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Watch: Kristen Bell opens up about the mental health double standard and how she manages her own struggle.

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I just want you all to know that there is life beyond your eating disorder. There is hope.

Your life will not always be numbers, body checks, obsessing over every little detail, binges or restriction, pain and suffering. I know it can feel like your ed is your home, who you should be, who you are. But it's not.

It may feel like you've lost yourself (or you've found yourself within this disorder), but I can promise you that you WILL find the real you again. You were not put on this earth to be sick. That is not your purpose in life.

It could feel like without this, there's nothing to you, that this is the only thing you can do right. It's not. There are so many wonderful things that make you you, and one of them is not your eating disorder.

In a weird way, it's kind of comforting, isn't it? It always trips me up to think about, but sometimes it feels like coming home after a long day and being able to drop your bags. But the thing is, there's no comfort to it at all. Our disorders are fantastic liars, and they've tricked us into think we need it, that without it, we're just a shell of a person. You don't need it, you've never needed it, and like I said previously, this disorder is not what makes you who you are. You do. Not anorexia, b.e.d, bulimia, orthorexia, or ednos.

You deserve a life not centered around food and the rules you've created. You deserve to be able to think about other things. To enjoy life again. Please don't let your ed tell you any differently.

Please reach out if you need someone to talk to or if you'd like to send an ask. I wish you all nothing but the best ♡

Fuck yeah it has

So the club I am part of is planning on doing some projects and they're apparently looking for program director to lead the programs. I would like to apply myself for the position but I am so scared of doing it. Because of some not good events from my past, I could seem to bring myself forward for any kind of events. I am scared that I'm going to be lost with no help or get myself stressed while working on the project. What if I really got lost without any help? What if I fail to finish the project and embarrass my advisor too? These questions are torturing me. I don't think I can ever stand my lecturer or my educator looking at me with that humiliating face as if I'm useless one more time. I don't even have any friends or just anyone to rely on. I really really wish to overcome this fear of mine. But it's too hard to do it. It's very scary despite my desire. What should I do?

I don't know who needs to hear this but:

-"it only hurts a little" is still pain

-"I can ignore it" is still pain

-"I can cope with/manage it" is still pain

-"it's bearable" is still pain

-"I can push through it" is still pain

-"it doesn't hurt that much" is still pain

-"it doesn't stop me from doing x" is still pain

You don't need to be in agonizing pain to be in pain.

I may not understand psychosomatic disorders, but damn, people definitely should stop stigmatizing them. Like, why the fuck it's called pseudo just because it has mental origin? You wouldn't call someone depression pseudo, so why the fuck you're calling functional symptoms pseudo?

Guys with FND/Conversion disorder/Idk, whatever you call it, you're completely valid. I genuinely don't care about your disease being psychogenic, you're still a legend with completely real symptoms, just not psychical origin.

so no one was gonna tell me periods can actually make pre-existing mental health conditions worse???

idk if i should be worried about this but i can't seem to relax properly as in there is a dull pain in my chest, right above my heart - might even be my heart tbh but it's not like a searing pain. it's like if someone is gently pushing my chest.

my heart also feels like it's beating very fast but when I press my hand against my chest it feels normal. at least that's what I'm getting

ive never had anything like this

this has been going on for a while ever since I started to eat lunch. I came back from exams which is offline here. I felt nothing on the way. now I've washed the dishes (it felt weird even tho I used to do it all the time) and am on my bed now, going to fall asleep and hopefully wake up more refreshed. I admit school has been stressful cuz of the practical exams I had and now I have exams till second week of march.

idk if it's cuz of the stress I've accumulated but I just wanted to write it down. for evidence ig

should i be writing?

yes

but will i?

absolutely not

what will i do?

make custom wallpapers cuz pinterest doesnt have the ones i fucking want

I stopped investing myself in the kpop scenery after Jonghyun's passing so I was pondering about writing about Sulli since the news came, and I still don't know if I should.

Jonghyun's passing was a great deal to me, I cried, I was triggered, and my mind was very unkind to me after it for a while. I was scared. And kpop became unbearable to me, I casually listen to some songs here and then but not as much or as frequently as I used to. I deleted all kpop from my music library and when I listen to it it's on YouTube cause I don't want spotify to start putting kpop everywhere on my tm.

I was never a big fan of f(x). I wasn't very aware of the group's story or its ups and downs but I enjoyed them. I always thought it was one of the best girl groups out there, so dynamic and talented. They were nice girls, very likeable. All of them. Luna was one of the best main vocals of the second generation, in my opinion. And they didn't go further because of SM's treatment and management... they could've been HUGE.

