going forward it good deal with knowing I won't get the life I wanted, but I still have a life and will make what I can out of it. That mind set ook me till my late 20s to get.

I liked 2020 personally. I enjoyed being on furlongh, I'm home and getting paid. I had over time at my 2nd job. I proposed to my Girlfriend and she said yes on the 12th Feb 2020. My spirits where high. The early scare was my mum when she had Covid but she survived thankfully.

Then it falls. From October onwards. Stresses and mentally drained. Like many others. I felt my fiancee was pulling away from me. I get she was scared of covid and didn't want to hug but I am an affectionate person. She would always reject them which in turn I stopped trying as rejections is painful, esp from the one you love. It was great that I only got a response every 2 days or once a week, but I loved our walks and talks about finding a house. I get she was going through personal issues but I was shut out by her and she would only respond once a week from November. At the same time I had banter go wrong with a colleague I worked with at Asda Small Heath. He started a banter with me that was of a Rasical nature and Deformation of Character, but I knew it was a joke but he couldn't take the joke back.

I told my partner and she did not want to know as she had too much going on. I personally think she over thought it and I wasn't expecting anything from her but she went quite again. I said to her I can't keep meesaging you everyday with Good Morning and Good night, as I don't think I'm helping. She thought I was going to get her to beg me to text back. Wow, that was not the case as I was texting her everyday, beginning for a response and she would one res9one a week.

I made a birthday video for her at the be2of December and the only response I got was, 'thanks lol'. I was thinking

'is that all you say to your fiancee!, you didn't even remember my birthday and your not putting any effort in after you freaken moaned!'

I got a couple more messages and the last was on 23rd December. Didn't here from her on Xmas day nor new years day. Wow. I felt the love! I was, and still am in pieces. She had a go at me for not putting the effort in yet I texted her every day but she didn't. I don't mind her not remembering the anniversary but when I sent her a photo of the flowers she did even say happy anniversary, yet she moaned about Valentines day the year before. She moaned about my lack of buying presents on her birthday in 2019 Christmas 2019 but 2020 she forgot my birthday and as you read, she never messaged me on Christmas.

After all that I still love her. No one's perfect, I'm not, she not, I'm not, but my world feels complete with her. I continued to text her on good morning and good night on Mondays Fridays and the weekends. Sometimes in between but nothing, even on valentines day 2021. On the window sill, I have her Birthday, Christmas Valentines presents with flowers and I took a photo and sent it to her. As I sent the photo to her now knowing it was over.

I never wanted it to be over.

If Rey was Luke's Daughter and Palatines Grand Daughter (like k said I'm my last post)

The plot hole left from The Force Awakens will be fixed. I am talking about the map to Luke, at the very beginning. Luke said he hide away, so why was there a map.

What if...

Lor San Tekka, was a Jedi. He was for the Republic and Resistance. He helped Luke find Jedi artifacts and helped with the academy.

Lor would have an Apprentice (Te Rak-Na) and encourage the light and to make sure the sith would never rule again.

He was having visions of Luke with rage and using the dark side, Luke's wife dieing along with Te Rak-Na.

When Luke was about to kill Ben, Lor scened that moment and thought Luke had turned. He went to the academy and saved Luke's wife. She was only four weeks pregnant and didn't know. He would hide her on Jaku. He believed he was saving her from Luke. Te would be staying with her and she was given that task by Lor. Luke's wife had gone into shock and into a breakdown. Lor would be watching over them as Obi watched over Luke.

Lor heard that Luke got angry after seeing his academy burnt and losing his wife, letting Leia down and almost killing Ben. Luke had so much rage and went after Snoke. They both had an epic battle, Luke even used Lighting, which scard Snoke. Snoke escaped, knowing he couldn't beat Luke in this state.

Luke, barely standing, saw a reflection of himself, realized he had gone to far and what was left of his hope had gone. He went to hide on Arktu.

Lor had read his vision wrong. He blamed himself Luke's rage. He made it his mission to be look after Luke's wife and bring him back. He trusted his Te to look after young Rey and keep her in hiding while he searched for Luke. Lor knew Luke went back to Tatooine once a year. Around about the time of his Grandmother's passing. Luke had hidden a map to Arktu behind her grave stone which Lor had finally found. He now had hope,

This would be the map that he gives to Po.

The line he says 'this should start to make thing right' was for this reason.

Ps I know it's not written well but I'm not great at writing. I just want Star Wars to be better than we had it.

Star Wars Trilogy missed opportunity

Hello All

hope you have watched the film and got the feel of an adventure back.

