Haley Lu Richardson As Casey In Columbus (2017) Dir. Kogonada

°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ intro °❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･ pls read!!

tw’s: sh just like my observations, nsft.

i just post whatever. 18 black femme.

i love movies, books, shows + music! i have a LARGE dvd and cd collection and i want to talk to anyone about anything!!! about being a femme4butch lesbian, i want to make lesbian specifically butch and femme friends who are also kind of not typical. also if you like rookie mag interact! cause i love rookie sm. i’m gonna tag the things i like!

i think the blog will probs have nsfw since it’s a diary so anyone under 18 (06) DNI. zionists, fatphobes, edt, men, lesbophobes and homophobes, transphobes DNI

just to make sure, anything i say about butches/studs is within the context that i am respecting them and not denouncing butches to just sexual beings. i love butches + studs beyond being partners, and will always value the friendship. The obvious eroticism in the butchfemme dynamic should not be lost on everyone, i am embracing it not just someone.

this feels so disorganised lol

FREE PALESTINE 🇵🇸 and all occupied countries.

We Are Who We Are: 1.01 (2020) dir. Luca Guadagnino

i’m forever going to want someone to be straight forward with me. if i’m doing too much if im doing too little. if they like me or hate me. i need to be convinced they don’t hate me and it’s such a bad trait bc at the start it’s seen as cute and “oh she’s shy” or like im inexperienced and then it slowly evolves into me being a beg and needing confirmation that what im saying is ok. this is such bull but yeah i just wanted to blab

i only have tiktok bc of edits and sending them to my friends but i genuinely miss when 2020/2021/22 when i deleted it and had a sense of freedom.

i’m already a very anxious person and an overthinker but lately it feels like everything is fuelling discourse and like they’re so minuscule and normal. it’s like people are fabricating so many fake things in order to fuck people up and the same thing with twitter.

believe it or not in those years that app was like a safer place and funny but ever since elon took over it feels like a deep pit of hell. the butchfemme discourse that goes on the there is another type of hell, mind you i don’t say shit there but it feels like everyone’s regurgitating the same shit to get likes and i hate it. im trying to ween myself off but with the way the world works, these apps seem to be an important part of our lives.

tw: sh

everytime i’ve talked to someone and the doctors about my mental health they’ve just assumed im a teenage girl who’s going through it and like that it’s regular degular shit and there’s this underlying comment that ‘at least you’re not harming yourself’ WHEN I AM! like yes i am and the marks are visible and my mom literally mentioned how the scars couldn’t be scratches.. like i don’t know how them knowing would help but maybe acknowledging that im not lying when i say i dont want to live would be a start.

i want to take care of a butch lover so much. i want to kiss their arms when they're sore or tired and hold their hands in mine circling heart shapes on their palms. i want to hug their neck and hold their head safe and close to my chest to tuck them away from the noise of their day. i want to gently caress their nape and neck, calling them "darling" and "adored", listening to their worries and whispering back the most softest words. having them sleep on my body, while i keep the warmth of the blanket in check to cover them fully. make them something sweet as they prefer, smooch their lips the moment they're asking what i'm making for them. filling them with "i love you"s at the most random moments and finding incredibly aching to be departing from their closeness even for a moment. because i adore them so deeply. because i constantly want to remind them that they're everything to me.

i know i’m too much like i want them all for myself like for them not to talk to ANYONE i feel so fucked up. but if what i’m saying is weird im just hoping they are forward with me cause i keep on telling them how i feel weird that im jealous and they’re ok with it???

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being a horny slutty lesbian is one of life’s greatest pleasures