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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!

Image descriptions at the bottom of the post.

We decided to make something for pride month featuring the alters featured in previous comics

The alters in the first image, from left to right:

Ao, Ruby, Bay, Natalie*, Raina**, Inflexible, Grey, Jayde.

The alter at the top of the second image is Rhombus. The one flying on the left side is Omara, and the one in zir arms is Jenny. The one flying on the right side is Worlds, and the one on their back is Kelly. The ones on the bottom of the image, from left to right are Cristina, Jules, Alicia, Eugenia, and Mercedes.

*Natalie once went by Sodium on this blog, but she recently changed her name, so she and her source no longer share a name. Therefore, she longer has to use a pseudonym.

**Raina once went by Radium on this blog, but she recently changed her name, so she and her source no longer share a name. Therefore, she no longer has to use a pseudonym.

And yes, all five at the bottom are from the same source. It was not fully intentional.

Happy Pride Month, everyone! Figured my timing was okay as long as I finished it at some point this month.

Some of these are based off of real shirts/jokes, but some are not. I WISH I could actually buy some of these.

I do have other comics that I’m working on, but IDK how much progress I’m going to make on them in the near future, because ADHD keeps making me start new ones instead of finishing the ones I’ve already started.

So yeah. We hope you enjoy!

[Begin image description:

For both images: Both are drawings and aren’t super realistic. There are people in both. All are facing forward. All are smiling. All mentioned pins worn by them are round. All writing on the pins is in black.

Image 1: The background is sea foam green. Several people are standing in the lower half of the image.“HAPPY PRIDE!!” is written above them. Each letter is a different stripe of the intersex inclusive progress flag, starting with the intersex flag and ending with the color purple. All letters are outlined in black.

Description of people from left to right:

Ao has light skin, blue eyes, and reddish almost shoulder length hair. Ey is wearing a white pin that says ey/eir, a black shirt that says “QUEER,” with each letter being a different stripe of the trans flag, and a trans flag around their neck.

Ruby has light skin, short dark brown hair, and brown eyes. She has a black shirt with a white Greek letter alpha, the symbol for ambiamory, a red unbuttoned flannel, a small butch flag (specifically the orange one) coming up from behind her. On the flag’s stick is a white she/her pin.

Bay has light skin, short black hair, gray eyes, and black glasses. She is wearing a gray short-sleeved shirt, a necklace with a clock on it, black pants, and blue and silver triangle earrings. On her necklace, she has two pins. One is a white she/her pin, and the other is the omnisexual flag. She is blushing. She is holding Natalie’s hand.

Natalie has light skin, shoulder-length brown hair, and greenish gray eyes. She is wearing black pants, a short-sleeved black shirt with the words, “CAN’T EVEN THINK STRAIGHT” written in periwinkle, and a white she/her pin. She is blushing. Besides holding Bay’s hand, she is also holding Raina’s hand.

Raina has light skin, blonde hair that is past shoulder length with all hair beyond shoulder length tucked behind her shoulders, and green eyes. She is wearing black pants, a white she/her pin, and a short-sleeved shirt that is a combination of the demisexual and demiromantic flags (shown horizontally). The purple stripe is on top of the green stripe. Additionally, the left (from the perspective of the viewer) sleeve is purple, and the right sleeve is green. She is blushing.

Inflexible is nonhuman. They have dark blue skin with small, lighter wavy lines/swirls and short medium green hair with thin lighter green lines, and green eyes. They are holding a white flag with black text that says “They/Them.” They are wearing medium blue jeans and a black long-sleeved shirt with a drawing of the close-up Megamind meme on it. The shirt also says, “NO GENDER?” in white letters above the Megamind drawing.

Grey is nonhuman. Their entire appearance is grey. Their clothes, hair, and skin are the same color, making them indistinguishable. Their eyes appear closed, but aren’t. He has messy shoulder-length hair. He is wearing a white they/he pin and an aroace flag pin with a drawing of garlic bread on it.

Jayde is nonhuman. They have bright red skin, bright green eyes, and bright purple hair with thin darker purple lines forming a part. They are holding a white flag that reads, “They/Them” in black text. They are wearing a light gray long-sleeved shirt with a big oriented aroace flag shaped like a heart on it.

Image 2: The background is sea foam green. At the top of the image, Rhombus is shown upside down from the shoulders up. They have white skin with a vertical black rhombus in the center that reaches from their forehead to their chin. Their facial expression is not a human one, as their facial features are shaped slightly different from that of a human. They are not technically smiling. They also do not have eyebrows. They have black hair that goes past their shoulders. On one side, the hair is swept to the front. Their hair does not behave as if Rhombus were upside down. A black arrow pointing to them with “They/Them” written in black sits on their right side. Beneath them, the “HAPPY PRIDE!!” from the first image is below them. However, it is much smaller than in the first image.

On the left side of the canvas, Omara is suspended in midair. Omara is nonhuman. Ze has black skin, orange eyes with white waves in them, black curly hair that does not reach zir shoulders, and black wings that resemble angel wings. Zir hair has a very thin orange band in the middle. Ze is wearing off-white shoes that somewhat resemble ballet slippers, and an off-white dress with thick straps. On each strap, there is a pin. The one on the left is the sapphic flag, and the one on the right is a white ze/zir pin. Ze is blushing, but the blush looks pale orange. Ze is holding Jenny horizontally.

Jenny has light skin, light blue eyes, light blonde hair in a ponytail that reaches past her shoulders, and round black glasses. She is wearing white shoes with purple laces, pants that are the colors of Gilbert Baker’s 9-stripe flag (it’s the original 8-stripe pride flag with a lavender stripe on top), and a long-sleeved shirt with the colors of the demisexual flag (shown vertically). On the shirt is a white she/her pin. She is blushing.

