I Cant Believe Im Alive And Im Just Sitting In Silence Most Of The Time

i cant believe im alive and im just sitting in silence most of the time

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Kisses

The way they wait for the other to make the first move.

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Is it worthy to start a relationship at 16??

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im scared Advice helpme my crush iwantchangesbutimafraidaf 16yo

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

do it for her (your thirteen year old self)

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girl breakfast lunch dinner supper brunch etc

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anxiety is so weird like why is my mental illness in my stomach

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

I realized why i don’t enjoy being in my room as i once did; now i have things to worry about, my future, the idead that i an wasting my youth, the idea i am doing nothing productive, that i’ll rot away here. When i was a child i could spent hours and hours alone doing nothing, watching the moon, reading because i had nothing to worry about, not a single thought passed through my mind telling me that i was wasting time.

No matter how hard or gentle i try to enjoy the moment im living in, i can’t. I always worry about the future, or remember the past.

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help plz youth i wish i was a child enjoy your femininity

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athenaschosenhuman

1 year ago

Heyy, I love ur content and can I request a Web weaving of being alone or loneliness? Thankyou <3

" 'So who's the strange one?' I grinned. / 'I don't know,' he said, and then shrugged. 'Sometimes I think if nobody spoke to me, I'd never speak again.' / 'That sounds sad.' / He blinked. 'Oh, yeah.' "

Screengrab from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower." A teenage boy wearing a suit sits in front of his bed. He has his hands clasped together and leans his head down against them as he cries.

"I do exist, don't I? It often feels as if I'm not here, that I'm a figment of my own imagination. There are days when I feel so lightly connected to the earth that the threads that tether me to the planet are gossamer thin, spun sugar. A strong gust of wind could dislodge me completely, and I'd lift off and blow away, like one of those seeds in a dandelion clock."

"I don't feel guilt at being unsociable, though I may sometimes regret it because my loneliness is painful. But when I move into the world, it feels like a moral fall-like seeking love in a whorehouse. Even more, I somewhere take my unsociability as evidence of my 'seriousness,' a quality which I take as necessary to my existence as a moral being. What a strange set of assumptions, as I now [...]"

Screengrabs from "The Double." A young man sits across a set of seats on a train.
In the first picture, a light from above illuminates the train. The caption reads: "Because I know what it feels like..."
In the second picture, the light has been turned off. Heavy shadows fall from the left side that cover most of the man and the chair. The caption reads: "...to be lost and lonely / and invisible."

"You're addicted to loneliness and desperation. It's the strongest emotion you've ever known, so your subconscious tells you that it's your destiny."

"as if i didn't birth loneliness / my damn self from all my damn wanting // - Taylor Steele, from ‘Shocker,’ published in Crab Fat Magazine"

"I will never forget the loneliness I knew as a child. / For a period of my life I hid behind a mask. Did not want to acknowledge any longing. / Now it is a part of me-something I can share. / Both the loneliness and the longing."

i hope you're doing well <33

Alice Oseman Radio Silence / The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012) dir. Stephen Chbosky / Gail Honeyman Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine / Susan Sontag As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980 / The Double (2013) dir. Richard Ayoade / Heather Havrilesky Ask Polly: Help, I'm The Loneliest Person In The World! / Taylor Steele Shocker / Amy Dunne

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athenaschosenhuman

2 years ago

They said your pain isn’t real until they see blood, but I’m not being cut or torn apart; i am being crushed, you’ll come until i explode? Until all my blood is in the walls? That’s when you’ll come to my help? When i can’t be saved, when my cries are only echoes?

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lgbtq poetry religion cheap poetry i maybe need therapy

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athenaschosenhuman

6 months ago