HELLO WHEN ANT WAS HIGH AND KISSING THE TREE AND SHIT CA$H SAID TO SPIDER “SUCK IT SPIDER” OHHHH

tall, thin, almost skeletal and sharp barty, with sleepy eyes and a smug smile, who walks in the corridors with slightly rounded shoulders and, when he's sitting, he stretches his legs and his feet under the table collide with the shoes of the other death eaters. barty, who laughs at the most inappropriate moments, loud and maniacal, who licks his lips, runs a long, bony finger over the surface of a piece of furniture and collects the dust. his face is more hollow than usual and his hair is disheveled, but his gaze is lively and his movements are fluid, magnetic. barty, who speaks to evan with his chin on his shoulder, exhaling his warm breath, words, laughter, directly onto his neck. barty, curled up in an armchair, with his knees pulled up to his chest, while he scrapes his tongue on the serrated part of his upper teeth, one corner of his mouth slightly lifted up, who wonders how much of his body he can fit into evan's; if, by pressing himself a little, he could ever get under his skin, if there is room for him too, if evan would ever welcome barty inside him like a second soul...

i get the feeling that aaron doesn’t like andreil much 😔

reference picture:

i was scrolling through pinterest, saw this picture and thought: it’s them it is so them.

(is it bad that i want to do a clean version of this silly thing??)

”intricate and endless daddy issues” is wild coming from butcher jr

the lynch brothers are so funny to me bc they’re like.

1. ancient demon god in a skin suit who births monsters and craves violence

2. homunculus with no internal organs and an innate desire to walk to an unknown destination

3. declan

friendly reminder that according to the ec, aaron was already in wymack's radar before he found out about andrew. he had been watching aaron's stats (he was a top ten backliner. top. ten) for four years (four) before he was even aware of the other twin

sometimes i hate how much ppl hate aaron and sometimes i also dislike people a bit for switching up on him so fast after TKM short story

let me say, he was funny from day one and ppl did not get that, and he was very so real too (atleast w me talking)

see, (NO ANDREW HATE BTW TALKING FROM AARON'S PERSPECTIVE) you have this deal with your long lost twin that happened to kill your mother and get you sober but also take you away from any type of social life with a deal that you two will stick together until graduation.

then a little bit too normal and bit too uneasy and weird runaway kid teleports to your life, lies and lies and makes his way into your brothers heart, stealing it while your brother keeps you away from your girlfriend. all while eye fucking the- now ginger weirdo 24/7

after all, it happens to be that the weird ginger kid has connections (and not good at all) connections to the fucking mafia. and also has a prisoner butcher of a father who tried to kill him and a hitman uncle who saved him.

then your brother starts to DATE (so not dating- says andrew) the ginger lying kid and you still can't even see your girlfriend while all you want is that and graduate.

this wasn't supposed to turn out to be a short version of aftg from Aaron's perspective but the point is, i would hate Neil a bit too.

Aaron said it himself "One of these days Aaron would love to know what about that mouthy liar had people bending over backwards for him,"

He didn't and doesn't trust Neil but would i either? Probably not.

And tbh, it isn't like Neil likes Aaron either.

which leads to my second point !

The books are from Neil's perspective, we don't like Riko because Neil most definitely doesn't. We like Andrew because Neil does.

We don't like Aaron- until he gets a pov.

But always, some of us do, some of us (can't respectfully like you if you) like Riko, some of us don't like Andrew, some of us DO like Aaron.

from the start.

anyway, just a little rant.

I don't mean people can't switch opinions or anything, i'm sorry for people who only got to know so late how funny and well written character Aaron is. its also funny to me how people who came at me for liking aaron now like him

if you don't agree about liking aaron or anything, feel free to argue with me because im always willing to talk about aaron

I'm trying to prove a point to my brain: Reblog if you think fanfiction does not need sex to be good.

There is a trend I’ve noticed that smut fics tend to be much more popular than anything else and honestly I just want to have something to look at to remind myself and that writing doesn’t have to have sex to be worth putting out into the community.

the raven boys / the dream thieves

they’d all forgotten that adam was an animal. love this parallel because

1. being his own master w/ the devil/lucifer’s estrangement from heaven + animal autonomy

2. adam (sometimes) believes he is intrinsically bad but this is only (partially) because he was ‘cast out’ by a higher power!

4. many people’s assumptions about adam are wrong. their pitiful “drawings” of him don’t contain his true complexities, and/or at least he thinks they never can.

3. ronan wants to fuck the devil. okay!

