2 May 2021

Unlearning your own toxic patterns to become a better 'you' is self-care.

Questions for Ada, Ijeoma Umebinyuo

You are you and that is more than enough. 💫

Really can’t seem to catch a break lately.

I’m exhausted.

19 July 2021

Happy (and proud) to announce that your girl made it to the gym today :) Getting back into my routine was, surprisingly, easier than I thought it would be.

As for what I’ve been doing for my routine, I’ve been continuing with my slightly modified version of the tik tok famous 12330 workout. If you’re not on tik tok or just haven’t heard of the workout, the 12330 workout is a treadmill workout that was created by Lauren Giraldo. Basically, you walk on the treadmill on an incline of 12, speed of 3, for 30 minutes. I’ve been doing a 10330 (Incline 10, speed 3, for 30 minutes). I plan on working my way up, incline wise. I also plan on incorporating additional forms of cardio, such as the stairmaster and elliptical, just to switch things up and to make sure working out doesn’t get to tedious for me. 

I also started incorporating weight training last month. Mind you, I am not an expert. I just do what each weight machine says and I pick the ones that target the muscles I’m trying to work. 

I’m sure there will be more days and weeks where I have little to no motivation. But, I will just try to push through them, as I did this time around, and listen to my body and gauge how I feel as time goes on.

For now, what I’m doing works for me. I will post more details (e.g. types of weight lifting, diet, etc) when I start to see the results I’m aiming for and when I become more confident with sharing. :)

Stay well, friends.

So…a lot has happened since my last post, which explains my unplanned absence. I’ve been prioritizing other aspects of my life these past few weeks, which, admittedly, have been kind of rough. But, I’m, officially, back in school and ready to crush this semester. One of my goals is to make sure I don’t neglect myself in the pursuit of academic success, which is something I, unfortunately, did last school year. I mean…there were other things happening last year that contributed to me neglecting myself, but school was one of the major things. I still plan on doing well, but my approach is going to be a lot different this time around.

As for my fitness/health goals…not too much has changed. I’m still aiming to lose weight, but I’ve decided to change my mindset about certain aspects. For one, instead of waiting until I weigh a certain amount to wear certain types of clothes, I’ve decided to start wearing said clothes regardless. If there’s something I want to try, I’m just going to go for it. If I end up not liking how it looks…then oh well. I’m tired of holding myself back from different experiences because of my appearance (or, rather, because of how unhappy I am with my appearance). I deserve to be happy and live life, no matter what I look like and no matter what stage my body is in. To whoever is reading this…you deserve to as well.

Well, I’m going to go eat dinner, watch a show or two, work on some homework, and go to bed. Then, tomorrow morning, I’m hitting the gym. :)

23 April 2023- Reset

So, I know it’s been a while...

I’m sorry for not being consistent with posting on here. It’s been a really rough few months. 

There are multiple sources of the stress I’ve been experiencing, both in my personal life and at work. 

I’ve been really depressed and lonely and have been dealing with a lot of anxiety.

I haven’t been to the gym in several months, so I haven’t even had much to report here anyway...

I’ve been feeling horrible about myself and I feel like my life has been very stagnant. It also doesn’t help that my birthday was just a few days ago. I feel like this has added to the existential dread I’ve been experiencing this weekend...

I know I need to start taking care of myself again. It’s just really hard sometimes.

But, I intend to start doing that. I’m going to treat this coming week as a reset. 

Starting tomorrow, I’m going to restart my health and fitness goals. I’m going to start going to the gym again and incorporate more nutrient-dense foods into my diet. I’m going to start focusing on myself and my needs more. I’m going to revisit the vision board I made for this year and remind myself about the intentions I, originally, had for 2023 (before stuff started going to shit). I’m going to start journaling again. I’m going to become re-attuned to my spirituality and more proactive with my spiritual practices (e.g., manifesting, cleansing, meditating, etc.). I’m going to start trusting myself again and working on improving my intuition. I’m going to be more consistent with self-care. I’m going to continue to go to therapy and heal. 

I’ll do whatever it takes to start feeling better again.

1 January 2023 - Happy New Year!

Hey ya’ll!

It’s, definitely, been a minute...

I’m really sorry for the inconsistency in posts these past few months. Life got chaotic again, but I’m back (again) and in time for the new year.

I, finally, finished creating my 2023 intentions and vision board yesterday. I made my vision board the background for both my laptop and my phone’s lock screen. To be honest...I did not achieve a majority of my 2022 goals. Looking back at my 2022 vision board was painful. I was extremely disappointed in myself when I realized how little I accomplished on the list I created for myself at the beginning of last year. All that time spent for nothing...

However, I really feel like this year is going to be different. I’m feeling, cautiously, optimistic. I was a lot more specific with the intentions I included on my list, as well as with the images and quotes I chose for my vision board. I think that is going to be very beneficial in the long run. 

Overall, I’m ready for 2023. I’m ready to stop settling for less than what I deserve out of life. I’m ready to stop self-sabotaging. I’m ready to stop getting in the way of my goals. I’m ready to stop letting other people’s opinions and negative energy get in the way of my goals as well. This year is going to be the year of focusing more on myself and putting myself first. This year I’m prioritizing my own needs. This year I’m being more selfish (and there is nothing wrong with that). 

This is going to be a year of healing, abundance, and prosperity. I can feel it in my soul. 

Free girl , she deserves whatever she desires