his teeth are so straight, i find that slightly off putting. maybe he isn't perfect đ€
but that makes him sexier(?) somehow
this is something very personal to me
Yall... i know its nice to use gifs on your fanfics, but if youre not using the gif extension that is provided by tumblr, maybe please mention/credit the user who made the gifs? Like i dont mind people using my gifs but i HATE when people repost them without asking or giving any credit.
And you know whats worse? When other people use the gif extension, and my gif appears, but its from the user who reposted my gif...
So please, for the love of god.... Credit. The. Gif. Maker.
I am tired fam...
I'm actually tearing upđđđ i'm so happy for her. excellent ending 10/10
Character(s): dark!Bucky, dark!Steve, too
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Warnings: this is a dark!fic, it contains non/dubious-consent elements. Some violence as well at the beginning. It goes without (and with) that this is 18+.
Summary: The end. Thatâs itâŠ
Notes:Â So this is the epilogue (itâs pretty short). I feel it leaves the window open but with a little closure for our reader. Thank you to everyone and this is the final goodbye to Witness and this version of Bucky and Steve. Thank you all. I really canât put into words how special you made this fic for me. I love you!
Before you left New York, you drained your bank account and texted your mom her instructions from your drafts folder. Your old phone was tossed in a city dumpster and you hid your hair under a ballcap. You drove for Chicago first. There, you traded your car for a VIN-less one and pocketed the money from that. You left in the direction of the West Coast before turning back towards the east, heading to Detroit where your mother waited for you.
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Jon Snow x F!Baratheon!Reader (Slow Burn)
Robb Stark x F!Baratheon!Reader
Pre Series Content and Extras:
Scattered Memories of the Starks
Shadows of their Hatred
The Quiet Wolf's Reminisce
The Stag and The Young Wolf
The Lost Chapters of Jon Snow
A New Life's Darkened Lust
Interlude of Jealous Desires
The Trials of Resurrection
The Injured and the Perverse
NSFW Alphabet (contains spoilers for part 3 and 4)
Woes of a Modern Day Love (a modern!au)
Fresh Heals of Old Pain (a modern!au part 2)
The Aftermath of Envy (a modern!au part 3)
Stoking the Flames (a modern!au part 4)
Then Came the Explosion (a modern!au part 5)
A Family Conflicted (a modern!au part 6)
A Jealousy of Infighting (a modern!au part 7)
A Small Bundles Flash Forward (a modern!au part 6.5)
A Snowy Wolf Pup (a modern!au holiday drabble)
Part 1:
Wolves of the Lone Stag
Mouth of the Lion's Den
An Intrigue Drenched in Blood
Standing Behind a Betrayal
A War of Tragic Beginning
Part 2:
King and Queen in the North
Shadow of a Fiery Stag
Reunion of New Enemies
Pleasure of Conflicted Desire
The Sanctity of Children
What Lies Beyond The Veil
Part 3:
The Cost of Our Sins
Dragged Through the Violence
Only the Cold
Fire for the King's Blood
Part 4:
Ashes of Various Grey
Plans of Pain and Horror
Afraid of a Ravens Flight
Trust in the Gentle Rasps
Visions in Eyes and Flames
A Bastard or The White Wolf
Part 5:
Home of Bloodsoaked Stone
Blazing Fire of Storming Ice
Ghostly Dreams of Old
Sailing Through the Glow
The Last Dragon
The Winter Rose
Part 6:
The Clash of Three Kings
Shrouded Truth in Sickness
Winged Shadow in the Sky
Light in the Darkest Storms
Peeking the Realms Woes
Blood, Roses and All Lies
Broken Love of the Dead
The Souls Tethered in Death
Wolves of the Past and Back
The Crows and The Sight
Part 7:
A Brewing of New Mystery
Great Wolves of White Mists
Darkness Heavy in a World
Past Becomes the Present
The Thing in the Night
Waving Tides of Turmoil
Greenish White Boodraven
Dark Blood of Blinding Light
And Wait for the Snows
Part 8:
Into the Haunted Forest
Fist of the First Men
Through the Frost Fangs
News From the South
Lies Within the Sunlight
Night of Two Distances
Screams of Cracking Ice
The Final Marching Trek
Fear Overtakes a Night
Wolves Teeth and Claws
Part 9:
Forcing Past Our Safety
One Whirlwind to the Next
Court of the North
Glimpse into the Rains
Scattered Pieces of Truth
Reunions and Realizations
Laws of Gods and Men
A Mockingbirds End
The Cold and the Rats
Blood Filled Danger
Memories of a Dead Past
The Winterfell Sept
Young as Stained Red
Conflicting Boundries and Ties
Shoulders are built for sinking your teeth into
psa clint isnât joel miller and if youâre flattening him into a joel archetype we need to talk about race again
iâm aware they both wear plaid, have a daughter, battle with grief, and are hot covered in blood and enacting violence