On the right side of the canvas, Worlds is flying horizontally in the corner. Worlds is a vampire. She has light gray skin, black sunglasses with dark red lenses and a strong glare in the top right corner of the glasses, light brown hair that ends in a curl and goes just past her shoulders, and large black bat wings with the bones outlined in white. They are wearing a lighter gray shirt with an unbuttoned tan jacket with four pockets over it, two with flaps over the pocket. Sticking out of one pocket is a dark red flag with black text that reads, “GAY VAMPIRE.” On the stick of the flag is a white she/they pin. They are blushing. Kelly is on their back, with one hand on their side under their arm and one hand on their other shoulder.

Kelly has brown skin, brown eyes, and black hair. She is wearing a hoodie that is the colors of the bisexual flag with black drawstrings. On the hoodie is a white she/her pin. She is blushing.

Underneath all this are five people. From left to right:

Cristina has light skin, dark green eyes, and dark brown hair that goes past her shoulders and is tucked behind their shoulders. They are wearing black pants and a black short-sleeved shirt with a small pansexual flag on a stick on it. On the shirt is a white she/they pin.

Jules has light skin, short brown hair, and dark brown eyes. He is wearing white pants and a black short-sleeved shirt with a semicircle shaped demiboy LGBallT character (which is just a semicircle covered in the demiboy flag with white eyes outlined in black). On the shirt, in a position that makes it look like the LGBallT character is wearing it, is a white he/they pin. He is blushing. He is holding Alicia’s hand.

Alicia has light skin, green eyes, and blonde hair pulled into an early 1900s madonna coiffure (not 100% sure this is correct- it’s not drawn well, and I got the name from the Internet). She is wearing black pants and a white short-sleeved shirt. The top of the shirt reads “PAN” on the top, and “CAKES” on the bottom, both in black. In between the words is a stack of pancakes in pansexual colors. The bottom pancake is light blue, the middle one is yellow, and the top one is pink. They are stacked on a plain white plate with a black outline. On the top pancake is a pool of syrup with a square of butter in the middle. On the shirt is a white she/they pin. They are blushing.

Eugenia has light skin, brown eyes, and dark brown hair pulled into a style resembling an early 1900s everyday pompadour (again, not drawn well, and getting this from the Internet, so could be wrong). She is wearing a white long-sleeved shirt with a drawing of a pansexual-colored cat on it. The cat is pink with blue patches, and has yellow whiskers, a yellow mouth and nose, and yellow eyes with blue pupils. On the shirt, above the car is a white she/any pin. They are holding a white sign with black text by a brown stick. The sign reads, “Proud Big Sis Of A Non-Binary Sib.”

Mercedes has light skin, dark brown eyes, and dark brown hair styled similarly to an early 1900s everyday pompadour, but with no bun (again, not drawn well, from the Internet, could be wrong). They are wearing a dark gray shirt with “QUEERHET” written vertically. The first four letters are the colors of the non-binary flag, and the last four are the colors of the heterosexual flag. On his shirt is a she/they/he pin with the colors of the non-binary flag as the background of the pin.

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New comic! This is a collaboration with the wonderful @sketchbook-stars!

Our story is on the left, and theirs is on the right.

Some notable people on my side of the comic include:

@milady-mothman - the best friend in the first panel!

@gagtodeath - the cousin in the third panel!

@andrewjacksondestroyer - our very close friend from the fourth panel!

We’ve been trying to publish more of these, but we keep wanting to start new comics instead of finishing old ones (yes, we have ADHD, lol).

Uhhh so anyway, hope you enjoy!

[Image ID: Note: There are two stories told simultaneously in this comic. The story on the left will be described first, and then the story on the right.

Begin ID: Panel 1: The background is sea foam green. There is some text near the top that reads, “Coming out to our best friend as a system was a huge deal for us. They’re super supportive and we love them very much (platonically). Underneath that, there is a gray text message bubble coming from the left that reads, “who am I speaking to?” Beneath that, there is a blue text message bubble that reads, “Ao and Ruby, thanks for asking.”

Panel 2: The background is sea foam green. There is one block of text near the top that reads, “We came out to another friend using memes and a comic we made on Super Storyboarder.” Beneath that, there is another block of text that reads, “She thought the memes were funny and seemed to really appreciate them.”

Panel 3: The background is sea foam green. There is a block of text at the top of the page that reads, “Coming out to our cousin was a pretty big deal. We came out to her after the concert of an artist we both love. We had brought up DID before, but we would always talk about our ‘friends,’ who were a system (hint: it was us). She’s always been super understanding and even follows us on Simply Plural now.” Beneath that is a drawing of two people on a dock across from some land with trees and houses. The water around the dock is reflecting an orange color, like the sunset. The person on the right has short black hair, peach skin, and is wearing a white shirt with long sleeves and white pants. There is a white box next to them that says, “Coltun (they/them), one of two alters who has a super deep voice while fronting (the only one of the two that we knew about at the time). They are saying, “Did you hear the change in my voice before?” The person on the left has long red hair, peach skin, a black shirt with long sleeves, and blue pants. She is saying, “Yeah, I was wondering if that was you.”

