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I'm thinking of Paul beating up Ponyboy, cornering him in an alley, knowing it's him, and attacking anyway. Because in his eyes, this kid is the reason Darry is gone, hardened, shutting Paul out. Darry's responsibility for this ungrateful kid is the reason nothing will ever be the same again.
And Paul’s swinging on him and then this kid screams Darry’s name. For the shortest moment, Paul is comforted by the knowledge Darry is coming. Darry is coming back, with strong familiar arms to haul Paul off Ponyboy. And yeah, Darry will yell, and maybe even hit back, but at least he'll be here.
But then the gang gets there first and Paul has to scram, knowing Darry is going to hear about what he did and knowing he’s just ruined everything for good. No forgiveness anymore.
Might as well commit to it now. Might as well be the monster. Just to prove it never mattered to him anyway.