this isnât a callout i just donât remember where i saw these specific posts about the red handkerchief and clint as a âblue collarâ man. but i know iâve seen plenty of clint = joel posts floating around.Â
AND i wasnât going to say anything bc i thought i was just being gatekeepy bc i didnât wanna see clint get the dbf treatment which would be my personal problem and i can happily write about him on my own blog how i want etc etc and i know i donât have to read anyone elseâs takes BUT then i thought about it and once againâŠitâs always about race⊠re: the post i saw somewhere about someone having a head canon about clint having a red handkerchief as a snot rag - sorry i forgot where i saw it and this isnât an attack on whoever wrote that, but an fyi to anyone thinking about him the same way⊠if youâre writing a latino man in 1987 oaklandâespecially someone working street-level jobs or tied to criminal economiesâand you think a red bandana is just a âsnot rag,â youâre missing major context
fyi, in 1987, color politics were not optional if you were a man of color in california. even though bloods (red) and crips (blue) originated in LA, their color codes and the larger gang culture around them were already known across the state. in northern california specifically, norteños (tied to the nuestra familia prison gang) wore red. their rivals, sureños (tied to the mexican mafia), wore blue.Â
who cares? well, even though oakland wasnât dominated by bloods and crips the way LA was (in part due to the black panthers), it had its own street crews, plus a heavy norteño/sureño influence by the mid-80s. even outside organized gangs, the association between red and gang affiliation was strong enough that wearing a red bandana could get you profiled, targeted, or attackedâby cops, by other crews, or by random people trying to read your allegiance.
if you were a latino man in oakland in the 80sâlike clintâyou wouldnât carry a red bandana by accident. it would be flagging. even if you werenât affiliated. as a street smart guy, survival would mean being hyper-aware of how you present yourself, especially in neighborhoods policed by gang dynamics and racial profiling. cops would use color displays like a bandana as probable cause for harassment searches or worse during the height of the âwar on drugsâ and the crack epidemic.Â
characters like clintâlatino, working-class, street-adjacentâwould have understood the consequences of being read wrong. this doesnât mean no one ever had cloths, handkerchiefs, or functional rags. it means the color and the way you carried it mattered: what pocket, what visibility, how deliberate it looked.
throwing a red bandana in your pocket wasnât neutral. it wasnât folksy. it wasnât just blue-collar roughness. it was a risk, and survival was about reading the street, not walking through it like color codes didnât apply to you.
clint wouldnât casually rock a red bandana like a cowboy. latino men have never had the privilege of being casual about how they're read in public, especially not in a city like oakland, especially not in the 1980s.
re: clint as a âblue collarâ character thereâs a difference between being âblue collarâ and being trapped in criminalized labor. wearing a plaid shirt and working with your hands doesnât automatically make someone a blue-collar worker in the traditional sense.Â
blue collar historically refers to wage laborâconstruction, manufacturing, trade workâwhere the worker is paid (poorly) but still operating within the boundaries of legal employment. union jobs. often unionized labor, tied to systems that, at least in theory, protected workers through collective bargaining, benefits, and job security. those protections were never equally available, especially to workers of color, but they existed as part of the larger working-class structure.Â
clintâs labor isnât protected. it isnât recognized. itâs criminalized. heâs not just a man doing rough work for low payâheâs disposable labor, surviving in a system that sees him as expendable from the start. calling him âblue collarâ erases the fact that heâs not inside the working class safety net. heâs on the outside, paying off debt with violence he didnât choose.
it carries a specific context of class exploitation, yes, but itâs still different from the kind of criminal coercion characters like clint are caught in.
clint is not a proud working man making an honest living. his entire arc in freaky tales is about being forced into violent labor to pay off inherited debt he had no choice in. he is not rough and gritty because he chose a rugged life.Â
he is rough because he was born into a system designed to keep him indebted, desperate, and expendable. heâs not working a blue collar jobâheâs surviving in a criminal economy that feeds off people like him, using violence he doesnât even want to enact just to stay afloat.
