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IBVS WEEK

DAY FIvE: Falling

@onebizarrekai

Warnings: attempt at suicide

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Maybe Edward Quinten, School King, had everything. He had ladies, a good family, popularity, and he didn't have many problems.

But the thing is, with popularity, and high school drama, he could never be himself. He couldn't be who he was as a kid. He liked make believe. That was his shit as a kid.

And he wanted to be a kid again. Actaully he didnt want to be here. Because despite becoming the thing he despised, he hated mean people. He hated the cruel way everyone worked. He hated how hypocritical he was and he hated himself. He hated everything.

And as time passed, With Nevin and Isaac, he realised he could never have everything. He was used to getting what he wanted. Because no one ever said no to him. He always had this mindset that he should be the best.

But once he was the best it was hard to come down. It was like a drug he was addicted to and didn't like it. But addiction was addiction. It'd hard to stop.

He hated himself. He hated the world. He didn't wanna exist. He built a bomb. He was in class. It was set to go off. Drew, Nevin's brother was also in that class. And when it went off, it was Drew who caught Edward and pushed him away from the edge. And then the building collapsed. Edward regretted it. He really did. Maybe he didn't want to die. His strings came in handy. But he couldn't catch Drew or anyone else in time. So he justed watched them. He was now worried about them. His friends. His crush. And this small scared boy he help save him.

He wouldn't admit it. He was careful. But he checked up on Drew in secret when Nevin was at Chris'. Drew was fine. It was nice of Edward to do that. He had also checked up on Isaac.

But he still wanted to die.

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IBVS WEEK DAY SIX I THINK

HSM doesnt belond to me

Neither does IBVS

@onebizarrekai

Day six is soaring so-

@the-best-error

It's just a sketch, but I've never actually drawn driller and it's my otp-

I actually needed this break from identity crisis

Oh my god I feel the exact same way I would absolutely die if anyone knew IRL found out about what I like and the stuff I've made. I love the fandoms to death but I hate the feeling of being judged.

Are you going to continue whit youre ask blog of dhmis? ;-;

I wasn't going to answer this, but I figured you guys deserve one.

I've tried to get back into DHMIS so many times. Although I love the original source material to death, it's the fan base I absolutely cannot stand.

I have met some great friends through that fandom, but I've also met people who really wrecked up any positive association I had left with the fandom.

That's not to say I'll delete the blog or whatever, but I might just stop. Maybe if I get another hyperfixation cycle I could do more in the future, but nothing long term. The blog really helped me get through the first two years of highschool, but it has since gone downhill.

I find the blog a little... embarrassing now?? Like. If some of my friends found out I run/ran a DHMIS ask blog I think I would legit pass away. I know cringe culture is dead or whatever, but it's still very deep within me. Cringe culture has left scars that may never heal.

I don't like thinking about it much anymore. I don't think it's in "trigger territory" just yet, but it still gives me not-so-good memories. Like I said, I'll still adore the original DHMIS series but I rather not participate in the fandom all that much anymore.

(Swear Warning)

"Don't do it." Nightmare said sternly. "I'm gonna do it." Cross said, looking down from the balcony. "DO A BACKFLIP!" Killer yelled.

They were having a nice day, playing in the pool, Nightmare on the side lines because water hates him, when suddenly, Killer tells Cross he should jump off the balcony and into the pool.

Cross, thinking it was a good idea, went up to the balcony. "I'M GONNA DO A BACKFLIP!" Cross yelled. "No Babe STaY tHERE!-" Nightmare yelled at Cross, teleporting to the balcony. "Fucking JuMp oFf ThE rOoF iNstEaD yOu cOwArD!" Error said. "Guys?!"

"Cross, my baby, my love, If you jump off I'm not giving you cuddles." Nightmare said. Cross thought. "Sacrifies must be made-"

"Cross ⁿo-"

"Cross yes."

And then he jumped off.

And here we are, at the hospital.