Im so sad to hear about Sulli. And I'm sorry for every fan out there that woke up to this news. Please take care of Korean idols, and mostly female ones, they get more hate than their male counterparts. They're hated for a bunch of reasons that male idols aren't, like being sexy, showing skin and being vocal.

That is what Sulli was, she was a quite vocal young woman in an extremely conservative, old fashioned and sexist country and industry. She was only 25.

Im tired of hearing of idols being mistreated and in poor health (both physically and mentally) because of the kpop industry. It doesn't matter what company they're from, all of them go through the same crap because this companies work towards commercialization and marketability according to the industry and the audience demands.

Groups from small companies are in far more precarious situations that the ones on the big three, don't get me wrong those three deserve every bit of criticism and accountability they get from us BUT "irrelevant" groups from small companies are treated WORSE. Most of them aren't paid at all and charged, instead, for their training, and they accumulate debts towards the company that they aren't capable of ever really paying because they keep taking dancing, singing and acting lessons that they're charged for and that they HAVE to take if they want to have a minimal chance at debuting, and if they have already debuted they don't get paid until they've settled their debt. And because the company is small and they have no resources or money, sometimes, sasaengs "sponsor" them in exchange of information and actual dates with the idols, that they can't refuse because of the company and their contracts (because of this contracts they can't leave, unless they pay the debt fully), exposing themselves to dangerous scenarios, and this sponsorship is added to the debt.

The reason I'm saying all of this is because I want you all to realize and acknowledge how f*cked up the kpop industry is and how much we, as international fans, need to care and take care of them and demand a change in how this gets down.

I want you to be conscious of how many idols are in this situation but we don't hear of it because they're irrelevant or simply because theyre not on the infamous big three. The big three are not trash, is the whole industry. Many young girls and boys feel like Sulli and have made radical decisions because of their situation.

If you're a kpop fan PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE care about what goes behind close doors. Care about your idols. START CARING AND DEMANDING BETTER TREATMENT OF THE ARTISTS YOU CLAIM TO SUPPORT AND LOVE.

P.S. Hara attempted suicide too not so long ago, so I can only imagine what she must be going through right now given that and the fact that she was close with Sulli, support Sulli's close friends in this time of need, please.

Reminder

Your sadness is valid.

Your frustration is valid.

Your pain is valid.

Your jealousy is valid.

Your hurt is valid.

Your disappointment is valid.

Your shame/guilt is valid.

Your regret is valid.

Your anxiety is valid.

Your happiness is valid.

Your enthusiasm is valid.

Your passion is valid.

Your love is valid.

Your emotions are valid.

No matter what your emotions are, they are valid. You are allowed to feel.

But that does not mean your reactions may be valid too. You cannot hurt other people because of your emotions. You are responsible for your reactions to emotions.

Responsibility does not dismiss your validity of feeling a particular emotion.

Reminder

It's okay if you didn't achieve the things that you worked hard for.

It's also okay if you did.

It's okay if you feel like you didn't try harder.

It's also okay if you did.

No matter what people say, you did your best.

If you didn't achieve the goal that you said you would, people will say "She didn't try hard enough"

If you did achieve the goal, they would say "She sacrificed too much"

No matter what, people will talk

So, be gentle to yourself.

Reminder!

Your worth is NOT defined by:

Grades

Appearance

Weight

Height

Nationality

Gender

Race

Religion

Work

Degree

Illness

Disability (mental/physical)

Income

Your worth is not defined by anything. You are definitely worth it. You are enough. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Progress is still progress!

It doesn't matter if you hadn't done the things you were supposed to do. It doesn't matter that if you finished 1 thing out of 4 things. You don't have 3 more things to do, you have 1 less thing to complete.

It doesn't matter if you had relapsed after a day or 3 of productivity and healing into a spiral again. What matters is that you get back up and start again. Because now you're a bit stronger and more resilient than before.

It doesn't matter if all you did today was getting out of bed, eat and change your clothes while you did nothing else. Appreciate yourself and give yourself the credit you deserve for doing those small things.

It doesn't matter if the only thing you did today was to focus on existing and on yourself alone. Be proud of surviving till the end of the day because you made it through knowing that there was a possibility of you not making it.

Progress is still progress. It doesn't matter if you take small or big steps. You're taking a step and that's all that matters.

Reminder!

It's okay:

If you're not currently interested in studying

If you've lost interest in some thing you like/love

If you need a break

If you just need to sleep for the whole day and be lazy

If you just want to watch/binge shows and movies

If you don't feel chirpy sometimes

If you feel sad/angry/or any other emotion

If you feel stressed or pressured because of work

It's okay if you are not okay