That One Day Is Going To Happen Tomorrow 💖

dark academia but STEM

- pinning the most difficult equations you solved to your wall. Or just the ones you find beautiful

- lots of plants, their names written in the pots. Trying different ways to grow them.

- always having lab gloves in your bag or pockets.

- writing ideas for projects in messy notes, putting them between the pages of your notebooks and forgetting about it

- hands dirty with black ink because you’ve been writing for too long too fast

- massive books under your arms, laptop full of carefully tagged papers while the printed ones are a total mess

- insane eyes and absolute euphoria when you finally understand not only the concept, but where did it came from and how it applies on your daily life

- hair always in a bun or ponytails, short finger nails and none jewelry because ~lab rules~

- searching until late at night the exact equipment the scientists used long ago, what methods they used and imagining how would it be to be in their place.

- Feeling as comfortable in the lab as in the library.

- you hate Victor Frankenstein but legit understand why.

- sore eyes from microscope or screen light, aching backs, still not wanting to leave

- looking at people and thinking about how they truly are: organs, cells, molecules, atoms, protons, eletrons, quarks, leptons…. nothing as one would think,  everything, all the same, too big, too little, all pieces from a big puzzle

- dreaming about the topic you were studying last day

- having an idea about a paper while talking to your friends. Remembering that is not your field and going crazy because SOMEONE needs to research it.

- you are crazy to read some fiction but there are too many papers waiting for you 

- You should be used by now but sometimes still get distracted about how graphics changes according to compartments added.

- finishing a big problem and just staring at it, amazed by how it was unfolded and reorganized until you get to the final answer 

- “we don’t know….yet”

- ethics committee?? How about just test it myself, uh?(that new receipt that later comes out a absolute disaster)

- suddenly knowing how to solve a problem in the middle of a lunch

- notebooks margins filled with equations or formulas vs pages almost blank, with just one note or two

- mental breakdowns after classes thay change your perspective completely

- knowing that the truth depends on how further you can see. We’re always getting closer. Never there.

- Looking at an art piece, wondering what kind of ink was used, how it was when it was made, how time has affected it

dark academia in computer related courses:

spilt coffee on messy arithmetic and algorithm notes.

continuously pressing alt + tab to read classics on your computer during class.

code blocks reflected on your anti-radiation glasses.

black sweaters because it's cold in the computer laboratory.

coding websites with dark academia color palettes.

encrypting and decrypting secret letters written in codes/ciphers.

lowkey creating a game which is actually a murder plan (and which is actually inspired from fyodor dostoevsky's crime and punishment too).

sketching and editing your secret society's logo on photoshop.

messy scribbles of java codes on paper.

listening to classical music on spotify.

hacking your principal's computer to retrieve documents that you can later on use against the school system (especially because you're hoping for a change in cafeteria food).

downloading free pdf or epubs of your favorite classic books because you are on a budget.

creating groupchats where you all discuss the possibilities of a bacchanalia.

lowkey sending trojans to classmates you don't like and think of it as a modern trojan war in and of itself.

achilles as your wallpaper.

eyebags from sleepless nights trying to find the error in the code.

joining forums where people are pretentious and anonymous (oooh, you mean reddit?)

purchasing oxford shoes online.

creating collages of your favorite greek gods, mythical creatures and heroes.

editing aesthetic academia look books on your editing application of choice.

suggesting revolution through digital arts.

animating little-known histories from around the world.

learning a language on duo lingo.

binge watching documentaries on youtube because learning is a principle.

borrowing chemicals from the stem laboratory to stage a suicide of your classmate's murder inside the computer lab.

staying up all night in the library reading shakespeare's hamlet or plato's the republic instead of making your capstone project.

"Death is the Mother of Beauty"

Jane Austen - "Sense and Sensibility"

starry night

Albertine Bookstore, NYC

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.

Quotes: 1.) Louise Glück, From Averno; “Blue Rotunda” 2.) Ocean Vuong, from On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous 3.) Clarice Lispector, from Selected Crônicas; “Excess and Privation ,” 4.) Rachel Cusk, on the reception of Aftermath, as cited in Olivia Sudjic’s Exposure

Art: 1.) Daniel F. Gerhartz 2.) Adrian Ghenie, Henrik Uldalen 3.) Helene Delmaire, Glenn Brown 4.) Alexandra Levasseur

"Saga (I won't forget you when I'm gone)", Andrei Voznesensky (translated by metamorphesque)

starry night

Albertine Bookstore, NYC