Panel 4: The background is sea foam green. There are two blocks of text at the top. The first one says, “One of our biggest system coming outs was the first time we ever told anyone. Ao knew of 8 alters at the time (including eirself), but thought ey was imagining them (spoiler alert: ey wasn’t). The block of text beneath it says, “We had heard of DID before, but knew almost nothing about it.” Beneath that, there are two people sitting on a gray ledge with their feet on a sidewalk. The one on the right has long brown hair, peach skin, a neutral facial expression, light brown eyes, thick black square glasses, a red flannel jacket with long sleeves, blue pants, and red shoes. There is some text next to him that says, “Corey (he/him), co-host of our friend’s system at the time.” He is saying, “I’m a system, which means I am many people in one body.” The person on the left, Ao, has peach skin, reddish-brown hair, a shocked facial expression, blue eyes, a gray hoodie with a darker gray pocket and hood, black shorts and black shoes. Ey is saying, “That sounds like what I’ve been experiencing!”

Begin second story ID:

First panel: The background is a warm shade of pink. There is a block of text near the middle that says, “we never planned to come out to any of our friends initially, being afraid of being judged or misunderstood. yet it turned out to not be so bad.” Beneath that, there is a smiling person who is the same color as the background with shoulder-length messy hair.

Second panel: The background is a warm shade of pink. At the top of the panel, there is some text that says, “Yet after a while, one of our hosts was tired of hiding it all, and told some of our friends.” A block of text below that on the right side of the panel reads, “They were extremely accepting.” There are two people in the panel. Both are the same color as the background. The first has completely black eyes, shoulder-length somewhat messy hair, two antlers, a smile, a bit of sweat on their face, a pointy tail, a turtleneck sweater under an open jacket with cuffed sleeves, and pants. “Lucid” is written above their head. There is a tiny speech bubble next to them with an ampersand in it. The person on the right has short hair with bangs that cover their eyes, a slightly open mouth, lines next to their face indicating emotion, and a hoodie with long drawstrings. Next to them is a small speech bubble with a check mark and an exclamation point.

Panel 3: The background is a warm shade of pink. At the top of the panel, there is a block of text that says, “and on the inverse, we helped our partner realize that they were also a system.” Beneath that, there is more text that says, “it warmed our hearts to know that they trusted us with this concept and we helped them come to terms and realize it.” There are two people below that. Both are the same color as the background. The one on the left is looking at the one on the right. They are winking. They have shoulder-length hair, a smile, a braided band in their hair, and two pairs of wings- one on their head and one on their back. The word above their head is Civ. There is some text above their head that says, “y’know, how did you NOT realize??” The person on the right is looking at the person on the left. Their mouth is open. They have chin-length hair, a hoodie, horns, and a pointy tail. The word above their head is Colix. There is some text above them that says, “..IM A LITTLE STUPID-“

Panel 4: The background is a warm shade of pink. The text at the top says, “We don’t regret being open about our system one bit.” The text beneath it says, “It might have caused us some pain, but we have made so many more good memories since that day.” Beneath that, there are two people holding hands. They are sitting on green grass and the background behind them (underneath the text) is crimson. The person on the left has peach skin, shoulder-length dark crimson hair, black eyes, a smile with a fang in it, a red shirt with long sleeves and a white collar and cuff, crimson pants, a dark crimson bat wing on the left side, black shoes, and a red rose on the right side of their hair. There are three small speech bubbles on the left side of them. The top one has a red heart, the middle one has an orange flower, and the bottom one has a yellow star. The person on the right is looking at them. They have thin black square glasses, light blue-green skin, light blue-green hair that sticks out more and is a little longer than the hair of the other person, a smile, a darker blue-green shirt with a frill on the front under a darker blue-green jacket buttoned at the bottom with a collar, darker blue green pants, and a furry tail the same color as their skin. On the right side of their face is a dark blue-green patch. They do not have an eye there.

End ID]

In-System Relationships

Sorry this took so long. We’ve been really excited about this one. Next comic will be about signs that were missed. Bonus points if you can guess the sources of any of our fictives (I think one is pretty obvious if you know the source).

Unrelated to DID: My Very Good Friend @petticoatedmouse made a Discord server for people who like sewing. No particular level of experience required.

Here is the link:

[Image description:

Note: Their identities are listed because they are holding their flags in the comic.

First image, panel 1: A grey background with two people, Jenny (she/her), a fictive, who is demisexual and pansexual, and Omara (ze/zir), who isn’t an introject, but based parts of their appearance on a video game character. Omara is sapphic and has an unlabeled gender. The caption reads “In-system relationships… …quite a complex phenomenon.”

Panel 2: A pink background with the outline of a red heart and the captions, “So complex, in fact, that we can even feel the attraction on the outside. But only if the alter experiencing attraction is fronting or co-conscious.”

Panel 3: A grey background showing Worlds (she/they), a lesbian introject (who is also a vampire), and Kelly (she/her), a bisexual factive, holding hands. The caption says, “Sometimes, there are very much like out-of-system relationships.”

Panel 4: Worlds, whose bat wings are now visible, is flying through space with Kelly on their back. The captions are in white boxes and they read, “Other times, not so much” and “Yeah, I don’t think singlets typically fly through space (our innerworld is in space) on their partner’s back.”

Second image, panel 1: A sea foam green background with the words, “Of course, not every headmate wants this. We just have a lot of in-system relationships.”

Panel 2: A stage with a keyboard, microphone, and part of a drum set visible with a grey background is shown. Two alters are standing on it, Bay (she/her), a fictive who is ambiamorous and omnisexual, is standing by the piano looking at Sodium, and Sodium (she/her), an ambiamorous lesbian, is standing by the mic looking at Bay. The caption says: “They can be just as complex as out of system relationships… (yes, we have a stage in headspace where we perform whatever we’re listening to IRL).”