I did and really enjoyed #TheRiseOfSkywalker

I feel 3 things have been a missed opportunity

Spoilers alert

I would like to have seen the Skywalker blood line continue,

I liked the idea that Rey is a Palpattine, but this is what also should have happened.

1: Luke should have been Rey's dad. When they were talking on Ahch-to Luke could have said to Rey.

'i knew your mother. She had the Force but didn't know how to deal with it. Knowing she was Palpertines daughter I was careful around her. But I had just turned Sidius's Apprentice against him, I had hope I could bring her to the light and help give her balance. We worked closely together. I fell in love with her. We talk about working together to open an academy to train future generations of Jedi and undo what our fathers did.

I came home one evening to find she had gone. Only one note left behind saying

"For the future, I most go. Sorry Luke. Love you"

I could no longer sence her in the Force. I meditated but she closed herself to the Force. I carried on with the Academy while also looking for her, but I never did. My hope laid in the academy, making it a beacon for all Force uses and hope she would return, until it burnt down. I had lost everything, and came to Ahch-to. Closed myself to the Force, and when I became one with the Force I learnt why she ran away. She was afraid. Afraid that the unborn child(unknown to Luke) would have been more confused with the Force and her father would want his Granddaughter to be his new vessel, with his blood line and the 'mighty' Skywalker blood line combined.'

Rey looks up and says

'Your my father!'

This would have given more of a backstory to Luke and why he went to hide.

2: Billie Lourd should have been a secret Skywalker. Leias daughter, after her relationship with Solo ended.

3. This whole trilogy didn't have 2 grand masters fight it out, should have happened in The Last Jedi. I have posted this somewhwre over the internet 2years ago.

May The Force Be With You

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The Home Nation Tournament held bi-annually

In between the year World Cup & Euros there is a summer where fans really want football. There are other sports that take place on a regular basis, F1 Tennis Golf, but what about adding the Home Nations Football Tournament in the odd years?

There are 2 qualifying games held in the early summer of the odd years so the tournament can be held a week after them games, with the same squad. Two games can be held on Saturday, two games can be held on Wednesday and the final two games can be held on Sunday. 

Sat: England V Scotland & Northern Ireland V Wales

Wed: Wales V England & Scotland V Northern Ireland

Sun: England V Northern Ireland & Wales V Scotland.

like the Six Nations the teams will swap who get to play home for each tournament. Also this keeps the tournament in a small window of the summer for players to have a break.

Another reason to do this would be a financial reason. The Scottish Welsh and Northern Ireland FAs do not have a lot of money coming in because they are not in the World Cup or Euros to gain the monies, which would help then develop there national Academies. The Home Nations Tournament can help them. By sell TV rights around the world.

Also it would be good for all the players involved. If they feel the win of a tournament it will give them more confidence going into the qualifying groups. Success breads Success.

Muteen Hussain jaiom

What would be your ideal 20 team Premier League

I listen to talk SPORT  a lot and heard a comment about the EPL fixture between West Bromwich vs Watford along the lines of, the EPL was formed to bring big teams and entertaining games. I remember the same being said on a news report following the Fulham vs Charlton game(please contact me if I’m wrong) which was aired on the Premier League channel on NTL cable.

So this got me thinking. What would be the ‘best’, ideal 20 EPL.

This is what I have come up with.

Arsenal Aston Villa Birmingham Blackburn Chelsea Everton Ipswich Leeds Leicester Liverpool Manchester United Manchester City Nottingham Forrest Newcastle United Tottenham Hotspur Sheffield Wednesday Southampton Sunderland West Brom West Ham

This would be my 20 League and I know everyone would have a different one. As I was making my list I remember watching the league in the late 90s and Blackburn, Sheffield Wednesday  and Nottingham Forrest where in the EPL and Manchester City, Stoke city and Bournemouth where in the lower leagues. There have been a total of 47 different team in the EPL

I thought about taking Nottingham put of my choice and replacing them with either Norwich, Portsmouth or Sheffield United to make more local derbies. Or even put Middlesbrough in there, who have been in the league longer but both would probably do the same in the league.

See what you can come up with and I think you will think longer after you have put down 12 and keep changing 5 teams.

