SEBASTIAN STAN In ’Captain America: Civil War’, (2016). 

Bucky Barnes and Sam Wilson as text messages

And then I probably won’t pick up anyway

The autistic despair of someone saying “I’ll call you later” and not knowing the exact time when they’re gonna call

It’s like being on alert mode for hours please don’t

They never trusted him

She took my arm I don’t know how it happened

SEBASTIAN STAN and FLORENCE KASUMBA in THE FALCON AND THE WINTER SOLDIER, 2021. Dir. by Kari Skogland.

Imagine having late night talks with Bucky Barnes…

“Hey, Bucky?” you turn on your side to face him.

“Yes, doll?”

“Are missions scary?” you wonder.

He tilts his head and shrugs, “Not really.”

“But what about all the scary guys with guns and those aliens?” your brows furrow.

“I’m used to it,” the corners of his lips curve upwards, “You’re dating an old, wise one-hundred-year-old man, Y/N.” He leans up to kiss your forehead, “I’ve seen the world.”

You huff, “Well then what are you afraid of?”

Bucky reaches his hand out to you. He caresses your cheek and moves your stray hairs behind your ear, “Losing you.”

After more than two years of total silence, here I'm again.

It has been a very tough time for my mental health and I almost completely stopped drawing. This is one of the few pieces I was able to do in the last years and... it's quite indicative of the state of mind I was in xD

Thankfully it's so much better now and I'm starting to enjoy drawing again <3

(Pss… If you want to follow me also on patreon you will find many - happier and spicy - new drawings!)

SEBASTIAN STAN behind the scenes of CAPTAIN AMERICA: THE WINTER SOLDIER (2014). Dir. by Anthony and Joe Russo

SEBASTIAN STAN Bupkis (2023)

No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!

being autistic is being overwhelmed/overstimulated by how messy your place is but not having the spoons to clean