Panel 3: Captions say, “…and just as full of love.” and “While we have several polyamorous and ambiamorous headmatss, we don’t have any throuples or other with more than two partners. Systems that do have these are absolutely valid though.” Sodium is shown sitting on a grey bench on a grey background with another factive, Radium (she/her), who is demiromantic, demisexual, and trixensexual.

Panel 4: A sea foam green background with the caption, “They are very important in our system. When partners spend time together, it improves our overall mental health.”

Third image, panel 1: A sea foam green background with the caption, “This gets more complicated with introjects. Sodium and Radium are factives from the same source, but they aren’t dating IRL, which is a bit awkward. And yes, it’s valid to have factives who are dating IRL. We just don’t have any.”

Panel 2: Caption: “With fictives, it’s a little different. You may be fan favorites or even canon. Or you may be an unpopular ship or not canon (valid as long as there are no problematic elements) (no, they’re not getting married, this is how they dress in source).” It shows Jules (he/they), a bi demiboy, and Alicia (she/they), a pan girl (both fictives) on a grey background, looking at each other.

Panel 3: Caption: “And yes, it’s also valid to have fictives who aren’t dating their source-partner. Whether that’s because you don’t have an introject of them…” Cristina (she/they), who is pan, is shown on a grey background, saying, “If we had an introject of him, and he asked me out, I’d say yes.”

Panel 4: Caption: “…or because they’re simply not attracted to them (although in this case, we don’t have an introject of him either- thank goodness).” Eugenia (she/any), who is pan, and Mercedes (she/they/he), who is non-binary and straight (we chose to include that because they aren’t cis), are shown on a gray background saying, “Ewwwwww!”

Fourth image, panel 1: A sea foam green background with the caption: “Of course, in-system relationships aren’t for everyone.”

Panel 2: Rhombus (they/them), who is gendervoid, agender, and aroace, is shown on a grey background, with a caption and arrow next to them that reads, “Not interested in any kind of relationship.”

Panel 3: Three alters, Inflexible (they/them) (introject), who is lesbian, oriented aroace, and bellusaroace, Grey (they/he) (introject), who is non-binary and aroace, and Jayde (they/them), who is oriented aroace, pomosexual, and liagender, are shown on a grey background. Caption: “All three are interested in QPRs, and all three have experienced tertiary attraction towards people in the outerworld, but they are not interested in each other.”

Panel 4: A sea foam green background with the caption, “Especially when what you want is on the outside.”

Panel 5: The hosts, Ao (ey/eir) and Ruby (she/her) (captions say to check our first comic for their labels because there are a lot of them)!are shown on a grey background. The caption next to Ao has an arrow and says, “Has feelings for a singlet.” The caption next to Ruby has an arrow and says, “Has feelings for a different singlet.”

End image description]

Kind of a rant about probably my least favorite holiday:

Unhappy 4th of July to the people that set off bird killers and flashback initiators.

Hate fireworks. I live in an area that’s obsessed with them though. We’re autistic and have PTSD, so they’re a big no for us. Our PTSD isn’t even from combat, but they’re still causing negative stuff in our brain as we type this out. I hope the birds nesting in our area (and all the other people and critters) are okay, but I know they aren’t.

Also, WHY do they set them off in the week or so leading up to tonight too?

I swear my neighbors are playing some kind of July 4th playlist (so far “Firework” and “Party In The USA” have played). Like okay, we’re losing our rights and you’re celebrating this oppressive place by shooting things into the sky. Add “American Healthcare” by Penelope Scott. It’s much more accurate.

- Gia (she/her).

Delay

Hey y'all, We have family visiting, so it will likely take us a while to post our next comic. Fear not, it has been started, but the subject matter alone means it will take a while. So yeah. Expect that eventually. - Ao

Here is the sweet little in-between comic we said we would make! Hope y’all enjoy!

Title: “Kids & Old Comfort Media”

Tie-Breaker

And the winner was... actually a tie...

Yeah, now we're going to do a run off. Though we will probably do the runner-up after this one.

So...

Poll Update: Inflexible actually said something that gave us the idea for our next comic. So the poll will be used to decide the comic after that.

~ Matthew (still me, just decided I'd rather use this name on here)

Update: After mentally planning everything over the course of several hours, they decided that they'd rather not do that comic (it's a little too personal for them). Fear not, we are going to be putting out a new comic before the poll one, and it will be very sweet.

We can't decide yet- curious what you all want to see. Thanks folks.

~ Mathi

First Comic!

Title: “Hosts”

Uh yeah so we’re the hosts. Nice to meet everyone. :D

[Image Description:

Top half of first picture:

Enby with reddish hair past chin length in a hoodie saying, “Hey y’all! I’m Ao, and I’m one of the hosts. I’m also the one who identifies with the body! I use ey/eir pronouns. Used like: “I saw eir today. Ey was smiling at that cat of eirs.”

Butch girl with short dark hair saying, “Hey! I’m Ruby! I’m the other host, and Ao is my twin sibling. I don’t identify with the body, but I grew up in it along with Ao. Both of us age with the body. I use she/her pronouns.”

Bottom half of that picture:

Ruby: “Now we’re going to talk about our labels. If you don’t know what any of these mean, feel free to ask.”

Ao: “I’m kind of a microlabel enthusiast, sooooo this one applies more to me than to her.”

There is a white box that says “Label Lists” and two pieces of paper with scribbles below them.

Top half of second picture is a close-up of these lists.

List 1: Ao’s labels:

Omnisexual, demiromantic, aceflux, nebulasexual, nebularomantic, alexigender, aurorian, autigender.

List 2: Ruby’s labels:

Lesbian, ambiamorous, graysexual, demisexual.