flattening clint into a vague âmarlboro manâ archetype (joel coded)ârough clothes, kind heart, good intentionsâit strips away everything sharp and painful about his actual story. it whitewashes the complexity of being a latino man criminalized by birth and survival, not by choice. it reframes his struggle as a generic americana fantasy about working-class virtue, when whatâs actually at stake is how structural violence forces people into roles they never asked for.
especially when itâs a latino character, this flattening isnât neutral. it erases the realities of racialized labor, racialized criminalization, and survival. clintâs tragedy isnât that heâs a gruff tough guy with a soft interior. his tragedy is that he was forced to become violent in order to pay off a life he was never allowed to own, and he carries that weight without any guarantee of getting free.
you canât understand clint if you donât understand that. and if youâre not willing to sit with that discomfort, what youâre writing isnât really himâitâs just a projection of a character he was never allowed to be.
clint and joel might overlap in aesthetics, being single girl dads, and physical strengthâbut reducing clint to a copy of joel misses everything that actually defines who he is, and why his story matters.
joel miller is a texas manâa man shaped by frontier mythology, southern survivalism, deep mistrust, and violent individualism. he is, by his own admission, a man whose grief and guilt hollowed him out so badly that even his brother was scared of him. heâs not just traumatized; heâs actively dangerous, closed off, and isolated. his story is about losing his humanity and clawing parts of it back, maybe too late.
clint is not that. clint is an oakland manâeast bay, west coast, working-class and criminalized, not because he chose violence but because he was born into debt he could never pay off. heâs an underdog, not an antihero.Â
heâs soft with his woman, he lights up under her attention. heâs goofy in the video store with the clerk. heâs not some hardened loner who scares everyone around him. heâs just a man trying to survive a system that was designed to use him up.
when you flatten clint into joel, youâre misreading two characters with different emotional cores and fetishizing the aesthetics of pain and ruggedness while ignoring race, class, place, and survival context.
clint isn't a texas cowboy. heâs not steeped in frontier violence or manifest destiny myths. heâs a west coast underdog who knows every step he takes could get him crushed, and he still tries to protect the people he loves without letting it rot him from the inside out.
the tragedy of joel is that the world took everything from him and he let it turn him into something colder, crueler.
the tragedy of clint is that the world gave him no choice- he says he was born into breaking bones to pay off his fatherâs debt, and he still tries to hold onto his softness anyway.
if you canât tell the difference, youâre not seeing clint, youâre just projecting a fetishized joel trope onto another characterâŠÂ
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As Google has worked to overtake the internet, its search algorithm has not just gotten worse. It has been designed to prioritize advertisers and popular pages often times excluding pages and content that better matches your search termsÂ
As a writer in need of information for my stories, I find this unacceptable. As a proponent of availability of information so the populace can actually educate itself, it is unforgivable.
Below is a concise list of useful research sites compiled by Edward Clark over on Facebook. I was familiar with some, but not all of these.
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Google is so powerful that it âhidesâ other search systems from us. We just donât know the existence of most of them. Meanwhile, there are still a huge number of excellent searchers in the world who specialize in books, science, other smart information. Keep a list of sites you never heard of.
www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.
www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.
https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.
www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.
http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.
www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.
www.pdfdrive.com is the largest website for free download of books in PDF format. Claiming over 225 million names.
www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free
Noir!Jake Lockley x WOC Lounge Singer!Reader
written in collaboration with + header by @mrs-lockley
chapter 1 chapter 2 chapter 3 chapter 4
cross-posted to ao3
tags: late 1940s Noir AU, Reader is WOC coded but with no physical description besides being slightly taller than Jake while wearing heels, no use of Y/N, brief mention of past injury, spanish translation at end (courtesy of @queerponcho, thank you beloved)
wc: 3.4k
fic summary: Of all the gin joints in all the world, Jake Lockley walks into yours. Unfortunately for him, it's not quite the start of a beautiful friendship.
chapter summary: immovable object? the unstoppable force would like a word.
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As far as peace offerings go, itâs not the worst.
At least, thatâs what youâve told yourself as you stand outside your neighborâs apartment, your fist failing to close the distance and knock. In one hand you hold a plate of pastries youâd bought earlier. Hopefully itâs enough.
