Do you ever begin a project, make some starting steps (write some code, opening paragraph, draw some lines etc) and next day you wake up you suddenly don't have that spark, that ebb which drove you to starting? Your ideas gone, and you still kinda want to do it, but there's next to no drive?
At evening when I arrived - nowhere a thousand imaginations rose up in me like an enchantment I gave my hands hopelessly into it saw dusk graze itself blindly across the winter hills, blue as its heart and pitched myself into its apple where no arms may hold me but the echous ribbons of a long-lost past
The fog creeps in,
thick like breath
on a window,
the hills fold
into themselves,
and I am
somewhere else
while the red bridge
cuts through the mist
like a wound
that has yet to heal
I float above the debris
Freshly risen from the grave
Where moths gently flutter
And the worms quietly dance
At the rhythm of blue crotchets
Hanging from red green wing tips
Resting beyond the horizon
Where your brokenness waits
Behind a shattered mirror
I'm going to asphyxiate xdddd
An authentic experience of me, reading the Silmarillion for the first time, trying to imagine what Melkor looks like:
Me: If the Ainur can choose how their fanar appear, then I bet he'd go for something physically intimidating... Tall, then. Most likely wierdly white-gray pale, too...
Me: Long, dark hair... Dressed in black robes, ooh! What if they pool at his feet when he stands, so it's kind of like he's emerging from a puddle of darkness... and... hmm.
Me: Why does this sound... familiar? W-who does it remind me of...?
Me: ...wait.
I am so sorry.
Writing stuff when you don't have a full picture yet is fun.
Ah yes, the rumored gender, a rare and elusive sight
There is a hidden softness to the winter, though, like the underbelly of an old matted cat.
Fragile Animals, Genevieve Jagger
Everything sounds false and
Out of tune
I barely sleep anymore
And only with assistance
“I feel Tired and Lonely”
I really only had one person but that was enough
And now I live for myself
Cause I've got no one else
And I really just want to go home
To a place that no longer exists
Mouth full of silver,
a waning cresent smile shines
in the ink of night.
A life of commas and semicolons The pauses and hesitations of the ellipsis The catastrophic ending of paragraphs The solitude of the blank spaces And the freedom of the thought never written