Athenaschosenhuman - Call Me Athena

In all timelines, in all possibilities

me watching the poll results on poetrysmackdown dot tumblr dot com:

anxiety is so weird like why is my mental illness in my stomach

my mistake is that i thought everyone would remember me as i remembered them

i cant believe im alive and im just sitting in silence most of the time

i wanna kiss him so bad

im between starving myself so i can finally have a thigh gap, or keep going to the gym even tho i feel ugly and disgusting and fat and ugh

in honour of all the unnecessary hate tsats is getting I've decided to reactive my tumblr just to yell about how much I loved this book.

I've been a long-time pjo fan(I'll admit I fell off the wagon after THO) and in all honesty, back in the dah nico was not my favourite character. dont get me wrong i didnt hate him but as a kid I just couldn't understand why he kept reacting to his trauma the way he did. constantly pushing and pulling with the people around him and never seeming to stay anchored to a singular mentality. but this book. this book is the long awaited deep-dive into his character and the very long awaited happy ending that he deserves.

its been nearly a decade since I read and finished hoo and by gods if there's one thing Uncle Rick has done by releasing this book it's reminded me how much I loved these characters and this world growing up. its sent me spiralling back into my age old obsession and I genuinely think it's one of the best books I've read all year.

the journey that we went on with solangelo and the development that they were finally given- i wanted to cry because if i was this affected by their love as a college student I can't imagine how I would've felt reading this as a preteen. the light that Mark Oshiro shines on the queer aspects of this book is so beautiful and so blatantly put. I needed this book as a questioning 12 year old and i needed it now as a very well settled adult and i can only imagine the impact its having on its intended audience.

and on an side note anyone who is complaining about the humour in tsats being corny or cringey can fight me. NICO IS SO FUNNY HELLO AND SOLANGELOS BANTER STAYS ABSOLUTELY UNMATCHED.

and my boy. my sunshine boy Will Solace. I have no words only tears to describe how much I love him. in conclusion if you hate this book without ever giving it a go know I am standing behind you with terrible intentions.

sometimes i start to like my dad. i love him, because he’s my dad, but i don’t like him. When i start to like him, he just finds a way to remind me that no one will ever be enough for him. not me, not my mom, not my brothers, not the church. i try to remind myself that this is his first life, and he never had a parental figure to learn how to be or not be a dad. But it’s our first time too.