Before you can raise your hand again, the door whips open.Â
Leah Mendoza, ever the force to be reckoned with, stands with arms akimbo and eyebrow raised. âQuit shuffling your feet and come inside, nena.â
You oblige wordlessly. Crossing the threshold, you immediately feel the warmth of her apartment embrace you. Not that sheâs escaped the chill that plagues your building; Leah is an artist, and every flat surface serves as either canvas or easel. Most spaces are covered in surreal portraits and near-magical icons, her handiwork displayed as a gorgeously chaotic gallery. Sunlight streams through gauzy curtains to feed sprawling plants and attempts to warm the richly colored rug beneath your feet.
You leave your shoes at the door and hold out the platter, smiling sheepishly. âHope you still have a sweet tooth.â
âIt's been so long, I'm surprised you remember.â Despite her playfully icy tone, Leahâs expression warms as she peeks at the pan de mallorca you hand over.
â...But I suppose going five blocks out of your way for breakfast makes up for it.â She nudges you with her hip before escorting you to the kitchen.
âLook what the cat dragged in, Caro,â Leah calls out to the seating area as she pours two mugs of coffee. You see your other friendâs smiling eyes light up at the sight of you.
âOhhh, itâs been ages!â she squeals as she rushes to your side, tackling you with an enthusiastic hug.
Caroline Ngo, the youngest of your trio, has always brought a much-needed energy to your time together. When she and her parents moved in, you and Leah decided to adopt her into your early morning ritual of coffee and gossip. As her rosy cheeks beam up at you, youâre (a bit selfishly) grateful that sheâs delayed her college applications by a year. Youâre not ready to part with your other baby bird just yet.
Still, you pry yourself from her grasp. âSomething tells me you had an early start on the coffee.â
âMaybe,â she drawls as she saunters away. Leah passes you a steaming mug, prepared just the way you like it.
The three of you sit, sipping and smiling as the room grows brighter with the sunrise. Leah regales you with the results of her latest art show; Caroline badgers you for updates about Mauricio, dimpled cheeks flushed as she speaks. For a few moments, everything feels like it used to.
Leah finishes her pastry and turns to you. âSo, âMs. Songbirdâ. How are you?â
You shrug, dismissive. âOh, you know. The usual.â
âNo, I donât know. You haven't been around for us to see your âusualâ.â Leah's voice is measured, but sheâs clearly frustrated. âCan you tell me the last time we've heard more than a âgood morningâ from you? Or were together for longer than an elevator ride to our floor?â
You chuckle nervously. âGoodness, maybe⊠August? September?â
âJune.â She sips her coffee before setting it down. âAre things really so busy at work that you can't spare a moment for us anymore?â
If only you knew.
âI'm sorry, ladies. Truly. But things have been picking up at the lounge, I've even had to get outside helpââ
âAh yes, the altar boy lawyer.â Leah shakes her head. âI thought you were done with him.â
ââDone with him?â Leah, he's my friend.â
âOh, I recall. So good a friend that he lets you ice his bruises and clean his cuts.â She crosses her arms. âSo good, he's even bringing new friends with the same scrapes to your door.â
âThe other night was an emergencyââ
âHow long are you going to run around with that kind of crowd?â Her voice bites. âBelieve me, I know my share of the nightlife. But every time you bring home some broken man, a load of trouble seems to follow.â
This is not where you saw the morning going. âI thought we were spending time together, not berating the company I keep.â
âPlease don't be upset,â Caroline pleads, taking your hand from her seat on the floor. âWe miss you. You havenât been home in weeks,â she laments. âAt least, not for more than a couple of hours.â
You shift in your seat but give her hand a light squeeze. âI've missed you, too.â
âThen do something about it.â Leah gets up, crossing the room to distract herself with more coffee but then doubles back to look you in the eyes.
âYou know my gut is never wrong, nena. And I wouldn't be a good friend if I didn't speak my mind.â
You brace yourself as she continues. âYou can spend your nights hiding behind your Songbird persona and running the lounge, but don't be surprised if the cage you're building around yourself is locked from the inside.â
With that, she turns on her heel and heads back to the kitchen, leaving you and Caroline in silence.
Slowly, Caroline slides into Leahâs empty seat, her hand still on yours.
â... I always liked your stage name.â
You donât say anything, instead letting your eyes trail through the patterns on the rug.
She scoots closer. âLeahâs just looking out for you. Like always.â
âI know, Caro.â
You feel her head rest on your shoulder. Tough love has always been Leahâs strong suit; as hard as you are on your boys, itâs bush league compared to your friend.