It’s just for fun and could help in the debate about which is the bigger clubs.  😆

Muteen Hussain

@Jaiom

What would be your ideal 20 team Premier League

I listen to talk SPORT  a lot and heard a comment about the EPL fixture between West Bromwich vs Watford along the lines of, the EPL was formed to bring big teams and entertaining games. I remember the same being said on a news report following the Fulham vs Charlton game(please contact me if I'm wrong) which was aired on the Premier League channel on NTL cable. So this got me thinking. What would be the 'best', ideal 20 EPL. This is what I have come up with. Arsenal Aston Villa Birmingham Blackburn Chelsea Everton Ipswich Leeds Leicester Liverpool Manchester United Manchester City Nottingham Forrest Newcastle United Tottenham Hotspur Sheffield Wednesday Southampton Sunderland West Brom West Ham This would be my 20 League and I know everyone would have a different one. As I was making my list I remember watching the league in the late 90s and Blackburn, Sheffield Wednesday  and Nottingham Forrest where in the EPL and Manchester City, Stoke city and Bournemouth where in the lower leagues. There have been a total of 47 different team in the EPL I thought about taking Nottingham put of my choice and replacing them with either Norwich, Portsmouth or Sheffield United to make more local derbies. Or even put Middlesbrough in there, who have been in the league longer but both would probably do the same in the league. See what you can come up with and I think you will think longer after you have put down 12 and keep changing 5 teams. It's just for fun and could help in the debate about which is the bigger clubs.  😆 Muteen Hussain @Jaiom

Flights to Japan

with only 5 year to until the 2020 #Olympics in Japan i thought i should check the flight prices with the dates needed on next year calenda.

Im thinking of flying out on 15th July and coming back on 9th Sept, the cheapest flights i got was £433, really good as i was expecting on less that £600 lol.

So my plan will be Go to Japan a week before the games start and see the country,

then Go to the Opening ceremony and a few games in the begining before travelinh around the far east.

i will spend 4-6 weeks traveling, but i still need ideas of where to go so any tips are useful.

I will then make my way back to Japan and watch the last week of games at of the Paralympics and get ticket to see some games and hopefully tickets to the closing ceremony.

Once the Parlympics are over i will see japan for a few more days and say thank you then fly back home

I think that sounds like a great plan :)

noww i need to look at places to stay and other countries to visit, plus now much is visas?

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#olympics #tokyoOlympics

Tokyo 2020

With it being 2 years to the day since Tokyo was announced as the host for the #olympic games in 2020 i have been really excited by the news. So much so that i started saving for the games since then. im going to do a blog on my own build up to the games and what ever i want to share about the games.

I have always wanted to go to the Far East but never had the money. I keep looking at airline prices then hostals and its just a dream, but with the olympics being their, and enjoying the London 2012 games, i really want to go.

My plan is to go for the Opening ceremony and afew games, then see the cuntry and other parts of the Far East and watch a few Paralmpics games and the closing ceremony before i head back to the UK. its gonna cost a lot but if anyone has any tips on saving money, or would like to be a tour guide that would be great

Plan, Work and make it happen

British Eurovision Entry for 2015

I just need someone who can sing, because I cant and

 Life is what you want it to be

V1

Cadd9

Life is what you want it to be,

G/B For all the places I have seen.

Am All the futures in my hands,

Am/G Waiting for my command.

F Dare I say 'I believe in heaven,

G This is the route I have chosen,

Am                             Am Nothing is forgotten.

F This is a surprise to me,

G You can learn what I have seen,

Cadd9 Life is what you want it to be.

V2 For all the places you can go, There is nothing you wont know. Sailing across the seven seas, Finding places you've never been. Searching all you can find, All the people are so kind, It's not just in your mind. We've enjoyed the time to Rome, Now lets find are own home, You are not alone.

(Solo with Spanish guitar then violins)

Repeat V1 fade with instrumental music.

The Home Nation Tournament held bi-annually

In between the year World Cup & Euros there is a summer where fans really want football. There are other sports that take place on a regular basis, F1 Tennis Golf, but what about adding the Home Nations Football Tournament in the odd years?

There are 2 qualifying games held in the early summer of the odd years so the tournament can be held a week after them games, with the same squad. Two games can be held on Saturday, two games can be held on Wednesday and the final two games can be held on Sunday. 

  Sat: England V Scotland & Northern Ireland V Wales

Wed: Wales V England & Scotland V Northern Ireland

Sun: England V Northern Ireland & Wales V Scotland.

like the Six Nations the teams will swap who get to play home for each tournament. Also this keeps the tournament in a small window of the summer for players to have a break.

  Another reason to do this would be a financial reason. The Scottish Welsh and Northern Ireland FAs do not have a lot of money coming in because they are not in the World Cup or Euros to gain the monies, which would help then develop there national Academies. The Home Nations Tournament can help them. By sell TV rights around the world.

Also it would be good for all the players involved. If they feel the win of a tournament it will give them more confidence going into the qualifying groups. Success breads Success.

