Paradise/Cityscape

"I should've loved you sooner"

Oh I should've loved you sooner,

Sooner so I could have the sun in my arms,

From when I only knew the dark,

Sooner so I had a reason to smile,

When scowls and frowns and tears were my only solace,

I should've loved you sooner,

My days weren't as bright,

Because I never realized

I had the sun in my corner

You are the sunshine I so desperately

needed,

My rationality, when at times I couldn't keep my head

straight.

My brother, I love you so

But I really should have loved you sooner,

I really, really should have loved you sooner,

And some days, I scold myself, because back then

I told myself;

"Never look him in the eyes,

You've wronged him so, and he will cry"

Never would I have thought, my sunshine

That you would throw yourself at me

And weep in my arms, only to say

"You idiot, you pushed me away!"

And then, I only laughed

Not a joyful one, one full of realization

and irony,

As I wipe those tears away from the face of the

Sun,

And I tell him;

"I'm sorry, love"

I should've loved you sooner,

I should've loved you sooner,

I should've loved you sooner,

When my days were nothing but

grief and sorrow,

You had given me your heart to borrow,

And if I had broken it a million times

before,

Let me try repair it once more,

With the love you have yearned for,

The love I should've given you sooner.

(This poem is meant to be purely platonic and nothing else)

The war has returned, and the smell of death is everywhere.

The bombing and missiles never stop, There is no more food, drink, or even a safe place to sleep.

Even the internet connection has been cut off, and I am no longer able to share my story with you.

My loyal friends, please donate even a small amount and share my posts to reach donors.

I need you by my side. You are my only hope, Help me save my family from death and get out of Gaza to live in a safe place.

Sweet Nothing

I stay in your cold embrace,

Arms right around me meant as a blanket, a home

But all it feels is like rope, tying my hands to my sides,

leaving aching skin and red

complaints behind,

And neither of us is happy,

I'm not happy so you're not happy

And you try to satiate me,

Pressing a face against me,

whispered sweet nothings mean nothing

To someone who is feeling numb,

To someone who lost love for who initiated this hug,

Sweet nothings are sweet,

But bite the tongue that eats and it bleeds,

Bitter iron spilling, you only wipe away the leak,

The corner of my lips betray me,

As I try on a smile like I would a new dress,

I don't like this one, it doesn't suit me

Live your lies like a little movie,

Love your regretted loathing like a drug,

I guess we'd just be both at fault here,

Both at fault yet no one stops,

The yelling becomes white noise

In this bleak and burdened union,

We're only wearing rusted rings, not diamonds but obsidian.

You kiss me goodnight, I say 'I love you' like one would say 'good riddance'

Your words candied words that I grind between my teeth,

Tearing to dust like a personal grudge,

And while I do that, in your arms I watch from afar,

you are mourning me like a lost love.

But I am still here, breathing and screaming

Too alive for someone who's discontent,

Too dead to be someone who once loved you,

We are both lonely, so no one wants to let go,

But what's the point of keeping company

If the other wants to let go?

And a friend once told me

Wise and weeping,

that sweet nothings mean nothing,

to someone who's fallen out of love.

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wishing on the farthest star

It seems I am wishing on the farthest star

To achieve what I, alone have earned,

The destruction of what once was home,

seems like a faraway memory, instead of a tomb.

I miss the hunger-smells, and the deathless soil

lively and untouched by the tyrannical hand,

I should've known

that I was wishing on the farthest star

in this lonely night sky,

where family is torn apart at the seams,

and little stars burn out,

and big Suns explode.

I am the slow burning fuse planted 'neath the earth of my home

Ne'er did they find the core of the tick, tick, ticks of time burning,

For the final bow was inevitable,

and this home of ours was never meant to be,

I am this slow-burning fuse,

Forever, lay the scent of TNT.

...Now, the reminiscent stench of gunpowder,

Clings to my coat like an old friend,

that once stabbed me in the back some time ago,

I frown when this sweater of mine smells of cigarette smoke,

The last remaining memory from Before,

tainted with the poignant, lingering smell of who I have come to be,

I chose this path myself,

Please, do not follow me.

my friends yousef and mona are trying to survive a very dangerous situation... it's hard to focus on fundraising when you are worried more about surviving bombings. they do still need funds. it is getting harder and harder to afford basic needs for both themselves and their baby alaa. i haven't heard any good news about mona's lungs (they were damaged in a previous bombing), so i assume they're as bad as ever. she's told me it's very painful. she can't rest because she spends her nights coughing violently instead. if you can help them at all, here is the link to their fundraiser. since they are fundraising in swedish krona, smaller donations are accepted. anything will help at least a little, but please be aware 10 kr is 94 cents in usd. if you can't donate, please share the post. you have a helpful role.

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Donate to Help Youssef and his family escape the occupation, organized by Osam Lolo

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Thinking of just making this a creativity dump account with fake blog RP entries of my characters or any characters I get inspiration for, possibly also art, all I know is that this will be a messy blog

In another world, he fucks up, in another world, he blows up, in another world, he dies and come back, in another world lets guilt crawl beneath his skin.

What more could he feel in his world but self-pity?

What else does he feel for himself but selfish self-sabotage?

(Must he die first, to wake up?)