4. coca-cola t-shirt 🥺 the archetype of “adam” in red…

my gallavich obsession is back, so get a sketch of the gays

i have a problem BECAUSE HEARTBREAK HIGH X THE RAVEN CYCLE CROSSOVERS ARE MAKING ME GO FUCKING CRAZY AND I HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS (this shit is full of shit and long, but hmo)

I am talking about Cash & Chook = Ronan & Kavinsky parallels, you see

Chook & Kavinsky are pretty obvious, i think. Both are from fucked up families, we can assume both are from families with drug problems and overall substance abuse. They both were kids whose fate was pretty much laid infront of them to follow.

Ronan and Ca$h, also pretty fucked up families, parents gone, not many people from family to lean on, choosing found families, choosing to get better. (word of the day) Also both, are connected to self harming in a way or another.

We also have the scene in HBH where Woodsy calls Chook by his real name (Michael Cooper) and Chook shouts

"That's not my name!"

I am aware this is very subtle and on the border of overanalyzing (and might just be the characters whose pov Kavinsky was told from) but not a single character in trc has called Kavinsky only by his first name (hear me out now)

Later on when Chook and Cash are stuck in the middle of the lake we get to know how Ca$h got his name, Chook saying that he gave Ca$h his name. So I can only assume Chook also gave himself a name. Maybe to be separated as a person from the person he was before.

How we get to Kavinsky is that maybe Kavinsky is all the same, separating his own persona from him by only using his family name.

Getting to other parallels, (now remember Ronan = Cash)

We don't know shit about details (whats that? never heard?) but we can assume.

Chook was the one who helped Ca$h before Nan was in the picture, gave Ca$h a name, a place, a family (more or less), a place to belong

Kavinsky offered all the same, obviously we know that there was some sexual attraction and tension and just Kavinsky pining. But Kavinsky asked Ronan to be one of his, offered Ronan a place to belong, where Ronan could shamelessly be himself. Kavinsky saw all of Ronan what Gansey didn't want to know and acknowledge, that Ronan could be the same as Kavinsky and is the same as Kavinsky, dangerous, destructive, the list goes on.

Ca$h, young Ca$h didn't have anyone else than Chook, but then he did. Then he did have Darren, Harper, Quinni, Amerie, all of them. There isnt such a difference. Kavinsky doesn't have anything else (worth staying for, it seems) but Ronan has Gansey, has Gangsey.

Chook had chosen his lifestyle, Cash even offered Chook that he could change too, Chook declined and said that its his shit. He chose his future.

Kavinsky, too, had chosen his lifestyle, or maybe either of them couldn't think that they could get away from it. He chose his fate, by not getting down and getting killed by his own demon. It was his shit.

So back to the lake scene, now paralleling the last dreaming day and 4th of July.

Let me put these two scenes here, first from TRC

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The difference between us and Kavinsky, Gansey whispered in Ronan’s head, is we matter.

“You don’t fucking need him,” Kavinsky said.

Ronan released the parking brake.

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Chook: Look can we stop fucking about please. You're one of us. So why don't we just cut the shit and get back to how things were?

Cash: You don't get it, I can't.

Both, at the end refused to get back to whatever it was they had, they chose to get better.

While Chook & Kavinsky didn't. (yes im repeating this because theres so so so so so many times Ronan offered a possibility to Kavinsky and Kavinsky didn't take it because he couldn't have Ronan anyway (Cash wasn't that hopeful and asked only once))

Now, there's (still the lake) scene where Chook talks about how it was "me, who took care of you, me who.. , me me me." and theres Kavinsky, who taught Ronan how to dream.

More lines !

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Cash: I haven't been taken in by some other world. I just saw ours for what it was. And it made me sick.

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Going to how Cash and Ronan both, realised that the world they lived/could've chosen is not good. Is the wrong way and leads to more harm than good.

To the last part.

Cash telling Chook that he'd rather be dead than come back to Chook, go back to the world he now despises, (or always has.)

There's the way that Chook breaks when he hears that. The blinks his tears away, nods, gulps, sniffs, turns away and grunts, spits, acting fine. Tries the boat again and says, "Guess I just needed to show it a bit of love."

Now I haven't been able to actually get full sense of that line yet, but theres a deeper meaning to that (which rlly fucking annoys me that i dont know) But theres also Kavinsky when Ronan leaves the new dreamt up Camaro, hitting air, turning around, threatening, his voice shifting, expressing his feelings with rage but still hiding them. Like Chook did.

I'm aware there's probably many stories like this with character's like these, but their actions too, their personalities (not Ronan and Cash so much but I can see a (canon) Kavinsky variant in Chook, both running around with their pack of dogs.)

Anyway if you're as fucked as me and read this through, lmk what you think, (i repeated the same things over and over again but spare me)