Carolineâs next words are low, whispered just loud enough for you to hear. âI know that man you were helping.â
You look down at her, dumbfounded. âReally? You know Jake?â
She sits up, eyes wide again. âWell, not technically. I never learned his name. But when he was leaving your apartment, I recognized his face.â Her small smile grows as she speaks. âThere were days Iâd stay out late after school, and Iâd catch a ride from him sometimes. Heâs really kind, not like some of the other cab drivers.â
Concern suddenly sweeps across her face. âIs he going to be alright?â
You think back to the morning he left your apartment: his bruises, your stitches, the blood that still stained his coatâŠ
His hand on your hand, your faceâŠ
You donât feel your fingers grazing the apple of your cheek until you hear Caroline giggle. Your hand drops to your lap as your face warms. âHeâll be fine. If he wised up and saw a real doctor, that is.â You shrug, reaching for your coffee.
âYou care about him,â she teases.
âOh, come off it,â you huff, nudging her leg with yours.
âAnd he obviously cares about you!â She squeals, lowering her voice when Leah turns her head toward the noise. âI saw him leave your apartment, but he stood there for ages, staring at your door.â Her grip on your hand grows unbearably tight. âWhat happened that night?â
Youâve been asking yourself the same question from the moment he left you standing in a bloodstained gown, your apartment colder without him. Since then, there hasnât been a moment where youâve been free from the memory of his face.
âI did him a favor. And⊠he may have done one for me, too.â
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Jake Lockley is man enough to admit when heâs been beaten.
In this case, he's absolutely won over. Head-over-heels, and at your mercy.
Maybe years from now, society adopts stricter rules for how soon you should call on a lady. Even today, some would advise against showing your hand too early. Some men wouldnât want to seem too eager, too desperate.
But Jake Lockley is not a liar.
If âdesperateâ is the word for the incessant drumming in his chest each time you come to mind; if itâs what has him cutting corners and driving recklessly, ushering customers along at double the pace so his thoughts can return to you; if itâs why his palms sweat and nerves ache at the memory of your face that night, that morning⊠then Jake Lockley is desperate.
Itâs hardly been a day and a half since he left your apartment, cold and injured. The suit stitched him back together in seconds; the only ache that remained was at the thought of you. You, who scooped him off the pavement and took pity on him. Who stained your hands with his blood to make it stop. You, who set his skin on fire with the smallest touch and had him convinced he would burn with or without it.
Screw the three day rule. He has to see you.
Hot under the collar, Jake now sits at the barâ your bar, long before normal business hours. Next to him is Matt, whose face hasnât untwisted from the wry grin heâs had from the moment they met up.
âItâs like a jackhammer,â he chuckles into his glass, dodging Jakeâs backhand swing.
âCan it, Murdock.â Jakeâs hand returns to his own drink. Downing the rest, he raises his glass to the bartender. âTop me off, Mr. Manalo.â
Teddy obliges with shaking hands. He scoops up the bills Jake slides his way before dashing off. The two men had asked for privacy, and heâs determined to stay in their good graces.
Jake knocks back the new drink, swiping the excess from his lip as Mattâs laughter grows louder.
âYou really need to calm down.â
âThatâs what this was for,â Jake retorts, shaking his glass so the ice clinks against the edge. Itâs doing him little good, though; from the moment he snuck in here that stormy night, he knew The Paper Moon as an extension of you. Even with the house lights up and nobody onstage, the lounge makes his heart race as quickly as if you were right beside him.
Matt claps a hand on his shoulder. âYouâll be alright, youâve been through worse.â
âYeah,â Jake snorts. Mattâs quiet for a suspicious amount of time. âWhatâs on your mind, Murdock?â
âWhatâs on yours?â Telltale concern creeps into his voice. âHow are things up there lately?â
Jake smirks, the expression not reaching his eyes. âOh, you know. Loud⊠and quiet, in all the wrong ways.â
âSeems quieter than before.â
âYeah?â Jake cocks an eyebrow. His mind doesnât feel quieter, not the way it should. Khonshuâs been on his ass more often, doubling down when his thoughts dare to drift to anything besides the mission at hand. The god throwing a tantrum has become one of the few guarantees that remain.
âI mean it,â Matt reassures him. âItâs like night and day from when you returned stateside.âÂ
Jake stirs the ice in his glass, tempted to hop the counter and refill it himself. It takes everything in him to repress the memory of âbefore,â to not think of the bloody business in El-Alamein. To forget when the occupancy of his mind dropped from three to two.