"What the fuck did I tell you?"

"Not...to do it?"

"And what did you do?"

"A backflip."

"...."

"Cross I think he means-"

"No no let him figure it out."

"And jumped off the balcony and hit the concrete instead of the pool....."

"Exactly."

"I'mmmmm sorry baaaabbbbeeeee."

"Why is he slurring?" Killer asked.

"It's the morphine, dumbass." Horror said to Killer.

"I know you are Cross." Nightmare said, holding his lover's hand.

"So is he gonna die or not?"

"LUST?!"

"I'M JUST ASKING!"

"YOU'VE BEEN SPENDING TOO MUCH TIME WITH HORROR-!"

"NO SHIT HE'S MY BOYFRIEND!"

"Niiiiigggghhhtttt.... tell them to stop yeelllling."

"Stop yelling."

"..."

"..."

"But you started it Nightmare-"

"Shh no talking. Get out."

"Niiiigggghhhhhttttt. I looooovvvveeeee yooouuuu."

"I know, Cross. I love you too, Cross."

"So does that mean cuddles?"

"Absolutely not, I'm a man of my word."

"F u c k ."

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Don't ask I'm on a sugar high and shipping spree XD

I literally just came up with this idea

@nightmarexcross

So yea hope you enjoy my shitposting

Oh! Thanks for following me! I really appreciate it!

No problem mate!

Done w this finally- these three pages are actually supposed to be a sequence!

(Fixed a few things on the pages I’d already posted nmbjkbhihv)

More #perirep to come, stay tuned! 💜💙

Bonus epilogue doodle:

She onto them lmao

I agree actually. I hate it and love it. I hate it because it seems abusive and toxic, but I've seen images and fanfictions that are written well, with no elusiveness and just fluff. I'm honestly only writing Afterdeath because I know people like it, even if it's, well, abusive to me. And it just doesn't sit well with me. They're relationship is always over sexualized, and I just cant. Geno clearly doesnt like it in most of the stories I've read, yet Reaper still does it. And after what happened to my mother and myself, it doesnt sit right with me. I don't really like most of the Afterdeath content out there because of this. The random basically ruined it for me.

I don't hate it completely, but I do fully agree with what you said about the "tsundere x pervert."

It disgust me to even think about it after everything that happened to me and my mom.

I'm writing a sanscest story, and the only reason I included it is because people like it.

Afterdeath?

ship: ew / nonono / maybe / ship it / aww / otp / MY HEART

y’all gonna hate me for this one shhdjhdsjhshs. i never really got the hype for them, not even when i first got into the fandom and loved popular ships.

it doesn’t help that i don’t like to ship reaper with anyone but life. i’m a multi-shipper, but reaper x life is god tier. not to mention, i see geno being aro-ace? i don’t know why? i just do? like i’ll ship afterink, but platonically.

also i’m not really sure why they would ever interact. i guess it’s built off the idea that reaper would travel to his au to reap him? but i always thought reaper only reaped within his own au. (don’t quote me on that though i’m not sure haha)

geno is my number one favorite sans, so it also hurts when people take the “tsundere x pervert” thing too far. i see people write reaper literally harassing geno, and geno doesn’t defend himself. it’s fucking gross.

i understand it’s not canon, but it leaves a bad taste in my mouth when i see afterdeath.

not to mention, the afterdeath fandom is kinda.. wacky? wattpad, especially. i wrote a pretty popular book on wattpad, and when geno showed up in the story (which was ship-less, mind you) there was a comment saying “omg it’s reaper’s waifu!!! but not in this story hehe” or something similar to it. i wanted to scream because THAT’S NOT THE THING YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO FOCUS ON. IT WAS A SERIOUS MOMENT IN THE FIC.

i despise this ship and it is the only non-illegal ship i’ll never make quotes for.

if you think my hatred for it is bad, then you should’ve seen me a year ago! i still hate it, but 2019 me thought it was straight from hell!

Anyways look at them