This Is So Inspiring. I Want To Be Like This. I Want To Say I Went A Full Year Without Sh.

this is so inspiring. I want to be like this. I want to say I went a full year without sh.

I want my scars to be almost gone, but not completely.

I want to be happy and depression and anxiety free,

I want to be ready for the rest of my life.

It's been 1 year...

1 year without self harming

1 year since the break up that I thought would kill me

1 year since moving to a new city all alone

1 year since starting therapy for my PTSD from csa

1 year since changing my antidepressants

1 year since starting medical school

1 year since life broke me ...and I climbed out of the rubble stronger

Damn, youre a good actor. I actually thought you loved me.

- i really just wish i never found out. That i can just be oblivious, but happy.

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sad why am i like this what the heck why death dead Depression what the hell sad thoughts what’s wrong with me i'm sad sadgirl idk why depressed why did i do this dead inside but why whats the point sadboiz sad gurl distant whatsnew sad gorl hours why do i push away those i love the most why do i love pain why do i love him why do i love you delete all data sad boi club

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bubbles7724

4 years ago

I don't see him anymore... i think about him all the time, and its neither of our faults. Sometimes I think whats the point of bei g with someone if you can't even be with them? but then I think about him- because he's the one, if that were to exist.

I've never felt like this... fuck I miss him.

Were keeping distance because were both not ready.

my scars haven't even healed, and i don't think they're going to heal anytime soon.

Hes not ready to be open and trust me

My mind is a constant battle, and even when we were "together", I couldn't mentally handle it.

I'm really not ready, and neither is he, and it fucking sucks because I think he's the one.

ik its only been a short time, but I think I love him.

but it doesnt matter. he's gonna move on soon, but I never will.

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bubbles7724

5 years ago

I have a serious addiction. I cant stop. Its been a year and a half and i just keep finding new places. Anywhere i look are covered in scars. I dont know how to stop, and i dont know if i want to...

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sad mental health i dont know relatable regret Depression i want to disappear what’s wrong with me one day... i'm sad sadgirl i wanna kms sad boi hours depressed i don’t want to be here delete later i want to sleep relapse cut sad quotes I want to scream whats the point reset i dont want this whatsnew Cutter cutteratthecore i wanna be thin delete all data depresso expresso

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bubbles7724

5 years ago

I just feel like ill always be stuck. Stuck in the middle of a goodbye. Never feeling that pain, but never feeling that closure. Never feeling the certainty that somethings gone and is never coming back. I will always be frozen in this one time frame. Never wanting less, never having more. Im just stuck.

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Im so tired i dont know time im done Depression what the hell I don't understand?? done. what am i even doing i dont like it depressed sick and tired delete later mentally tired i don't wanna deep tired af I CANT TAKE IT ITS DONE i don't get it all time low typical timing distant sign of the times (ooc.) ''the kind of tired regular sleep can't fix.'' sad and tired sad all the time getting things done i cant deal

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bubbles7724

4 years ago

I gave him a piece of me i know ill never get back...

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death dead I CANT Depression alone different what the hell fuck im dead i don’t even know WHAT THE FUCK mental breakdown what am i even doing horrible depressed dead poets society fuck you insane invisible girl anxious dead inside but why fuck it cut deep i don't get it all time low i dont even CARE Cutter alonetime

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bubbles7724

4 years ago

it shouldn't be this hard... right?

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sad i dont know relatable regret romance relationship just saying i'm sad sad poem surreal my life reset distant sad heart (ooc.) ''the kind of tired regular sleep can't fix.'' i dont even remember

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bubbles7724

5 years ago

I'm remembering shit I dont want to, and I'm feeling shit I dont want to.

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sad why i cant do this I CANT i cannot i cried whatever SHIT!! i litterally cannot i can’t breathe i cant stop thinking about it frank ocean insane I CRY ... well shit what the shit forgotten i cant handle it shit i say I CANT TAKE IT failure I can’t handle this invisible fuckedup shitty I almost forgot i literally can’t handle this i literally cant even writing shit pink + white

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bubbles7724

5 years ago

Im screaming on the inside, and you dont care.

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