Morute/gloomy Coquette Insp0 Board

im slowly losing it

it’s never ending 🥲

~Fast~

42.5 hours in and I just got sick * . * I feel a lot better now so I’m not breaking my fast quite yet, but I’m doubting I’ll complete all 93h.. I set it as that many hrs because it’s the most ideal fast I’d like to do, but I haven’t done a fast longer than 3 days in wayyy too long, and sadly I’m struggling a bit physically.. not even 48hrs in T . T but at the VERY least I’ll make it to the 48h mark, anything less is pathetic and I’ll be even more of a disappointment.(I would never talk to anyone else like that btw, only to myself lol)

Like a scratch record…

you’ll never regret turning down food, but you’ll always regret giving in.

~(Late)Wieiad~

10•16•24

Breakfast:

• 2 rice cakes - 80c

• Pork cutlet - ~450c

Dinner:

• 22g pitted date - 67c

• 5g LS peanut butter - 16c

• 1.5g unsweetened coconut chips - 10c

• 3g dark chocolate chips - 16c

Total: 639c

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Went over 500c and I’m not happy about it but I’m gonna fast until Saturday so that’ll be fun at least

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Yess. Today for lunch I made my dad a cheese quesadilla with diced pieces of chicken sausage inside and a dipping cup with mild green sauce on the side, and for my mom I prepared a pb&j sandwich with blueberries and raspberries in her lunchbox for work :)

Does anyone else cook food for their family because you like cooking, You just don't like eating.

i hate myself.

i’m ashamed of my body.

~Wieiad~

9•30•24

Breakfast:

2 Iron gummies - 10c

2 Zinc gummies - 20c

2 Vitamin D gummies - 15c

2 Vitamin 3 gummies - 20c

2 Biotin gummies - 10c

2 Omega-3 gummies - 25c

T: 100c

Lunch:

6g seaweed w/ sea salt - 30c

High key sandwich cookie - 25c

?g peppercorn ranch chip - 13c

Pure Protein chocolate mint bar - 180c

T: 248c

Dinner:

50g egg whites - 27c

FF shredded mozzarella - 10c

T: 37c

Snack:

324g Cucumber with peel - 49c

159g Carrots - 65c

T: 114c

Total Cal: 499c

Water intake: 51 FLOZ

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I hung out with a friend today and I brought all of the snacks I have atm in hopes that she’d eat some, I haven’t binged while I’ve had them but I’m worried I will and I want them gone asap * . * and she did eat some but I ate a little too so she wouldn’t suspect anything..she gave me half of one of her chips to try as well and usually 1 chip is around 10c-15c but I counted it as 13c to be safe. But I’m going to bed soon and I’m definitely not eating again tonight so Im just glad I didn’t go over my cal limit and can sleep peacefully😌…kind of lol