Abused Kid Things #3

It’s like all the sudden you’re in a body that’s not yours, a place you can’t recognize. Like Alice falling down the rabbit hole, you are in this place and nothing seems real or right. You want to run, but your legs aren’t yours and you can’t move. You want to scream for help, but your are struggling to breath. Lights seem blinding, sounds pierce through you like daggers. Soon you are lost in a dark room trying to find your way out… but your thoughts turn into living creatures crawling and screaming under your skin. They scream you are going insane, you are going to lose control. They tell you they are in control and you’ll hurt yourself or someone else. You can’t trust your thoughts, you can’t trust yourself so you stay in the darkness so everyone is safe, soon they stop crawling and screaming, but you can’t leave the room. Your body is weak from fighting, your mind is no longer yours.

Und die Moral von der Geschicht: Manchmal ist man besser dicht.

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Addiction. Spending money on drugs instead of necessities. Emptying your bank account for a gram. Starving for days, high on the shit that makes you feel invincible. Stealing from family to make it through the week you say it’s for gas but it’s really for drugs. Giving your body to a man that sees you as a piece of meat just for 300 bucks a week you feel worthless. Addiction. Always wanting to quit but never knowing how. Addiction. Afraid to tell your family because you’re scared they’ll shut you out. Addiction. Snorting lines in your room alone because you have nothing better to do. Addiction. Feeling like the biggest failure for just trying to numb the pain. Addiction.

Friendly reminder to check you’re not holding tension in your body. Let your shoulders drop, unclench your hands and jaw. Take a deep breath. Much better.

shitty parents will literally fill your ears constantly about how all worst things in the world would happen to you “in real life” and then act surprised when you develop a fucking anxiety disorder