Bottom half of that picture:

Ao: “We hope you enjoyed this comic! Expect more soon! Thanks for reading and please take care of yourselves!”

Ruby: “See y’all later!”

End image description]

made a meme for anyone else out there who gets stuck in the "it wasnt that bad!" or "maybe im not traumatized!" loops because trauma denial sucks ass!!! you all are valid!!!

I just ran into this on my feed, and I'm having trouble looking up the info, so maybe someone here could tell me (please?);

What are endogenic systems and traumagenic systems, in regards to mental illness (and maybe autism)?

Are you supportive of endogenics it doesn't say anywhere and I can't tell if I need to ignore the blog or not (no offense I just don't fw endos)

Hi there, anon! We are a traumagenic system and we believe that plurality only develops through trauma. We do not police what kind of trauma is “enough” to cause plurality. We also don’t believe that all “endogenic” systems are faking (they may not have access to the memories of the trauma that they went through or they may be experiencing other forms of dissociation or mental health concerns), so we don’t go out of our way to attack anyone based on their system origin. I hope that makes sense.

I guess we have a BMO fictive who’s like a translator for headmates who don’t speak or don’t speak English.

The thing about being an autistic system undergoing a host change is that now all our former safe foods don’t taste the same and we have to figure out safe foods all over again…

We’re rapid switching and blurry so we aren’t sure who is who in the following. So everyone is just “me”

THE TALE OF MOVING HOUSE: PART BATHROOM

Way Past Me: I will gather all the bathroom items in a handful of bags so it will be easier to get that room functional again quickly.

Past Me: I need more bags than I thought. I’ll need to empty a few. Good thing the bathroom stuff is all together! I’m going to dump it all INTO the bathtub so that I can’t avoid putting stuff away in here when I want to bathe.

Slightly Past Me: CURSE YOU, PAST ME. I JUST WANT TO BATHE BUT I HAVE TO PUT ALL THE BATHROOM STUFF AWAY FIRST.

Current Me: (in the bath, having plowed through everything in about a half hour) …Okay, Past Me. You win. That was smart.

Talking to one of our dogs while we’re having a bath triggered some memories of pre-system discovery things that make so much more sense now.

Let me explain.

Valor very much enjoys stealing my towel while I’m bathing. He’ll dig around in it to make himself a little nest and then nap in the towel while I bathe.

So today I’m getting ready for a bath and I say “Oh boy, Valor! It’s time for your Favorite Thing!” referring to stealing my towel. But I know this is not actually his Favorite Thing. It is probably not even in his Top 5 Favorite Things. But because it’s something he definitely enjoys, I call it his Favorite Thing.

But that’s not what “favorite” means. A favorite implies a single thing that is liked more than all other things. People have favorite colors and movies and books and meals. And this struck me today. Examining my use of the word, I realized that I have always treated “favorite” in this way - as a way to describe something I “really really like” not necessarily more than all others. I’ve always had “multiple favorites” in just about every area of life. And I’ve always just written it off as an inability to be decisive or a quirk. Other people, at their worst, have described it as me being weak-willed, wishy-washy, or conviction-less.

But it’s none of those things.

It’s the fact that I’m plural. Of COURSE we’ve had multiple favorite movies for as long as we can remember. “The Care Bears Movie” has always been Madison’s favorite movie. That didn’t make Howl’s Moving Castle any less Aina’s favorite movie. Nor did Leigh developing an obsession with Frozen 2 make Aina’s favorite movie and less her favorite movie. But before we knew we were plural, it seemed and felt like we had multiple favorite movies. Or multiple favorite songs. Etc.

Now I’ve got thirty years of using “favorite” inaccurately to undo in myself. 🤣

A poetry anthology but the poems are written by different headmates in a DID System. Is that anything?

We made it. Barely. But we made it. The weekend won’t be long enough. But hopefully it’s enough to get us through another week.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Look buddy, i’m just trying to make it to Friday.

It’s our birthday today. We turn 35. (Well, the body does. The majority of our headmates don’t really age right now. I don’t know if that will ever change.)

Birthdays are kind of complicated for us. We’re smooshed right up against Mother’s Day. That meant for a lot of our childhood, we were placed in situations with one of our major abusers. And as we have transitioned into adulthood, our inability to be a mother (parent in general) continues to be extremely painful for us. So it’s hard to feel celebratory on the day right after we have had so many conflicted emotions about celebrating and honoring our own mother and mourning the fact that we won’t ever be one ourselves.

But we’re going to try really hard to move past the weird feelings and celebrate ourselves this week. This WHOLE week. My planner is full of ways we can celebrate ourselves this week. And why it’s worth celebrating.

We’re gonna keep working on healing.

Because we deserve that.

Updated with all the side blogs we’ve currently been allowed by Tumblr’s limitations to recreate.

Galactic Quilt System's Sideblogs

The following is the current list of our system's headmates' sideblogs as of 4/29/24!

@gq-aina "Cherry Blossoms and Sparkles" This blog is run by Aina and focuses on anime, lolita fashion, and Japanese culture.

@gq-aphra "Mud Puddle Splashing" This blog is run by Aphra and focuses on goblincore content.

@gq-bivvie "Just Another Omega" This blog is run by Bivvie and focuses on omegaverse content from the perspective of an Omega.

@gq-canary "2BA Master" This blog is run by Canary and focuses on Pokemon-related content, including Canary's journey to play and beat every Pokemon game in existence.

@gq-fen "Recovering System Host" This blog is run by Fen and focuses on her journey to view herself beyond her system roles and her feelings as the current host of the system. Will contain a lot of parenting and cottagecore content. TW: cancer and infertility trauma.

