Guess Who Did Ask The Hard Things Today?!?!

My favourite podcast changed the picture that shows on Spotify and I’m going to go FUCKING. Insane!!!!

Edit: I still can’t listen to it

I have discovered the queue setting on Tumblr. I can say all my thoughts and they won’t post all in one block then nothing for a week!!!

So, I am about 4 month on T (yay man juice) and I love public speaking.

My current problem is that I am not comfortable with my voice dropping, not because I don’t want it too but because it’s new and I don’t know what it sounds like so I don’t know what sounds good

I used to have a very certain way I would pick certain ways to pick monologues and speeches that included finding parts that I liked in my voice and “fixing” the parts that don’t.

But now it’s like I’m trying to relearn how to talk

I fucking love this artist!!!

Vienna Vienna 🫡🫡🫡

Here’s a post by my best friend about what’s going on and if you want to help, report @darling for harrasment.

okay my side of the story

under the cut because i know most of you are sick of this (very understandably)

Darling messaged me a week or two ago and asked to help out in the community

after adding them as a mod they reiterated that they wanted to help as an admin so that they could edit guidelines. i was unsure about this but gave them my trust because they have experience modding.

i made a draft of a new pinned post and new rules in the autism mod community so that our mods could give their input. i was waiting for the original poll in the main community to be over before i posted it. in the mean time a they made their own draft of a pinned post. i liked some aspects of theirs but as the creator of the community assumed i would make the final say and pin the post. i made a new version of mine with some aspects of theirs (so that they would know their opinion was being listened to) and posted it in the mod community. they said they liked it.

the poll in the main community was over so i posted it. they got very mad at me for posting it and called me a tyrant. we started beefing in the autism mod community. i retaliated because from my perspective they were getting mad at me and attacking me for nothing. i didnt originally understand what they were upset about. after talking today it turns out the whole thing they were mad about was me “stealing” the post. i apologized and reiterated that i thought we had agreed to post it

i asked the mod community what they thought of all this and Darling banned every mod that disagreed with them

i then started to get rather upset because i felt they were power tripping and being uncooperative.

they banned my partner for sharing his opinion. and albeit i started to take it a little too personally

i made a poll asking the mods if they wanted darling to keep doing what they were doing. they deleted it and made their own. it’s at this point i removed the new mod because i didn’t want new mods brought into the middle of this

Darling and i talked it out in dms and came to a tentative stalemate after i heard their side of the story and i calmed down

then comes this after noon

Darling made a post asking people to consider blazing their post about their charity community

i acknowledged that it was a good community but that it went against guideline number 7

they proceeded to say that no one cares about the guidlines and that they don’t have to follow them

i disagreed

they got mad at me for suggesting that they’re post was against the guidelines

i, being very tired of this asked them to step down.

this didn’t go well and they started being hostile and threatening the community

as we are both admins i have no power to remove them to the community

i took the the Autism page because i thought if anyone could do anything it would be the wider community seeing what’s happened and making their own opinions. Darling has deleted every post i’ve made on the situation and banned every member who has spoken out in support of me

we have both reported the other for harassment. i suppose now we wait and see what happens

My grandma fixed my bag and added a pocket :)

Johnny and pony are in a qpr and they will always be together

What do you mean that Jonny does so they can’t be in a qpr FOREVER…

YOUR HONOUR, THIS MAN IS SLANDERING THE NAMES OF THESE BOYS

The fact that I’m not diagnosed with autism fucking sucks. Like, many people have told me they think I have autism, including my therapist but because my mother will not even put me on the wait list for a diagnosis I won’t know for at least two years if I am autistic (probably more then two years). All because my mom doesn’t believe I’m autistic.

All because she doesn’t understand, I don’t get the support I need. The closest I get to feeing validated is my best friend saying that she is there for me and that she believes me. This is hard.

I need help to function properly but no one will help me. I can’t do so many things that people my age should be able to. I can’t get my license because I’m too scared to drive alone because I zone out a lot and don’t think I could process everything. But my dad keeps pressing me to get it.

I can’t do everything all the time. I am supposed to swim for 2 hours four days a week but I can’t do that. I have to lie to my mom and tell her I’m sick so I can stay home because she doesn’t let me take mental health days ever.

I can’t have a social life because I can’t hang out with anyone for more then 30 minutes except my QPP.

I don’t understand social situations so when I try to understand and make a mistake people get mad at me.

I need help with taking care of myself because it’s to much for me to do alone but my mom isn’t willing to help.

My mom refuses to keep my comfort foods in the house because I “eat them to fast”

No one believes me when I tell them my problems. At school it’s because I have good grades. My mom doesn’t believe me because I “ function well.”

I’m always tired because I have to mask so often around my family so they don’t say I’m faking it

And worst of all is that despite all of that and more, I might not even be autistic. If I’m not autistic what’s wrong with me?

My uncle about my qpr

“ just a couple of wackos”