âMust be the good old American soil.â His sneer drops as he considers his next words. â... or the fool of a pro bono lawyer I managed to snag.â
âMaybe,â Matt says. âOr it could be the little bird that's caught your ear.â
Before Jake can respond, a pair of footsteps cross onto the stage behind them.
He turns to see you and Mauricio, backs to the house, talking in rushed succession as you survey the stage. Youâre in a blouse and trousers, your movements easy and unrehearsed despite the growing exasperation in your voice.Â
âMaurie, I don't care how Leo feels the lights bounces off his new mustache wax, unless he can't follow my cues he's staying stage left. Andââ
âNo days off for you, are there?â
When you turn you see Jake, hat in hand and standing a few steps from the bar, as if heâd walked toward you but stopped halfway up the aisle. You canât place the look on his face, but you're nevertheless pinned under the gaze of his now-healed eyes shining up at you.
âJAKE!â Mauricio startles you when he shouts, leaping off the stage to clasp hands with the older man.
âHermano,â Jake chuckles, pulling him into a quick hug before letting go. âÂżNo te andas metiendo en problemas, eh?âÂ
âÂżParece que tu eres el que anda causando problemas, ey botero? ÂżDe dĂłnde saliĂł esa cicatriz?" Mauricio leans in, examining the pale line running through Jakeâs eyebrow with awe.    Â
âAh, just a scratch.â Jake shrugs as he brushes past him to approach the stage and offers his hand as you step down. You accept, hoping he doesnât notice the slight tremor in your grasp.
âLeave the man alone, Maurie,â you chide, nodding your thanks and holding back a laugh. As much as Caroline fawns over you, Mauricio seems to do the same to Jake whenever their paths cross. It helps that he plays along.
As the three of you walk back to the bar, you notice Matt dial in to something and smileâ far from his normal reaction.Â
âIâm afraid I canât offer you more than another drink, I have an appointment with Matthew this afternoon.â You cross over to your friend, whose smile only grows as you draw closer. But you brush it off, still focused on Jake.
âActually,â he starts, his hand sliding into his pocket, âI was hoping to cut in on your consult time for a moment. That alright with you, doll?â
Matt clears his throat. âMauricio, can you take me backstage? I should start unpacking this file.â
The drummer perks up. âSure! But the bandâs getting ready to play some poker⊠you feel like teaming up again? We can split the pot like usual.â
âEven better,â Matt grins. âLead on.â
He gathers his portfolio and walking stick to follow. If you didnât know better, youâd swear you could see a moment of panic flicker across Jakeâs face.
Itâs replaced in a flash with his usual smirk. âSure you want to risk your pocket change, Matty?â
âIf all my clients paid like you do, I'd be out of a job.â He collects himself and follows Mauricioâs footsteps, turning to Jake and mouthing âjackhammerâ with a hand to his chest when heâs behind you.
Their footfalls fade and itâs just the two of you at the bar. You take a seat, drumming your fingers on the surface to soothe your nerves. Jake sits beside you.
âYou look better.â You notice the scar Maurie was talking about: his former head wound is free of your haphazard stitches, instead healed into a light dash through his dark brow. âBut I told you that would scar.â
He shakes his head, brushing his fingers past the spot. âI kinda like it. Gives me an edge,â he chuckles. Maybe Khonshu hadnât healed his face the way he normally would as some sort of lesson. Jokeâs on him.
âHow did⊠I mean, you look really good, how did you recover so quickly?â Now that youâre closer, you realize thereâs no sign he was hurt just two days ago. If not for his scar, you could pass that night off as some sort of dream.
âYou told me to see a doctor, didnât you? Looks like Iâve got the best one around.âÂ
You eye him, not sure what to think. â... yeah, alright.â
Your fingers drum the bar again. Maybe that night knocked all of Jakeâs suave confidence from his head: when heâs not speaking (something youâre still not used to), he looks like a child about to lose his lunch. For all his urgency a few minutes ago, heâs taking his sweet time getting to the point.
Finally he sits up straight and takes something out of his pocket. âHere. For you, morena.â
A small black box slides toward you, stopping at your restless fingers. You raise an eyebrow quizzically, a familiar warmth spreading across your cheeks.
âA present? Didnât take you for the âholly-jollyâ type.â You pick up the box, feeling its velvet casing and fighting back a smile.
