My Heart Aches - Blog Posts

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no end of the season race has hit me as hard as this one. I'm sobbing profusely rn. I'm gonna miss this season so much. I'm gonna miss valterri and zhou (especially them together), i'm gonna miss kevin magnussen and his never-ending chaos, i'm gonna miss franco and his lack of media training, i'm gonna miss carlos and charles and their silly giggles (i'm not even prepared to process this one), i'm gonna miss lewis and bono, lewis and toto, lewis and george, i'm gonna miss seeing my french war couple (pierre and esteban), i'm gonna miss alex and fanco, and also alex and logan, i'm gonna miss daniel, i'm gonna miss and miss and miss and miss.......

There's so many things I'd like to tell you. Maybe how I thought that this could finally be my 'good day'. Or how when you said that you missed me, my heart skipped a beat, because no one ever misses me. You're the first person who listened. Who understood. I loved you so much. I finally thought I could trust you. But now I'm sitting here bleeding from my chest. You left the door open when you took my heart. You never came back. I thought I could trust you, but I'm not sure anymore.

- Dreaming of Wolves//Poems

I don't have a cool or interesting post today. Highschool sucks. I have no one. I'm so incredibly lonely it's not even funny. I got my heart broken for the 2nd time by the same person. It feels like the one millionth time. My heart aches. My eyes want to cry, but nothing will come out. The thing is, it's not his fault either. Maybe I just deserve it. Everything. I'm sorry self. I told you I would be better. But the crying won't stop. I'm sorry. When will this go away? When can I feel like me again? I don't even know who I am anymore. This isn't for attention. This is for myself. I tried comforting me, but instead, I'm falling apart.

This is my theme for today;