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Your blog and photography are beautiful! I really love looking through and seeing how you spend your days.

-💤💖

!!! Omg thank you so much TT

This was really encouraging! I'll keep posting pretty pictures, okay? Thank you, I love you!!

I don't know what the inverse of fun is but I just had a ton of it

Wishing the apocalypse started right now, ruining billions of lives and throwing the world into irreversible chaos because I'd rather hide from zombies and eat scraps than do a midterm for two hours

Matcha and adzuki bean mochi after a tasty omakase.

:)))

hehe I wanna look like those cute chinese kids with fitting clothing and strawberry milk + pocky

none of my clothes really fit me so one day I’m gonna get stuff that is pog!!

sometimes I think I like to swarm myself with schoolwork to have something to take my mind off anything bad

A possible turnaround

Though it’s been a while since I’ve started my new room project, I’ve surprisingly faced no burnout so far. It seems like life’s being suspiciously nice to me, which gets me a bit on edge- but I’ll do my best to enjoy it while I can.

My parents have approved of my drawings for my room plan, thankfully. That’s a greenlight for me to continue to clean up completely motivated! And even though I can’t exactly feel it on account of some amount of emotional numbness, I do prefer the kind of energy I’m getting from this than anything I’ve felt before. It’s just a happy feeling, out of the blue, unprompted. I no longer want to do nothing, sink into the ground, or cry- I just want to continue and smile?

It feels good to make progress on accomplishing my dream! I’ve also made a custom search engine for myself earlier today- just to fit my dream as well.

Usually I’d show it to my friends, but if they ask why, “I’m trying to change my entire personality and life” doesn’t exactly sound swell from the other end. No worries though- they’ll know a completely different person by the end of this!

I’m off to clean, I’ll make another post later! 

<3 Caramel

Challenging anyone who can draw to draw these hand poses

Personal stuff and organization

This is the first blog style post I've made in a while, huh?

I've recently gotten a lot more organized since I've gotten a bed with storage underneath. This one's from Ikea, so it'll be really nice quality compared to what I've had before.

Plans for the summer consist of three summer courses, organizing my things, and planning a project I've been referring to as Project A. Originally, my family was planning to go to Disneyland in the US during the summer- but the economy really sucks right now so we need to cut down on our spending a lot- so we're thankfully going to be spending less.

Sometimes it feels like my sister and I are the ones mose scared of the way my mum handles money- we get that she grew up without much and is now feeling a lot more safe about spending, but it seems impossible to convince her that we don't need to spend money to be happy. God, why are financial problems so complicated? This really sucks :/

I'm glad that we're not going all that far, though, since for one, we're finally cutting down on our spending for trips and excess items and meals, and second of all, we're just not going out too much anymore. Perfect for a homebody like myself with a ton of projects to do over the summer, right?

On the topic of projects, I feel like I've been latching onto Project A so tightly because it seems like the one dream I have that actually feels possible and that I'd be extremely happy with. Not going to talk abou it much on this blog until I'm sure I'm going to be doing it, though.

Another "project" of mine is basically to pretend to be that one Chinese kid that's on top of things and productive- you know, the colour-coded candy-powered note-taking kid with all the highlighters and gel pens.

I've actually gotten some more progress on that dream, too- having sorted together all my paper, binders, and letter writing materials to slip into one of my bed drawers.

Looking pretty good- almost like I've got this little itty-bitty part of my life organized.

My mood's been really rocky as of recent- not like I'm feeling sour all the time but mood swings are definitely what's been up lately. Sucks, really, but I'll get over it. Social issues and miscommunication is what's been bothering me, but I think I'm at the end of that tunnel now as far as I can see.

Thankfully, I've gotten some really great friends that are absolutely wonderful to me and really just sweet.

I'll be okay.

<3Caramel

Omg yes it was!! Thank you for the latte silly ♡♡ it was sweet, like you!! (⁠´⁠ε⁠｀⁠ ⁠)

Yeah, I've been pretty busy — have a chemistry exam in about ten hours tonight, so hoping for the best on that one ... But once I'm through with it, there's only one more exam to go!!!

I'm so proud of you Pico, sorry I haven't been online lately but I just checked your blog today and saw the effort you've been putting in!! You've got this ୧⁠(⁠＾⁠ ⁠〰⁠ ⁠＾⁠) I'm here trying to get myself together too!!

Caramel!!!!(๑ > ᴗ < ๑)°ᡣ𐭩 . ° . !! Hiii how are ur studies going?? Hopefully u aren't pushing urself too hard<3<3

Oh my goodness, thank you for checking up on me!! I really appreciate it (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠) ♡ Life has been crazy as of late, between school and family events and festivals... I'll post some photos of how things have been!

Thank you so much, by the way. I had no energy to post until I saw your message. I love you!!! How are you doing these days??

A mocha for the coming midterms... Let's hope it all goes well.

Late

I feel like it’s too late to accomplish much- I’m already too deep into my school year to turn around my bio grade, I’m already too old to have a completely new personality- I’m already too late to think that I can do everything I sset my heart to. I wish things worked out as wonderful as they do in the Disney movies, the novels, and the webcomics- but maybe I feel like I should wake up from my delusions?

Who knows. I’ts too late.

Caramel