PLEASE DON'T LOOK AWAY, PLEASE HELP SAVE A LIFE

my best friend layla made a fundraiser for her boyfriend giuseppe, who suffers from very severe me/cfs (myalgic encephalomyelitis / chronic fatigue syndrome) and cci (craniocervical instability).

me/cfs is a severe neuroimmunological illness that often leaves the people who suffer from it housebound or bedridden. there is no cure for it yet and only a few doctors know how to treat it, most of them don't even know of its existence. that's why we depend on you sharing and donating this.

because of these illnesses, he might die. only two doctors in europe do surgery on me/cfs patients, who also suffer from cci, and they are located in spain. he will have to pay a special flight from italy, somewhere to stay and the surgery itself, and none of that is covered by insurance.

he is suffering so much. layla listed a few of his symptoms in his gofundme already, but the only thing he can (or is forced to) do is lie in a dark room with no stimuli AT ALL. no music, no light, no touch, not even being on the phone for too long, accompanied with tons of physical suffering as in pain or seizure-like symptoms. his suffering is not imaginable for people who don‘t have very severe me/cfs.

please read, share and donate. it‘s so very very urgent and a reblog would mean the world and could save his life. please help us, he needs to live.

if you have any other ideas of how to boost this fundraiser, please let me know!

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Help save Giuseppe’s Life - URGENT!!!, organized by Layla Bauer

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For me personally I love autumn I love the nice breeze and the leaves are always beautiful but unfortunately Palestinians cannot experience seasons with harsh winter coming up the water will be frozen there won't be any form of heat to stay warm during the winter rarely any food at all but

You can change that by sharing or donating

Genocide flattens every discussion. There are no new conversations to be had about the destruction, death and cruelty. After more than a year, there is nothing left to be said about various media houses, corporations and international bodies of law aiding and abetting all that has been happening in Gaza, either. It is the banality of evil, it is colonialism. However even in this atrociously banal circumstance, I do think what still is a continued point of hope for Gazans and what still pushes so many of them to reach out to the world, is the support people around the globe have shown and still continue to show. Which is why I am here on behalf of campaigns Palestine blogs ask me to share or donate.

@youseffamily

[https://gofund.me/fefe93ba]

Save the life of an innocent child

PLEASE look at this fundraiser. ( @youseffamily)Yousef's baby is in critical condition and the doctors in Gaza are unable to help him due to the lack of proper medical care. His son is unable to breathe normally and Yousef's fundraiser is nearly dead in the water, with only €30,126 raised out of a $20,000 goal. If 100 people reading this donated $10, Yousef could raise $1000 in a day. If you are able to donate, if you can do anything to help, please do not delay. Yousef's son's life depends on it.

@shareeffamily

Donate to Save My Innocent Children

[https://gofund.me/f1df26b6]

Vetted by gazavetters €650/€50k

Shareef Alamoudi has twin children Husam and Ahmed, five months old, they came after four IVF. His wife and her came to Egypt in June to do IVF and his wife got pregnant and we got stuck in Egypt after the war, he was an employee in Gaza and his wife was a math teacher and now they have no income, the twins was born in April and one of them (Ahmed) has heart holes, needs custody, a lot of treatments and costs, and now he needs special milk and medication.

@free-palestine-2023

Urgent Appeal: Support Our Humanitarian Mission in Gaza [https://gofund.me/85d6cc93] vetted by gazavetters, and my verification number is (#209). €276/ €70k

@fayezjadallah

Join Us in Our Struggle: Save Our Family from War in Gaza [https://gofund.me/33d78314] £5 585/£25k

Mohammed is in critical condition after being shot by Israeli drones. He has been taken to the operating and urgently needs treatment outside the Gaza Strip.

@najah-tamim2023

Urgent Help me meet my father and get out to safety [https://gofund.me/d4d8c6bc] €2,976/€20k vetted by 90-ghost and gazavetters (#113)

@shahdgazaa Save my little girl's life

[https://gofund.me/e5c8cd3a]

$2,101 raised of $20,000

PLEASE PLEASE I beg look at this campaign

Mohammed Abuawad's baby is in critical condition and the doctors in Gaza are unable to help her due to the lack of proper medical care. The daughter suffers from kidney failure and autism and Mohammed Abuawad's fundraiser is nearly dead in the water, with only $822 raised out of a $20,000 goal. If 100 people reading this donated $10, Mohammed Abuawad could raise $1000 in a day. If you are able to donate, if you can do anything to help, please do not delay. Mohammed Abuawad's daughter's life depends on it.

@familgazaamal1

Support the family of little Amal to get an urgent operation [https://gofund.me/27f2d7bb] $6,687/$30k

This campaign is vetted by the association. This campaign belongs to the family of @asmaamajed2's brother. (@asmaamajed2 campaign has been shared by 90-ghost, promoted by

@aliandhadeel-family7

Help me and my family escape to safety

[ https://gofund.me/e80367ff ]

Save the life of an innocent child

PLEASE look at this fundraiser. ( @aliandhadeel-family7) Hadeel's baby is in critical condition and the doctors in Gaza are unable to help him due to the lack of proper medical care. Her son is unable to breathe normally and Yasser's fundraiser is nearly dead in the water, with only €105 raised out of a €70,000 goal. You can help this family getting out this nightmare safely if you share or donate $10/$5/$20 donations are protected but please share their campaign to get them verified and also donations

@mariam-gaza

Help my children to evacuat gaza

$1,216/$20,000 6% of their goal

[ https://gofund.me/b2e57341 ]

This campaign is vetted by association through @ayoosh-gaza (who is herself vetted by association through another vetted person here). Mariam, along with Huda (@huda-gaza) are Ayaa's sisters.

@noor509

Help Nour and his family survive the war in Gaza [ https://gofund.me/003421a3 ] $33,039/$45,000 73% vetted by 90-ghost and association

@mohmoud-j & @jomana-ha Help Mahmoud’s Family Evacuate for Urgent Medical Care [https://gofund.me/363ae8ca]

$15,588 raised of $60,000

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@anasgaza12 Donate to allow my family to survive [https://gofund.me/f6e9cad8]

€12,211 raised of €50,000

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