Silence Sometimes Is The Loudest Cry

Emotions are my teachers

At some point we have to face it. The only question seems to be just when. My emotions can only control me as long as I don't want to admit them. They are a way to get to know me better. Emotions show me how well I can deal with situations. Emotions are a measure of my own development.

Wounded Life

When I was on the ground for the first time, I felt how stale advice can be. When the energy fades, the dreams dissolve into air, another era begins. If the body fails to obey its obedience, the old strategies no longer work. Suddenly many things become strenuous. Very strenuous.

If a girl/boy you liked was mentally ill, would you still want her/him as your gf/bf?

Yes, of course I will/would still love you/her/him.Sometimes it's just difficult to show my love because in those moments when you're/he’s/she’s splitting on me, I don't know how to behave towards you/her/him, so that it's not uncomfortable for you/her/him.I(’d) still love you the same, I just don’t know how to express it in those moments.

Experience is Wisdom

Shame is often the companion of weakness, because lying on the floor it is difficult to preserve dignity. Suddenly I sense how others have to feel at such moments. You want understanding, not advice. For a long time, I was just looking at the nice feelings. I want to walk through life in a good mood. What am I supposed to do with sadness and fear? I denied myself and my feelings.

How can anyone be that cute?

I love you

There’s a dark cloud covering the great sun you are. After it lifts, you’ll be shining.

Someone’s always there for you. No matter what.

The picture with the curves you drew

Over time I learned to deal with difficult feelings like loneliness, fear and hopelessness. That doesn't mean they've lost their horror for me. It means a lot more, they're familiar to me. I can face them differently.

I find the loss of strength much more serious. Dealing with the inner emptiness is already a challenge for me. To still go further, to raise me up again and again. Without energy, even that becomes a farce. When simple daily routines exhaust me, the fear grows that I will not be able to get up again at some point.

Depression can be a fresh start. By learning to feel myself better again, I can change the direction of my life. Maybe more humility is called for again. Maybe I can stop and ask myself what really matters.

We hope for joy, ease and success in life. Unpleasant aspects such as sadness, loneliness and illness can be left out. Wounded life takes place behind closed doors. Somewhere where, if possible, nobody sees us. For a long time I approached my goals full of energy and passion. With enthusiasm, perseverance, patience and willpower everything seemed to be possible. It's a nice feeling. To set out to discover the world. Until I was suddenly torn out of my dreams.