@gq-fiasco "The Anarchist Blanket Fort" This blog is run by Fiasco and focuses on anarchist/leftist content.

@gq-francesca "Be My Neighbor" This blog is run by Francesca (a Fred Rogers factive) and focuses on positivity content, primarily as a way to cultivate a place for the rest of our system to go when we need positive reminders.

@gq-fritzy "Little Fritter" This blog is run by Fritzy, a sfw adult age-regressor. This blog will focus primarily on agere content with an agender lens.

@gq-galaxy "A Star Reborn" This blog is run by Galaxy, a VTuber fictive ("OC") who started life as a literal star and after going supernova, awoke in a spaceship adrift in the stars in a new, humanoid form.

@gq-indica "Catnip Thoughts" This blog is run by a Sprigatito fictive who adores catnip and her namesake. It will contain 420 themes and content.

@gq-ivy "Modern Witching" Ivy's subblog features mostly Pagan and witchy content, as she is a center of spirituality within the System.

@gq-jasper "Aspiring Artist" What it says on the tin! Jasper is a lover of all artistic mediums and this blog will focus on creating and appreciating different kinds of art.

@gq-josie "Magic Is Kawaii" This blog is run by Josie and focuses on gaming content - primarily Magic: the Gathering.

@gq-Julianne "Support Main" Julianne is a Soraka (League of Legends) fictive. She has split from her source somewhat, but still enjoys playing League and other competitive video games, even though she isn't very good at them.

@gq-leigh "Dreaming of Disney" This blog is run by Leigh and focuses on Disney content (franchises, movies, and parks).

@gq-miku "Alt MikU" An alternate universe Hatsune Miku, this fictive-run blog will focus on our Miku and her journey to self-discovery and self-fulfillment.

@gq-monstera "Cryptozoology Jams" This blog is run by Monstera and focuses on various cryptid and monster content, including fictional franchises like Monster High.

@gq-nadia "Poolside Bookworm" Nadia's sideblog will feature reading content, book reviews, poolside pictures, etc.

@gq-oakley "Pups and Pastures" Oakley is a former horse girl and her blog will feature tons of content about her special interests: horses, dogs, and dreams of van life.

@gq-paradigm "Kawaii Paradigm" Paradigm is a cozy video games streamer. Her content will focus on cozy and wholesome video games.

@gq-pichi "Poke-Pals Space" This blog is run by age-regressor Pichi and will focus on Pokemon content specifically from an agere perspective.

@gq-pippa "Pippa's Palace" This blog is run by Pippa (a MINOR) and will focus on her various interests as a young teen, which include Minecraft, skincare, and princesscore.

@gq-ponycrew "Friendship is Plural" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's My Little Pony subsystem and includes both canon and oc fictives. It will focus on MLP content.

@gq-sanrio "The Sanrio Squad" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's Sanrio fictive subsystem and will focus on Sanrio content.

@gq-sebby "The Littlest Anarchist" This blog is run by Sebby, an adult age-regressor, and will focus on alternative little content (punk and spooky themes).

@gq-seren "Parchment and Dice" This blog is run by Seren, a half-elf, and will focus on various tabletop rpg content.

@gq-skipper "Clowning Around" Skipper's sideblog focuses on clowncore, clowning, puppets, and circus arts - her favorite things!

@gq-syskids "Kiddos in a Trenchcoat" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's SysKids. These are MINORS, so the blog is closely monitored by the system's internal parent, Fen.

@gq-therians "Tails 'n Paws" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's therian subsystem. Therians in this subsystem include a fox, bat, rabbit, otter, tanuki, wolf, raccoon, maine coon cat, possum, and ermine.

@gq-triagetrio "Chronically Cute" This blog is run primarily by Chronic and will focus on disability and chronic illness content. The other members of the system's Triage Trio (Crescent, who handles acute body injuries, and Cupid, who handles acute body illnesses) may also post here.

Galactic Quilt System's Sideblogs

The following is the current list of our system's headmates' sideblogs as of 5/4/24! Note: if you got a follow from this account, it’s quite likely that one of our individual headmates wanted to follow you - you can probably guess who it was by checking out their individual blogs! :)

@gq-aina "Cherry Blossoms and Sparkles" This blog is run by Aina and focuses on anime, lolita fashion, and Japanese culture.

@gq-agate “Recovering Shopaholic” The System has a shopping addiction. Agate is the primary symptom-holder of that addiction. She is blogging about her journey to healing.

@gq-aphra "Mud Puddle Splashing" This blog is run by Aphra and focuses on goblincore content.

@gq-beetle "Bugs, Bugs, Bugs!" Content Warning: bugs, beetles, spiders, creepy-crawlies. This blog is run by Beetle, a headmate who loves all things bugs!

@gq-bivvie "Just Another Omega" This blog is run by Bivvie and focuses on omegaverse content from the perspective of an Omega.

@gq-canary "2BA Master" This blog is run by Canary and focuses on Pokemon-related content, including Canary's journey to play and beat every Pokemon game in existence.

@gq-cattree “The Cat Tree” This blog is shared by the various domesticated cat headmates in system. They range in levels of anthropomorphism.

@gq-doghouse “The Dog House” This blog is shared by all the various domesticated dog headmates in system. They range in levels of anthropomorphism.

@gq-emiyo “Emi-chan’s Playhouse” What happens when a kawaii otaku is also a Little? Emiyo! She loves magical girl anime and cute dresses!

@gq-faewyn “Music Curator” Faewyn curates Spotify playlists and shares them here!

