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!TH!NSPØ!

Another th!nspø for y'all

Yess. Today for lunch I made my dad a cheese quesadilla with diced pieces of chicken sausage inside and a dipping cup with mild green sauce on the side, and for my mom I prepared a pb&j sandwich with blueberries and raspberries in her lunchbox for work :)

Does anyone else cook food for their family because you like cooking, You just don't like eating.

~ Vent ~

Something I keep thinking about is that my childhood friend told me ~4 months ago that she couldn’t imagine me skinny after she saw how different the pantry was at my parents house. Which is valid for her life experience with me, and great motivation, but wtf…. I’m kind of scared to meet up with her again after I lose more weight. I don’t want her to say anything else about my body.. and she’s one of the luckiest people on earth because she grew up SKINNY, and literally just because of genetics. Her whole family is thin.. lucky mfs lol -but we used to hang out frequently and we’d both eat a lot growing up, and she still does. The last time I hung out with her, she got a honey bun from a convenience store after she ate a sausage the length of a paper plate, and a slice of chocolate cake like 30mins-1 hour before… It’s possible she has some mental stuff going on as well because of struggling to gain weight, but to make such a comment about another person isn’t very mindful. My brain is kind of taking it as “I can’t imagine you being a healthy weight”. - not that I wanna be lol - but sis basically said that without actually saying it.. She knows I grew up FAT AF, a damn boulder, so I’m just struggling to understand how she could say that. In most cases, a persons health is the most important thing, and what she said really makes me feels like she wants me to stay big subconsciously. But, she picked the word skinny and not healthy, so maybe I’m just thinking too much into it lol.. Either way though, it’s still motivating me to do better so ultimately it doesn’t matter, but it does make me anxious about my relationship with her; and the pantry is so different now too compared to what it was the last time she saw it. So actually, I am very scared of her coming over lol.. and I don’t like that I feel that way, I love her a lot. I’m just not as comfortable around her now :c

I might be in the minority on this but I don’t think it’s cool or funny to blow smoke at your pet’s face

Th!nspo of the day:

Imagine being l!ght enough to float.

Imagine never feeling your thighs touch again.

Imagine slipping into size - 00 like it’s nothing.

Stop imagining and start st@rving. 🖤💀

Goal: See my b0nes. They’ve been hiding too long.

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