There Is A Hidden Softness To The Winter, Though, Like The Underbelly Of An Old Matted Cat.

I try to make something beautiful of my pain, but sometimes I just have to sit with it. Sometimes all you can do is sit with it.

The fog creeps in,

thick like breath

on a window,

the hills fold

into themselves,

and I am

somewhere else

while the red bridge

cuts through the mist

like a wound

that has yet to heal

This is so good, I love it!!

I AM MY BIGGEST FAN!!!!

it’s hiding, just behind my eyes

i cannot call it a creature, for 

it has no face, no limbs, not 

even a heart. it is just a shadow. 

a lingering memory that disappears

whenever i focus too hard. 

~K.T.

Distant, whispered ache.

An age between and high stakes.

Leap we didn't take.

the field is not infinite - do you remember when I realized? spacious nowheres torn by the heft of nameless graves - mountains, body-made, bloating beneath the sun - there is no protection from the world, it is something that happens to you -

Unknown Author - Poetry

The music’s still playing as her feet walk out to the sea At the fringe of a lifetime, as her lips whisper to the breeze Does the world turn this calm or’s it the slow rush of the sea Follow me out here Follow me deep

I...I got tagged? Who dare drag me out from under my rock-- oh it's you! Let's see

Last song:

Last book: Possibly the first horror book ever made: Book of Revelations : D. Due to certain circumstances, college and stuff, I'm unable to get back to more fun literature (House of Leaves, open your doors to me again, I beg you).

Last movie: I don't really watch movies, I just can't really find strength to. I suppose the last one would have been...The Green Knight? That was almost a year ago, holy shit.

Last TV show: Trigun Stampede

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: I like all of them, as well as bitter, sour, rich...

Relationship Status: Single

Last Thing Googled: The Green Knight : v. Totally not because I was afraid I was misremembering, nooooo.

Current Obsession: None, I have very much trouble with becoming invested in things. Sure, there are some where I probe into them, but it never is strong enough to be called obsession. That being said, I am most enchanted by Project Moon and Limbus Company. Very cool, would distort again.

Looking forward to: in no particular order

The end of exams

Meeting with my friends

Playing more of DND under Guidance of our beloved DM @trash-ainu

READING HOUSE OF LEAVES, PLEASE LET ME BACK, I WANT TO KNOW

Finishing therapy

Beating Library of Ruina

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Last creative project worked on: I'm not really a creative project person. I guess I made a character and short story for our DND game? Wrote some shitty poetry here and there, and there's a Google drive full of dumb WIPs, like Lancer one shot, weird scifi stuff, story about man hanging in a room... I'll never finish them, but they're here, to taunt me, to laugh at me.

Now, tags, not many, bc I'm kinda a recluse, definitely don't have 10 ppl who I'm comfortable asking, soooooo here's 3 (Yeah, I know, breaking the rule, I'm sowwy ;_;)tbh xd

@postictarus , @crowded-empty-places , @kaytpoems , and open tags for anyone who wants to be interrogated :33

(no pressure, and sorry if I'm bothering you)

10 things for 10 people you'd like to know better:

I also started a new post because these things really do get so long!

Thanks for tagging me @valar-did-me-wrong and @gingeragenda

Last Song:

Last Book: The Silmarillion (dipping in and out as research for my fanfic).

Last Movie: I honestly can’t remember 🫠

Last TV Show: The Traitors

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Savoury just pips it for me

Relationship Status: Married

Last Thing Googled: Wolverine running naked into a barn (was for a conversation I was having with a friend 🙈😂)

Current Obsession: Melkor, Adar, Gil-galad

Looking Forward To: My birthday

Last Creative Project Worked On: My fanfic

No pressure tags for @greenleaf4stuff, @iwanderbecauseimlost, @whenimaunicorn, @varda-starqueen, @strifes13, @small-carbon-lifeform, @marilynshamu, @perlen-gold, @gracefallingart, and @marshmellin (also anyone else who’d like to play).

“I feel Tired and Lonely”

Everything sounds false and

Out of tune

I barely sleep anymore

And only with assistance

“I feel Tired and Lonely”

I really only had one person but that was enough

And now I live for myself

Cause I've got no one else

And I really just want to go home

To a place that no longer exists

I walked

into the wild

and the trees

welcomed me

with open

branches

and open

heart