Currently want to puke from stress.š¤š»
My mental health is very steadily deteriorating, I need a vacation and like a week of self care immediately. I am having to actively focus on not dissociating or thinking too hard about my school or I risk a panic attack. Or my heart giving, out I donāt know.
The problem is thorough self care takes energy and spare time I donāt have.
Why is it designed like this. Who decided this was a good way to do this. I want to leave. Europe take me to where thereās work life balance and Iām not in danger of being mowed down by bullets or hate crimed in the streets for my sexuality.
Okay not ragging on wearing seatbelts at all, DEFINITELY DO THAT, but I will say that I kinda do think seat belts are sexist. Mostly because cars were designed with male drivers in mind and to this day the majority of crash tests are conducted WITH male-only dummies- this has skewed the survivorship of male and female drivers, because women arenāt the the ones with the design in mind, they end up dying on a much more regular basis. (You cannot convince me no woman has ever been boob slapped at an ungodly force because an airbag wasnāt aimed correctly at her chest), I think that the seat beltās design is just a vestigial remnant of that fact. Women are more likely to die in a crash as the driver, and itās because cars arenāt usually being tested with female-designed dummies. (Thereās a few around now, but this is still pretty new.)
I sincerely think that while unimportant (technically), the design of seat belts could definitely be modified for the comfort of all people while also being safe, if not even safer. Just cause it works doesnāt mean it canāt be better!
Also??? Breast amputation????? Girl- if car crashes resulted in male castrations the design wouldāve been changed immediately. Donāt even play with me right now. Even if itās survivorship bias thatās still a permanent and disfiguring injury that is by all means preventable by an improved design. No one gender or sex should suffer severe bodily disfigurement because they werenāt accounted for. That just isnāt ok.
And itās not even just women this applies to. Would it kill us to actually cover the rough fabric in soft sleeves? I remember seat belts rubbing and even sometimes burning my skin as a child- because they donāt account for the kaleidoscope of people who will enter, exit, and use a seatbelt while in the car. Children are sensitive to that stimulus too. I donāt think parents of special needs children (or any children, for that matter) should have to go about replacing their carās seatbelts because some Rich ass company decided to not improve a preexisting design because they want to hold on to their money with greedy grubby fingers. Kinda defeats the purpose of innovation if not a soul tries to improve at something.
What Iām saying is- safety devices like seatbelts are important, and they should absolutely be used and worn, but they can stand to be improved and updated to be better for everyone. Just because they work doesnāt mean their design was inclusive from the jump nor is it currently. Seatbelts working and seat belts having a rather unfriendly design for certain groups are both true statements that can coexist without either being wrong. But thatās something that is fixable. And it shouldnāt be ignored just because it works.
The people whoāve done the most harm to me are the people I loved and trusted completely. The people who I thought loved me as much as I loved them. I didnāt think they could hurt me. Because they were supposed to love me. And then one day they did hurt me, and suddenly everything no longer made sense in the world anymore.
The truth is that love is a double ended sword. To wield it you make a wound; you must be vulnerable to have it, and that vulnerability will either run you through or make you twice as strong. And the scary part is that you put your fate of your heart in someone elseās hands. It is literally to disarm yourself and trusting completely.
I just wish I could say Iāve been skewered through the emotional guts by people I gave my everything less than I actually have.
God I wish I had some lmao
shoutout to friends btw. best thing earth has to offer
No. Itās not supposed to anyways.
Youāre also supposed to be able to see the leaves on trees from afar, not just blobs. That discovery is courtesy of a six year old me getting her first pair of glasses and confusing the shit out of her mother on the drive home.
Get your eyes checked love š
(I mean that with the most tender of love, I have severe astigmatism in both eyes. You do, in fact, need glasses my dear.)
Am I cringe for liking a dragon fic? Maybe. But you can tear dragon nrmt from my cold, dead hands.
Damn the hurricane headed for Florida went from a cat one to a cat five in less than 24 hours.
Fun fact; in recorded history itās only been one of seven to do that.
I might be cooked yall.
(Of course itās one with a lame ass name too, tf kinda name is Milton. At least Helene was a classy name. Might just get my ass beat by a bitch named fucking Milton.)
I too also repeatedly say āoh noāāin Latin when I am freaking the fuck out about a volcano exploding and killing my entire family.
Bastille was right. How am I gonna be an optimist about this. Also right about eh eho eho.
For those of you reading my Halloween fic of werewolf phoenix, hereās a treat;
Hope you like the sketch!
Ice lizard just sounds like a surefire way to kill a lizard. An ice lizard is a dead lizard.
Reblog with your codename btw I'm curious-
(I'm Acid Cobra)
Iām feral because I canāt achieve my dreams in love and Iām ok with that because itās my fault. Iām an introvert to the max babes
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