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Silence sometimes is the loudest cry

Suddenly the soul no longer plays along. My body feels empty. Don’t be like that, I tell myself. Hang in there, you won’t let it get you down. I’m trying to play cool. But that costs additional strength. Darkness comes more and more often. My gaze is empty. My body’s getting heavy. I can’t hide it anymore. The abyss captivates me.

I had stopped feeling, feeling what my emotions wanted to tell me. Eventually the pressure became so strong that I couldn’t ignore it. And I was amazed at how big the emotional memory of my subconscious seems to be. I was getting more and more aware that I couldn’t run away from myself.

Emotions are my teachers

At some point we have to face it. The only question seems to be just when. My emotions can only control me as long as I don't want to admit them. They are a way to get to know me better. Emotions show me how well I can deal with situations. Emotions are a measure of my own development.

What are you missing the most in your life at the moment?

@emmazinzin

We hope for joy, ease and success in life. Unpleasant aspects such as sadness, loneliness and illness can be left out. Wounded life takes place behind closed doors. Somewhere where, if possible, nobody sees us. For a long time I approached my goals full of energy and passion. With enthusiasm, perseverance, patience and willpower everything seemed to be possible. It's a nice feeling. To set out to discover the world. Until I was suddenly torn out of my dreams.

I would never ask you to wear a mask for me in order to hide what you’re going through. I love you, no matter what.

The Great Void

A shadow lay over my life. The laughing, the happiness became less. The sadness grew. At first I was astounded. The change came creeping and yet unstoppable. I felt a void in which everything seemed to drown. A black hole in which my zest for life sank. I lead a rich life. Rich in meaning, rich in hobbies, rich in people, rich in tasks, rich in wealth. Yet this great void in me. Is that possible? Is that allowed? Am I not grateful enough? What have I done wrong?

I'm dancing in the rain so no one can see me crying.