shitty parents will literally fill your ears constantly about how all worst things in the world would happen to you “in real life” and then act surprised when you develop a fucking anxiety disorder
When you parked too far away and left your phone in the car.
Addiction. Spending money on drugs instead of necessities. Emptying your bank account for a gram. Starving for days, high on the shit that makes you feel invincible. Stealing from family to make it through the week you say it’s for gas but it’s really for drugs. Giving your body to a man that sees you as a piece of meat just for 300 bucks a week you feel worthless. Addiction. Always wanting to quit but never knowing how. Addiction. Afraid to tell your family because you’re scared they’ll shut you out. Addiction. Snorting lines in your room alone because you have nothing better to do. Addiction. Feeling like the biggest failure for just trying to numb the pain. Addiction.
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me, 10 minutes ago: i’m gonna start taking my meds again!!!! going to the gym!!!! taking care of myself!!!!! me now: i’m just gonna ruin my life real quick
ur twenties are weird. i have the priorities of a kindergartener again. i don’t know what in the hell is going on EVER. i like colors. i like soup. i want to take a nap