God Keeps Pulling Pranks On Me And I Am So Done With Him

Chocolate ganache cake + matcha latte

First day in a life between lives

I’m in a really great mood today! I left my house- it felt really weird to be leaving while not completely integrated into either my old or new personality yet. Going out with friends, it felt similar to how I used to feel being dragged out, but more enjoyable- and somehow, brighter?

Not much cleaning has been done today, but I’ve still got ten days to get my new life together! I should probably get some more cleaning done before I go to bed, so that’s what I’m off to do once I’m done writing this post.

One more thing I’ve done that I’m really proud of- I’ve shown my blog to one of my closest friends!! It feels so good to have told someone else about my new life/personality, and I hope that having someone know about it will keep me on track and accomplishing my dreams!! Oh hello avocado friend :))))))

I’ll post again tomorrow, or maybe sometime tonight before I sleep. For now though, I’m leaving today feeling so accomplished! 

<3 Caramel

the cure to all sadness is indulging is nostalgic content nobody can prove me otherwise

i am markus how to i overthrow the american government

die

After a boring day studying at home, I got taiyaki from the nice lady outside the supermarket, and drew a little bit.

...does it count as vent art when the picture is happy? I feel like all my stress art looks sweet and unbothered.

But in reality, I'm so stressed, my last exam is tomorrow... (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠) Don't cry yet, please..!

Calibrating

So far in the school year, things have been alright- balancing the APs I’m in has taken some time, but overall, things seem just fine.

I’m still trying to make a proper schedule for myself to follow, finding a lot of trouble when trying to actually stick to it. Maybe I just need motivation? Feels like I’m trying to get ahold of all this too late. It’s alright, though- at least I didn’t leave this until university.

My blog’s been looking pretty blank recently. In my free time, I’m thinking of adding a little gallery and maybe a music player? 

I’ll see if I can actually put something of this sort into my blog sometime soon- but no promises, especially since I’m still not sure how to manage my time TT

<3Caramel

no signal

I’ve done minimal work. 3 days remain until school

It's been a while since I posted. School and family gatherings have made me very busy lately, so I haven't had much time, unfortunately (⁠｡⁠•́⁠︿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠) I miss you all dearly.

Qingming was just on Saturday, and the weather was perfect. The cherry blossoms were in season and beautiful!

This pond was so gorgeous, though I wish there was someone to take care of it— there was so much dirt and debris inside, and I couldn't see any of the fish I was so excited to feed...

I've been feeling incredibly homesick for the past three weeks. Maybe it's the ten-hour school days, the unfamiliarity of turning 18, or the gloom of a snowless winter-- there's no telling.

Food doesn't taste good anymore, every room is too silent or too loud, and even waking up feeling rested seems like a distant memory.

I miss the french toast from the bakery I grew up in. I miss my mom's food. I miss my dog. I miss my boyfriend.

Why does it all feel so distant even though it's just an hour away?

"Wait, wait, so you're telling me..." *Joe leans into the mic* "that magical girls are real?"

"Well, Joe, I was using a metaphor, like, emphasizing the difference between the online and real-world selves, but honestly, from the happiness brought from logging in and posting, magical girls may as well be real—"

*puts his hands up in surprise* "Oh my god. So they are real. I thought it was all just some anime nonsense. Jamie, Google this right now. Google magical girl sightings nearby. Maybe we can get an interview. And you were saying earlier, some of these girls explode?"

"That's where the whole subculture comes from, Joe. Like a landmine, if you get too close to one, they'll explode, but that's more of an emotional—"

"CHRIST. Is that even legal? How can they DO that? I want to know, like, the science behind it." *leans in closer* "Do you know what makes the explosions? Jamie, google some explosion gifs right now. Yeah, pull that up. I wonder how strong those are. Like, something like that could probably kill a silverback gorilla."