We Need More Cutesy Horrors

smile, they say,

as if a smile is

just a vacuum cleaner

that sucks away

the sorrows of the world

smile, they say,

as if a smile is

just baking soda

that unclogs the drain

that has become my life

smile, they say,

as if a smile is

just a broom

that swipes away the sins

under the bedroom carpet

smile, they say,

and i will, for

how many skulls

have you seen

frowning?

I...I got tagged? Who dare drag me out from under my rock-- oh it's you! Let's see

Last song:

Last book: Possibly the first horror book ever made: Book of Revelations : D. Due to certain circumstances, college and stuff, I'm unable to get back to more fun literature (House of Leaves, open your doors to me again, I beg you).

Last movie: I don't really watch movies, I just can't really find strength to. I suppose the last one would have been...The Green Knight? That was almost a year ago, holy shit.

Last TV show: Trigun Stampede

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: I like all of them, as well as bitter, sour, rich...

Relationship Status: Single

Last Thing Googled: The Green Knight : v. Totally not because I was afraid I was misremembering, nooooo.

Current Obsession: None, I have very much trouble with becoming invested in things. Sure, there are some where I probe into them, but it never is strong enough to be called obsession. That being said, I am most enchanted by Project Moon and Limbus Company. Very cool, would distort again.

Looking forward to: in no particular order

The end of exams

Meeting with my friends

Playing more of DND under Guidance of our beloved DM @trash-ainu

READING HOUSE OF LEAVES, PLEASE LET ME BACK, I WANT TO KNOW

Finishing therapy

Beating Library of Ruina

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Last creative project worked on: I'm not really a creative project person. I guess I made a character and short story for our DND game? Wrote some shitty poetry here and there, and there's a Google drive full of dumb WIPs, like Lancer one shot, weird scifi stuff, story about man hanging in a room... I'll never finish them, but they're here, to taunt me, to laugh at me.

Now, tags, not many, bc I'm kinda a recluse, definitely don't have 10 ppl who I'm comfortable asking, soooooo here's 3 (Yeah, I know, breaking the rule, I'm sowwy ;_;)tbh xd

@postictarus , @crowded-empty-places , @kaytpoems , and open tags for anyone who wants to be interrogated :33

(no pressure, and sorry if I'm bothering you)

10 things for 10 people you'd like to know better:

I also started a new post because these things really do get so long!

Thanks for tagging me @valar-did-me-wrong and @gingeragenda

Last Song:

Last Book: The Silmarillion (dipping in and out as research for my fanfic).

Last Movie: I honestly can’t remember 🫠

Last TV Show: The Traitors

Sweet/Savoury/Spicy: Savoury just pips it for me

Relationship Status: Married

Last Thing Googled: Wolverine running naked into a barn (was for a conversation I was having with a friend 🙈😂)

Current Obsession: Melkor, Adar, Gil-galad

Looking Forward To: My birthday

Last Creative Project Worked On: My fanfic

No pressure tags for @greenleaf4stuff, @iwanderbecauseimlost, @whenimaunicorn, @varda-starqueen, @strifes13, @small-carbon-lifeform, @marilynshamu, @perlen-gold, @gracefallingart, and @marshmellin (also anyone else who’d like to play).

At evening when I arrived - nowhere a thousand imaginations rose up in me like an enchantment I gave my hands hopelessly into it saw dusk graze itself blindly across the winter hills, blue as its heart and pitched myself into its apple where no arms may hold me but the echous ribbons of a long-lost past

you solar flare, enkindle all

lounging poolside plague the apartments nearby yeah, im on your back you're, easy to second god them assume i need your — i really need your — my theoretical models more shameful than Jane Birkin theses and ripped red camelias these are no times for innocent eyes, bordellos our overeducated elbows — passers-by pre-September matchsticks arrival of late — trains you've seen it all, all it seems you've, waved goodbye, if it's fantasy made of swallowtail sensation drunk on your humid breath, — chisel your truths out: of my Mongol hordes hands that warm-up Prajnaparamita Sutra three am — is never deceased, a mouth of Korean cabbage heatwave artform, and we can superglue like last two pages, silky moist after hurricane rains

some days, you’ll learn to be selfish, too

you’ll drink straight from the

jug. wipe your mouth with 

your forearm. you’ll dance 

past dizziness. let the nausea

carry you to bed. you’ll laugh

and laugh until your cheeks pinch. 

~K.T.

Maaaaaaan, this is good. I love your stuff

Hello Realm! A brief showcase of different oc regions

Song: 안녕 아희 (feat.UNI)

Words all jammed together.

No room in your mouth

for all your heart's burdens,

they spill out. A red mess.

There is no vacancy in me,

empty as I am. 

I have no price.

You can't stay.

the field is not infinite - do you remember when I realized? spacious nowheres torn by the heft of nameless graves - mountains, body-made, bloating beneath the sun - there is no protection from the world, it is something that happens to you -

As Moth Is Drawn To A Flame

Attraction

like a moth to a flame

Irresistible

to the glitters of gold, to a

desire for sensuous beauties

From a harmless candle

to a dangerous fire

Folded eyes long for light

from faint familiarity

to rogue recognition

Stimulation

by an arousing emotion

Destruction

awaits the wild imagination

as thoughts lead to actions

Fools

choose deliberately

a wit without wisdom

Popularity draws the young

as Moth is drawn to the Flame

©Johnny J P Lee

13 December 2024

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