@gq-fen "Recovering System Host" This blog is run by Fen and focuses on her journey to view herself beyond her system roles and her feelings as the current host of the system. Will contain a lot of parenting and cottagecore content. TW: cancer and infertility trauma.

@gq-fiasco "The Anarchist Blanket Fort" This blog is run by Fiasco and focuses on anarchist/leftist content.

@gq-francesca "Be My Neighbor" This blog is run by Francesca (a Fred Rogers factive) and focuses on positivity content, primarily as a way to cultivate a place for the rest of our system to go when we need positive reminders.

@gq-freckle "The Dollhouse" Run by Freckle, an adult Little (age regressor) in our system, her blog focuses on doll-related content, including her subsystem, which is comprised of dolls. A lot of Rainbow High and American Girl Doll stuff here!

@gq-fritzy "Little Fritter" This blog is run by Fritzy, a sfw adult age-regressor. This blog will focus primarily on agere content with an agender lens.

@gq-galaxy "A Star Reborn" This blog is run by Galaxy, a VTuber fictive ("OC") who started life as a literal star and after going supernova, awoke in a spaceship adrift in the stars in a new, humanoid form.

@gq-gwendolyn “Divergent Slytherin” This blog is run by Gwen, a Harry Potter fictive. She understands her source is problematic and she is trying to work through her love for her source and her understanding of its problems.

@gq-indica "Catnip Thoughts" This blog is run by a Sprigatito fictive who adores catnip and her namesake. It will contain 420 themes and content.

@gq-ivy "Modern Witching" Ivy's subblog features mostly Pagan and witchy content, as she is a center of spirituality within the System.

@gq-jasper "Aspiring Artist" What it says on the tin! Jasper is a lover of all artistic mediums and this blog will focus on creating and appreciating different kinds of art.

@gq-jessica “Horsegirl Forever” Jessica is an adult Little/Middle who loves all things horses.

@gq-josie "Magic Is Kawaii" This blog is run by Josie and focuses on gaming content - primarily Magic: the Gathering.

@gq-julianne "Support Main" Julianne is a Soraka (League of Legends) fictive. She has split from her source somewhat, but still enjoys playing League and other competitive video games, even though she isn't very good at them.

@gq-kalylia "Sweet Swirlybun" A former system host, Kalylia, works on finding out more about herself and what life will be like for her now that she is no longer the host of the system.

@gq-leigh "Dreaming of Disney" This blog is run by Leigh and focuses on Disney content (franchises, movies, and parks).

@gq-maisie "The Language of the Loaf" Maisie adores baking and her blog will focus on that alongside cooking and all things food. Note: Maisie appears innerworld with darker skin. She is NOT "transracial" - we understand that our body is white and we in no way believe ourselves to be POC.

@gq-miku "Alt MikU" An alternate universe Hatsune Miku, this fictive-run blog will focus on our Miku and her journey to self-discovery and self-fulfillment.

@gq-monstera "Cryptozoology Jams" This blog is run by Monstera and focuses on various cryptid and monster content, including fictional franchises like Monster High.

@gq-moodboards “Moodboard Requests” Run by the Littles and SysKids - entirely for moodboards we make. Requests for moodboards are welcome there.

@gq-nadia "Poolside Bookworm" Nadia's sideblog will feature reading content, book reviews, poolside pictures, etc.

@gq-oakley "Pups and Pastures" Oakley is a former horse girl and her blog will feature tons of content about her special interests: horses, dogs, and dreams of van life.

@gq-olivia “Middle of the Ride” Olivia is an adult age regressor who regressed to a more “middle” age in the 10-12 range. She loves Webkinz, Neopets, Flight Rising, and other browser based games.

@gq-paradigm "Kawaii Paradigm" Paradigm is a cozy video games streamer. Her content will focus on cozy and wholesome video games.

@gq-parisa “Feathered Hugs” Run by our angelkin headmate Parisa, who has major caregiver energy. She loves to take care of Littles.

@gq-pichi "Poke-Pals Space" This blog is run by age-regressor Pichi and will focus on Pokemon content specifically from an agere perspective.

@gq-pippa "Pippa's Palace" This blog is run by Pippa (a MINOR) and will focus on her various interests as a young teen, which include Minecraft, skincare, and princesscore.

@gq-ponycrew "Friendship is Plural" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's My Little Pony subsystem and includes both canon and oc fictives. It will focus on MLP content.

@gq-rowan "The Threehouse" Rowan is an adult age regressor (Little) in the system who loves nature and cottagecore. Her blog will feature these themes.

@gq-sanrio "The Sanrio Squad" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's Sanrio fictive subsystem and will focus on Sanrio content.

@gq-saoirse "Selkie Secrets" Saoirse is a very shy headmate and also an adult age regressor. She loves selkies, seals, cold weather, and related things.

@gq-sebby "The Littlest Anarchist" This blog is run by Sebby, an adult age-regressor, and will focus on alternative little content (punk and spooky themes).

@gq-seren "Parchment and Dice" This blog is run by Seren, a half-elf, and will focus on various tabletop rpg content.

@gq-shine “Georgiabama Catfish” Run by our Dystopia Rising fictive headmate. Shine will likely be using this to journal her time at and in-between LARP meets.

@gq-skipper "Clowning Around" Skipper's sideblog focuses on clowncore, clowning, puppets, and circus arts - her favorite things!

@gq-story "A Storied Tapestry" Part of our healing process is handled by Story, a headmate who creates short stories based on our headmates, innerworld experiences, and especially our fictives' pseudomemories. She'll post these stories here.