Muteen Hussain jaiom

This Year

This year has been the best for me in 10 years. The first half was great, I was happy and believed I had found someone and was enjoying her around her even if it was for a few minutes

The Ballad of George Harrison

The Ballad of George Harrison

11 years ago, I was watching the news, getting ready for college, when news broke that George Harrison had died. During the news footage, I heard that he died with one thought in his mind, which was 'Love One Another', and decide to use these words for the song. Enjoy

V1 Come the day I die, I find the place I lie. For the search of God begins, the fear of him is held within. Chorus Minds at peace, my soul still sings, Love one another (my sweet lord). I just want to see the world in peace, Love one another (my sweet lord). V2 Purpose in life is to answer questions, Question with answers are hard to find. I can see the meaning of life; The answers are all in the mind. Chorus V3 Guitarist I am, musician I've been, For my songs are of great artistry. I left the world with my love, And I'll be watching from up above. Chorus and fade

'Jekyll & Hyde'

These lyrics i wrote back in April 2007  Verse 1 Welcome all I'm Dr Jekyll, This is all you see for me to sparkle. No need to find out what's behind, My closed doors are in my mind. Lets go out and have some fun, While I'm on my happy run. In the end, ill step back home, Just to sit, in corner alone. Chorus I cant tell which is my Dr Jekyll and which is Mr Hyde. They both seem to be fighting and ripping my pride. Cus most of the time it feels like I'm living a lie. Verse 2 Has the beast inside gone to sleep, Is there any meaning that aren't so deep. As it wakes, it bleeds me too, Just to keep me away from you. Its out for my happiness and joy, And keeping from being your boy. As I lye in my bed, trying not to cry, I think of you to beat Mr Hyde. Chorus Solo Out-Verse What will win, I don't know, These battles may just come and go. Take the first step into the light, With some help it will all be right. And as you stand up you will shine, Knowing that your life well work out fine. Just take a look at what you've become, And all you've had to do, you have done.

Ok so i need £150k, £35k to clear my debts, £80k to have my own place. I want my own space and be happy with my way off life. Living with family is depressing me and losing hope. That make £115k i have £35k left over. with that money i would invest in myself to become an Astrophysicist. I would love that as a career, and this time i wont get my mum saying i cant do it because its no longer up to her.

Many Social Sites

I for got i was on here, I started on Hi5 Then MySpace, Facebook (still Use), YouTube: Post videos i like. Twitter(still use most), Blogger(use to be my F1 blog, stopped 2 years ago), AudioBoo: thats i use for mt F1 commentary for every race i watch on the BBC. VYou: just joined cus Doctor who said they would follow me if i did lol. Tumblr: Wanted to use this put my Lyrics, and write the eurovision winning song for   the UK. Instergram: new good one for photos, make me wonder why twitter didnt add more effects to the pictures, then they would have done the same thing 1st

Doctor Who Intros 1963-2010

2013 Eurovision song

The following song i wrote back in 2004(I think or even earlier) and was hoping someone would take it and win the Eurovision contests with it. The plan was to get at least 8 or 10 points from most of the country's and we could we. I also planned to do this because i want to get out of debt and to take the next step, to write a Christmas Number one then a James Bond song.they follow was on the internet for years:

You Are The One For Me

This song is meant for female vocalist (no not me ;), I cannot sing). I was watching the television and trying to write a song but nothing was coming to me until a advert for Tina Turners Greatest Hits came on and thats when I had the idea of writing for a good female vocalist. I just to thinking that ladies like the fairy tail story of when a Knight in Shining Armour comes along and there is a spark between them, which leads to them both falling in love and having a happy long life together.

So with that in mind I just got writing and in about 40 minutes I had a completed song. Hope you all enjoy reading it. Thank you.

V1 I've searched along this lonely road, So I can find someone to hold. I saw you there in the shining light, Could you be my one and true knight? Bridge Helplessly i gazed to you, Will this make my dreams come true? Chorus In your arms I'm flying to the sky, On cloud nine we both can agree. Shoot by Qupid we dont ask why, I just know you are the one for me. V2 Like a flower we grow and bloom, I'm your bride and you are my groom. Down the eilae I feel my heartbeat, With are rings the circle is complete. Bridge Are future is assured, Are children are loves reward. Chorus X2 Music Fade

WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

Playing my Guitar

Life is what you want it to be.

Me

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Hey ive just joined tumblr. by the looks of it, its another blogin site but i am looking forward to findout more and to develop my creative skill (songwriting) and expand my online Formula1 commentary, which you can listen via http://audioboo.fm/jaiom.

Have a nice day.