âNah, not really a Christmas guy myself. But I figured you could use a pick-me-up.â Jake crosses one arm along the bar, propping his chin in his other hand as he watches you open the box.
Inside, you see a delicate gold chain with a charm fastened to its middle: a small bird with its wings spread, intricate designs etched into its surface.
âOh myâŠâ You look back at Jake, who seems to have been holding his breath as you examine your gift.Â
Your slowly unfolding smile is all the reward he could ask for, breathless laughter pushed from his chest with relief. âFor the songbird,â he casually declares, relief mixing with pride at your reaction.
You take the necklace out and hold it to the light. âItâs beautiful,â you sigh. You undo the clasp and try to put it on yourself, but your fingers canât seem to make it fasten.
âAllow me,â he says quickly, standing to move behind you and assist.
You feel his hands take over and drop your own in your lap. His knuckles brush the back of your neck and it takes everything in you not to shiver. The smell of smoke and spice dances on your senses, pulled away all too soon when he moves to stand in front of you.
âThere,â he breathes, eyes going from the pendant draped below your collar to your eyes. âLooks perfect.â
Your fingers grasp the cool metal as you nod. âLooks perfect.âÂ
Silence falls again. Youâve come to hate the sound of nothing when youâre with him.
Jakeâs the first to break it. He sits back down, his next words like a punch to the gut. âYou know, now that Iâm not driving Wesley around⊠I wonât have to take up space at your back table anymore.â
âOh. No, I suppose not.â You toy with the charm around your neck. âSo is this⊠goodbye?â
âThat depends,â he says cautiously. He turns to you, eyes swimming with the same unfamiliar mix of emotions from before. âDo you want it to be?â
Your fingers leave your neck as you meet his gaze. âDon't say you're going all soft on me, cabbie.â
âWhat if I was?â He leans forward, and for the first time you don't back away.
âCards on the table: I haven't stopped thinking about you.â
That makes two of us. You bite your tongue to let him continue.
âMorena⊠would you ever want to get out of here? Just you and me, call it a truce or a⊠a date.â A smile plays on his lips before his brow creases. âI won't badger you after today, just⊠one way or another, put me out of my misery.â
The wings of the charm feel heavier with the weight of his confession. Hand to your heart, you feel the bird again, this time with Leah's warning running through your mind.
âI suppose a truce wouldn't hurt.â
When he smiles, wider than ever, you see the charming gap in his teeth. And you smile, too. You both laugh, the heated stress in your nerves turning to effervescent relief.
You could spend an hour like this. But when you hear shouts of frustration and a bilingual litany of choice words echo from backstage, you know you have to go put out a different fire.
âI should make sure Matthew isn't in trouble,â you sigh, standing to straighten yourself.
âIf I know Matt, he's the one causing the trouble.â Jake stands with you, desperate for this moment not to end but anxious for your next answer. âSo when can weââ
âSunday night,â you cut him off, starting to back away toward the stage. âI'll figure out how to slip away, but meet me under the sign at 9.â
You move to rush toward the stage at another outburst, but Jake's hand catches yours yet again.
âYou can't keep doing that,â you groan, yet with a smile still on your lips as he tugs you back toward him.
âYou're the boss,â he hums, pressing his lips to the back of your handâ the gesture all too routine, but you're ready to admit you've missed it.
He releases your hand and dons his cap, tipping it to you. You laugh again, a rich and easy sound he'd never tire of hearing. You bow slightly and dash backstage, with Jake's voice calling to you as you leave.
âSee you Sunday, Songbird."
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âÂżNo te andas metiendo en problemas, eh?â - Not getting yourself into any problems, eh?
âÂżParece que tu eres el que anda causando problemas, ey botero? ÂżDe dĂłnde saliĂł esa cicatriz?" - Seems like youâre the one causing troubles, hey cabbie? Where did that scar come from?
note: in-universe Jake is Guatemalan and Mauricio is Cuban; as a non-spanish speaker, please let me know how i can improve in the future!
A/N: i've missed these two!! this chapter was a doozy but i'm so happy to have gotten back on track. i won't say PPP is on hiatus (we never had a promised release schedule) but after i take a wee break from writing, i'm set on finishing my Moon Knight Bingo prompts before 4/30 + starting on my OI fanzine entries (!!! exciting times). but if inspiration strikes before i finish, i certainly won't complain.
ty for reading!!
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