@gq-syskids "Kiddos in a Trenchcoat" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's SysKids. These are MINORS, so the blog is closely monitored by the system's internal parent, Fen.

@gq-therians "Tails 'n Paws" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's therian subsystem. Therians in this subsystem include a fox, bat, rabbit, otter, tanuki, wolf, raccoon, maine coon cat, possum, and ermine.

@gq-toybox "Quilted Toybox" This blog is collectively run by the Galactic Quilt System's soothers/companions who are living toys. It will include a lot of art and perhaps their thoughts on their roles.

@gq-triagetrio "Chronically Cute" This blog is run primarily by Chronic and will focus on disability and chronic illness content. The other members of the system's Triage Trio (Crescent, who handles acute body injuries, and Cupid, who handles acute body illnesses) may also post here.

@gq-vikki "Seaside Dreaming" Asiavik aka Vikki loves marine biology and blogs about all things life in and around the water. She's very autistic and marine biology is her special interest.

All traumagenic and disordered systems deserve more credit. You endos don't deserve shit.

You also think the term "sysmed" is fitting. Plurality isn't inherently medical, but only because of spirituality. Being a system is medical. It's a disorder caused by dissociation which is caused by trauma. Guess what? I'm also trans and have been harassed by transmeds, and it's not the same. Don't compare being trans, a thing anyone can experience, to people with trauma that happened before we had a fully developed fucking brain. Our trauma isn't comparable to gender, a fucking social construct that isn't real. Of course being trans isn't medical, because gender isn't technically real. Trauma and being a system isn't a social construct. We were abused.

Get your head out of your ass. 🥰

Friendly reminder that DID/OSDD does not equal sysmed. There are so many amazing DID and OSDD systems out there that are wonderful and supportive of all origins and they deserve more credit!!!

No one's against plurality because of religion/spiritual beliefs. I'm not against that, but that's not what the majority of "endogenics" are. Endos hide behind the fact that spirituality can play a role in plurality to call anti-endos racist/anti-religion, even if they aren't part of that spiritual practice. The problem anti-endos are talking about are people who say they're systems completely without trauma or anything else. They say they have chosen to be a system because of stress, neurodivergency, literally anything. That is not fucking possible. Plurality that forms without spiritual attachment can only be caused by trauma that happened before the age of seven. STFU and learn what we're talking about.

This isn't specifically targeted at the original poster or anon, but it's an important point I had to make.

Wanted to get ur perspective on this but, I think the reason why so many anti-endos are in fact anti endogenic bc they view being a system as being purely a medical diagnosis. So if ur looking at a spiritual system (like me for example uwu) through the lenses of what a medical system should look like then ofc that spiritual system isn't gonna appear valid. And yet when other systems who aren't medical systems say "hey, we only appear invalid to you bc ur viewing us through the wrong lenses, switch ur gaze homie" they absolutely REFUSE to view systems any other way bc their entire perception of systems is purely medical and they refuse the idea of systems existing in any other form bc they have such a tight grasp on this one perspective.

Definitely!

And I think some of this comes down to semantics, equating "system" with DID/OSDD while most of the plural community uses it as a catch-all term for all plural systems, and the actual psychologists have a completely different definition. It's not even a scientific disagreement but one over the definition of a word.

Although, I will remind people that when it is a scientific disagreement, anti-endos don't have any ground to stand on. Regarding spiritual systems specifically, there have been many studies on spiritual mediums and others experiencing possession that have shown different brain activity compared to people simply imagining. Scientists can't prove whether this is actually spiritual or just psychological, but the phenomenon is recognized as real in psychological communities in the way that it's not just people faking or pretending they have these experiences. Nor are these experiences considered mental illnesses or disorders, and they have little to no connection to trauma.

It's always good to remember that spiritual systems were the first types of plurals recognized by society.

I also want to add that being unable to view systems through different lenses can have a lot of harmful repercussions even among OSDD and DID systems. Plurality is a broad spectrum that encompasses a lot of different phenomena. The same way an OSDD system might have difficulty empathizing with a spiritual system, they might also have that same trouble with one that functions in ways that are different from their own. For example, a system who has no internal communication might disbelieve experiences of those who do. Or one with few headmates might not believe experiences of systems with hundreds of headmates. The same could be said of complex inner worlds or any number of other experiences.

Just a reminder to everyone that everybody experiences plurality in their own way, and that just because someone's experiences are different from your own doesn't mean they weren't actually experienced.

Dream fit, body, hair and aesthetic..

-(Kangel fictive)

Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

pro endos id like to see u defend this..

THIS !! I can NOT stress this enough. OSDDID is not something fun to have, sure it has its positives (positive experiences) But it's still a trauma disorder. I'm tired of seeing radqueers on here saying "fuck you anti radqueers !! I'm gonna form a system becuase I can :3 I want dissociative amnesia ! I want horrifying flashbacks >w< and I want to have split headaches so bad they're crippling! >:3" I wish every radqueer, endo, pro endo, endo neutral a very get well. A very get educated. It hurts to see these types of people refuse to understand how NOT FUCKING FUN these DISORDERS are, which mind you are INVOLUNTARY. You cannot pick and choose having OSDDID.

DID is more than just having parts. Its also,

• amnesia

• confusion

• headaches

• nausea

• repeated childhood trauma

• anxiety

• spikes in fear. Anger. Or shame

• mood swings from parts

• body dysphoria

• depersonalization

• derealization

• self puzzlement

• loss of control

• flashbacks

• dizziness

And more.

DID is not "friends in your head" its traumatic, scary and uncomfortable. Its not fun it's a terrifying TRAUMA BASED disorder. And it should never be romanticized - Vesper