Yes- Lets All Meet Up And Love And Support Ralph-

Don't kill yourself, please.

If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.

If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.

there will be no abusive deceit in this house.

and to the tags you can see more of me ranting, thank you for coming to my tour.

My Friend: "i have like 172 things in my inbox, and like, 28 drafts, how many do you have"

Me: "i have one thing in my inbox and four drafts, literally two of the things in my drafts are unfinished fanfictions"

My friend: "ugh your so lucky, i have so much work to do"

Me, needs attention 99.9% of the time,has no idea how my girlfriend tolerates me: "yep"

Still Love Me?

Pairing: Gavin Reed x FTM Trans Reader

this was a request- i forgot there name already im so sorry- it was something about lance- ill put it in the notes later-

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I Sat alone, in the living room. I had been thinking for weeks, i had gotten surgery a week ago. I hadnt gotten top surgery yet, maybe a could hide it until i got top surgerery. Yeah ill hide it tl then. i didnt know how gavin would react, i didnt even tell him was getting surgery. he just thought i was playing hard to get. i let him think that. i was too nervous.

I was too scared to tell him, i couldnt risk anything yet. i plopped down onto the couch, face first. sighing.

The door knob began to jiggle as i heard someone unlocking it, most likley gavin, i began to panic, i did not have pants on, in an attempt to be comfortable. i ran to the bedroom, quickly getting some skinny jeans on. cursing at myself.

"Hey Darling, guess whos home?"

"oh! hey gavin honey!

"you sound on edge? whats wrong?"

"nothing, honey"

i wanted to cry, break down and sob into his shoulder and talk about how nervous and scared i was. but i couldnt. i couldnt bring myself to it. i had no courage. Im so scared. I had to hold myself back from breaking down. walking down back into the living room. he was in the kitchen so i just waited in the living room, maybe i should tell him. stop being a coward.

but he walked out from the kitchen, sippng his coffee. and all that confidence disappeared.

I couldnt do it, he'd hate me. i dont even know how he'd react but i know itd be bad. so i kept quiet some more. i couldnt, just couldnt, the way he looked at me, a soft smirk on his face or a sincere smile. i was afraid to lose him. i was afraid to lose that special relatonship, being known as the person who could make him sincerely smile and no one else can.

"wanna coffee?"

"gavin, you know im attempting to diet right?"

"oh whats a little coffee gonna be?"

"alot of health problems"

"not really darling"

"yes really, hon"

He snickered, god i loved him. yet im too much of a coward to even tell him something that could affect our relationship. He went to sit next to me. Smiling at me. and i broke. i began to cry, cuddling up to him, he wrapped his arms around me. rubbing circles in my back. he may be an asshole sometimes. but hes caring, really.

"Whats wrong, darling?"

"Im so sorry, im so sorry, im so so sorry gavin"

"what are you sorry about?"

"Im sorry i shouldve told you when i first did it, im trans, gavin, i got surgery last week."

"oh, darling..why didnt you tell me sooner?"

"..i thought you would hate me.."

"i could never hate you, sure i may be an asshole sometimes, but i could never hate you."

"i love you, gavin.."

"I love you too, Y/N"

and with that, we passed over the subject quite quickly. getting over it. after like, 20 minutes. we cuddled up into a blanket and watched cheesy cop movies from 7-10 years ago. all night. fluffy blankets huddled around us and coffee on the side table along with rings from not having coasters, we cuddled until we fell asleep.

when will people use the anon function to send passionate, homosexual anonymous love letters

the last 3 times were ur fault- stop trying to fuck me over the table-

i bROKE A VASE sHIIIAAATT

God I was REALLY fucking hoping I’d be able to avoid having to make this post but here I am.  If you guys remember my last crowdfunding post, I needed help paying my upcoming electric bill bc my job search (which has been ongoing since before my move) has so far turned up nothing.  I really don’t want to make this too long but basically, I’ve been looking for a job for three plus months and despite so many applications and some interviews here and there, I’ve had absolutely no luck.  The money that I managed to raise/save up last year before my move in December was enough to cover three months and when March comes, I will need $600 for the rent.  I have no job currently and no alternative streams of income so in order to keep from becoming homeless again I really need your help.

This area of the U.S. has scant if any renters’ protection laws so I have pretty much zero wiggle room in terms of time frame and it’s very important that this goal is met before March 7th.  It’s also the absolute dead of winter and it just keep getting colder so I losing my apartment in this weather is the absolute last thing I need.  My car isn’t in this state currently so I don’t even have that to sleep in and even if I did, in this weather is would 100% kill me. I don’t talk about it often on here because I’m so glad to be past it now but my housing crisis last year was literally one of the most stressful and harrowing periods of my very young life!  I hate thinking about it and I still live in terror of ever experiencing that again.  It had a seriously negative effect on my physical and mental health and I would be beyond appreciative if I could have y’all’s help in keeping me out of another situation like that.

I’m collecting enough for two months so I can have a little peace of mind while I keep searching for a job.  If everyone who follows me donated just $1 I would have more than enough to stay safe and housing secure for a very long time so please consider donating!  If you can’t donate for any reason, you’re being just as helpful by reblogging this post!

cashapp: $ghostclvb paypal: ghostclvb

$0/$1200

Don’t fuck with me man I’ll shove a drumstick up your ass!

MD to saxophonist

well, it’s thursday

thursday needs a meme, here’s my attempt to contribute. it’s thursday and i’m here to help. thanks

I play saxophone and their name is baby

musicians of tumbr reblog with your instrment and its name

ill go first, i play violin and her name is sardine