I've Been On The CPTSD Sub Reddit For A Good While Now And I'm Starting To Realise, That I'm In The Later

I've been on the CPTSD sub Reddit for a good while now and I'm starting to realise, that I'm in the later stages of healing than most people in that sub Reddit.

DON'T GET ME WRONG, healing takes time and take all the time that you need. Nothing wrong in that.

It just jogged my memory of how my therapist said to me, MANY times when my therapist said I put in a lot of work in myself, before I had therapy. Like my bf, normally people with a lot of Trauma date abusive people (no matter what gender they are). She said "normally people come to me when they are at 0, you on the other hand. You've already understand how your brain works and you've already trained yourself to rethink in different situations".

IF I said that in the sub Reddit, or a Facebook group or any other trauma survivors. I get bullied of like "omg you can't think like that. YOU HAVE TO THINK LIKE ME". Fucking why??? Aren't we all individuals, with our own feelings, our own thoughts and our own emotions. Why do trauma survivors do this? I legit, don't understand.

Yes, I put in the work because I WANTED to heal. I've told many stories on how Healing is a choice (I might post more when my memories come up). You have Google, you have the library, you have FREE ACCESS TO PSYCHOLOGY TO UNDERSTAND YOUR BRAIN.

Do know what I typed in Google, when I wanted to understand my own brain. Okay... Here's a list;

Why I get flashbacks?

What is Flashbacks?

Why do I date abusive men?

What is Trauma Bonding?

Why do I attract toxic friends?

Why do I get nightmares?

PTSD symptoms

PTSD symptoms no one talks about

PTSD depression

Why doesn't my mother love me?

Depression in PTSD

PTSD Vs CPTSD

Autism Vs CPTSD

Why do I argue a lot?

Why do hide myself?

What is Co-dependency

What is trauma bonding?

Toxic mother's

What is over bearing mother's?

Why do I hate myself?

Understanding the dynamics of Dysfunctional families?

What is Dysfunctional families?

What is narcissism?

Narcissistic mother?

The effects on sexual assault in children?

Aftermath after sexual assault and the symptoms?

What is Trauma Bonding in families?

What is trauma memories?

How do I cope with trauma memories?

How do I escape my abusive family?

What is a refuge?

How much does living own cost?

This is just SOME on what I typed in. IF you follow my blog, you know I ask questions on WHY. Why do we do the things that we do? Why do we act in a certain way? Why, why, why.

I know people hate me asking questions on why. Oh, I know they do. They can fuck off because I ain't changing. Asking why, helped me understand my brain. I'm not changing for no one. Fuck that!

I do this to understand my brain and how it works.

I WANTED to heal, so I asked myself; why?