HEY BESTIEEE

Ahhh help I just noticed you have the "angst with a happy ending" tag on your story. How angsty are we talking about? Should I prepare myself ?

You're amazing btw

See my first instinct was to answer this with a "don't worry, it won't be too bad!" response but then I started thinking about it and well...

Dazai's backstory, once it's fully fleshed out, will definitely fit that category and then there's going to be some events later on that hmm...

I'm a sucker for happy endings though! No matter what, there will be hope at the end of the tunnel so just remember that <3

Hey honeybumi!!

I hope the AO3 curse will fade away asap (jokes aside I really do wish you all the best and I'm manifesting that you will feel better)

Hopefully you had wonderful holidays!!

Happy new year too!! 🌠🎇

Can't wait for the new chapter, no matter when it comes out i WILL be there for it, just finished re-reading the fic for the 4th time. I love you for writing this<3

Thank you :)

Hi! I’m SO sorry I missed this but tysm!! This made me so happy :)

I’m also so, so sorry this hiatus is dragging out this long… but the wait is almost over!! The update is over 10k so I’m finding myself rewriting and editing things I wrote weeks ago (hence why the word count just keeps growing lol) and it feels like I’m stuck in a never ending cycle but it’s coming together bit by bit.

"you should be at the club" I should be working on my fanfic

Do you have any reference photos of how you imagine Atsushi and Dazai's tattoos to look like?

can't wait for the next update!! :)

Ooooh I sure do! The story has only briefly touched on the tattoos up to this point and I have a scene planned that will go into further detail of them but since that's not in the near future I'll give you guys the scoop lol

(Spoiler warning, just in case)

A flower none other than the red spider lily :D

And Dazai and Atsushi aren't the only ones that have one! They all have different variations depending on their tastes.

Dazai has the "messiest" looking one, something like the picture on the left. Atsushi's looks like the one on the right.

Hello!! I have two questions about the story:

1) How big is Dazais ship and crew? I just can't imagine how big the ship would have to be for it to comfortably fit 40+ people (that estimated number comes from chapters 11-13)

2) In what part of the world does this story take place in (if there is a specific region)? I suppose they speak japanese in the story, which would mean somewhere around there?

(also I can't describe how excited I am about the next update sugsjvslbahaus)

Thank you!! 💙

Hi!! Happy to answer:

1.) The ship is on the larger side! I searched up a lot of ships while outlining the story but none of them fit the plot like I needed it to (yep, even the ship has lore!) until I eventually settled on a three-masted frigate. The crew is made up of about 50 members, which is a small number when compared to the size of the ship, a type which can hold crews about three-times the size. Btw I referenced this diagram (and then took a few creative liberties) with the structure of the boat:

For reference, here’s a few examples of frigates:

2.) The environmental setting is fictional with some real-world inspiration. They do speak Japanese but there’s also a monarchy which is loosely based on the English throne (hence the references to gold and red uniforms). But really, I won’t use any real-life names of countries or territories, every place they visit will only exist in their story so if you want to picture them in a specific region, go for it!

I’m sorry it’s taking me so long to come back but I will!! 💜

Just asking and I hope it's not rude (if it is just ignore it) but do you have any idea of how your posting schedule will look like now (as in will the next chapter be out in 1-2 months or 8)? Are you doing better?

All the best<33

Hi! I'm doing alright now, not 100%, but I'm definitely not going to be gone for that long again. Ideally I would like my schedule to be something like an update every 10-14 days, though it's hard to really set that in motion with everything I have going on. Once everything settles down around me, I'll work on being more consistent with the updates!

double black, a rare moment of peace

Hi! I wanted to ask if the implied/sexual assault tag for the tides pull us closer was for the early scenes in chapter 1 when the prison commander was blackmailing Chuuya, or if there’s more that will be covered later in the fic?

Hi!! So, later on, they will travel to...sketchy places and there might be some elements of that in there. However, I haven't planned out those parts in much detail yet, so I can't say for sure, just that there's a possibility.

Does Dazai actually hate chuuya's hair/eyes or is he just very deep in denial? His reactions have really gotten me thinking..

Well, he's definitely not a fan of the combo. I mean, how would you feel if the person you're trying to torment also happened to have strikingly vibrant hair and gorgeous eyes? I'd be fighting demons every day trying to look past their features lol

the update was amazing!!!!!! your writing is genuinely so amazing,,, dazais slow realization is so fun to read about. i know you said you struggled with the chuuya laughing scene but it was really well written!!

are there any moments/chapters you’re really looking forward to writing next??

Thank you!! It's a short scene but I'm glad my work paid off!

As for your question...YES!! Where do I even begin?? There's this scene that's coming up that's been on my doc ever since I began planning out the story and I've been dying to get to!! Well, I say "coming up" but we wont get to it for a few more chapters. It's a skk scene and I'm excited because we get a change in scenery and it's important for their development but ahh I can't give too much away...