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Never the same

A Raymond imagine ( 'The Gentlemen' 2020)

Summary: Before Raymond became a man hardened by the harsh reality of the world he belongs to, one to never get attached and live for himself alone, there was her. Someone he would have given his life for and someone he ultimately chose to let go. And after her, he has never been the same.

Warnings: Substance consumption, angst

I hope you will enjoy reading this piece as much as I enjoyed writing it. It has been way too long since I have written something, but whilst I was gone I developed a massive love towards Charlie Hunnam and characters portrayed by him, the latest one being Ray. Feedback is always appreciated and my apologies if the aforementioned warnings lack something important, as it is the first time I am disclosing them in my writings! Enjoy! :)

Italics indicate retrospectives!

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Raymond wasn't always quite like this. He wasn't one to seek out one night stands, too endorsed in guarding his already broken heart to give a shit about the heart of a girl he takes home for the night. Too endorsed in satisfying his primal needs after drinking the night away to forget the emptiness his soul has strung along since the day he left her. The day his soul last felt complete. Ever since then nothing has been able to fix what was broken and Raymond hadn't bothered to, anyway. He didn't feel like he deserved it. Too engrossed in self-hatred that he has managed to hide from the prying eyes of his boss and subordinates. At least that's what he thought. 

Every morning is a painful reminder of a past self that he can no longer recognize in the mirror, however, that has never stopped him from putting on a happy face and going on with his duties as Mickey’s right hand, only to fall in bed with a woman whose name he wasn't even bothered to remember, too drunk to feel anything at the end of the day. The only thing keeping Raymond from going insane is that he truly believes letting her go was the right thing to do, even though lately he has been having trouble distinguishing right from wrong, happiness from sadness and dreams from nightmares. It's her that has been poisoning his dreams, getting a hold of his most hidden memories, ones too good, yet painful to ponder on even for a minute without them leaving a bitter aftertaste in his mouth with what-could-have-beens and what-ifs. Ones that make him wish he could take it all back and once again become the man he used to be with her.

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“You do realise that I love you more than life itself, do you?” she said, letting out a light chuckle afterwards as to not sound so desperate. Desperate to love him, have him, call him hers. But her eyes gave it away. They always did. Raymond was able to read her like a book. A book filled with secrets, pain, suffering and outweighed by joy, happiness and love so pure it could complete his own corrupted soul. With her sun seemed to shine a little brighter, the water seemed to be a tad bit bluer and he was able to see past the life of a criminal he had decided to become a part of. 

This was a reoccurring conversation they seemed to be having almost daily at this point. Just like Raymond was able to read her like a book, so could she read him. And behind that handsome face and beautiful, albeit tormented soul hid a vulnerable man scared to fully commit to her, give himself to her and just love, because the life he is used to leading is no place for love and weaknesses. And a weakness she is. 

“I know,” is all he would answer. But that seemed to be enough for her because behind those two words hid a sea of emotions he felt for her. And she knew. She knew he loved her, possibly more than she could even comprehend. What she didn't know, however, is that through these simple, yet oh so vulnerable conversations they have also been saying goodbye.

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Raymond awoke in cold sweat, too shaken by his dreams to fall back asleep, too restless to just numb his mind and rid of the feelings he thought he had grown out of. Foolish of him, he knows, but how could he not think that the love he once felt for her is gone if he doesn't even remember the last time he willingly thought of her. Only in his dreams does he let his guard down and unconsciously prays to go back to the days when he called her his. Before he found a remedy in alcohol and drugs that for once filled his system with something that numbed his bottled-up feelings. But tonight it wasn't an option, he was on a job that required for him to be alert of his surroundings and the looming threat of getting killed by Mickey's rivals looking to retaliate. And so he was forced to face his biggest enemy in the dark of the night. Himself.

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“I just… don't understand. How can this be a goodbye, how can you just walk away?” she cried, too hurt to hide her tears, too broken to pretend like she can fix this. Because even though she doesn't want to believe it, she knows he is leaving. And there is nothing she can do, even though there is nothing she wouldn't do just to have him for one more day.

“You knew all too well how this is going to end when we decided to give this a shot. We are not working out and there is nothing you can do to change my mind,” he said, seemingly unphased by their imminent parting on the outside, while he was absolutely breaking on the inside. However, for once in her own heartbreak she wasn't able to see past his exterior, only meeting his cold eyes and stoic face that made her soul break a little more, for she thought she had truly lost him. In reality, he was breaking on the inside, too, a little more now that he sees the pain he has inflicted upon her. But this had to be done to protect her. Because if there is one thing in the world he wouldn't forgive himself for, it's being blinded by love and letting her get hurt by the world he belongs to, a world all too harsh for someone so pure. 

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The job had gone smoothly and Raymond awoke to a world filled by one less enemy lurking behind his back. And so it called for a celebration, one to numb his mind and put the last night's events to rest. What he didn't anticipate, however, is seeing her occupying his favourite seat by the bar he often joked to be his third home. While at first, his heart skipped one too many beats, causing his face to pale and palms to sweat, something about her presence brought the feeling of peace. For once in the longest time, everything seemed to fall into its place, as if stars had aligned in his favour. Because he can no longer stand the thought of living through another night dreaming of their shared past that still haunts him. Admittedly, after her, Raymond has never been the same. But maybe, just maybe, after seeing her for the first time in years, the same glimmer in her eyes, bright smile and laughter that made him fall utterly and unconditionally in love with her, being the foolish boy who once used to be able to call her his is not what he yearns to be any more, for he was the one who let her go. Maybe what he needs is another chance at being a better man. 

With her. 

Sebastian De Souza Spanking Bradley and not wanting to let him go ,plus his little dance is sooo cute LOL

OH YEAH, I FORGOT

If you choose to go with the idea that Sonic's counterpart is also King Arthur (the hedgehog, not illusion), then you could also draw up reasons for why he isn't the king in the game.

Mordred was prophesied to kill Arthur, so (as a baby), Mordred was sent on a ship that was supposed to be destroyed, killing everyone aboard it. However, Mordred survived and eventually made his way to Camelot, becoming a knight and usurping Arthur's throne temporarily.

For a parallel, perhaps the illusion Arthur's fate was to be killed by Arthur the hedgehog (and rightful king). In an attempt to escape his fate, he asked for all the hedgehog children to be sent on a boat that was supposed to crash, killing everyone on board, but Arthur ended up surviving, and once Sonic left, took the throne.

If there’s one thing I love in SatBK, it’s that DESPITE being crowned as King Arthur, he actually fills 2 roles (Arthur and Mordred).

Him filling Arthur’s role is PRETTY self explanatory. He’s crowned king at the end of the game, pulled the sword from the stone, leads the knights and kingdom, etc. But Mordred’s role is something ENTIRELY different.

First, Mordred and Sonic both doomed Camelot in different ways: Mordred with usurping Arthur and taking his throne, Sonic with giving the scabbard to Merlina resulted in the kingdom almost being destroyed. Mordred disregarded the code of Chivalry (Sonic does this out of overall disinterest and his morals, Mordred has more lustful habits and unchivalrous behaviors, which Sonic DOES NOT have).

Then, we have the more obvious parallels between them. Mordred killed Arthur, and Sonic did the same with the illusionary Arthur. Mordred used Clarent to kill him, a sword that Arthur used in ceremonies, and BEFORE getting Caliburn, the sword Sonic uses for Misty Lake’s tutorial levels is, in fact, Clarent as well.

This is all REALLY circumstantial, and of course it’s not 100% accurate, I just thought it was a really cool thing to mention.

But I also really want to know what this would mean for Merlina’s dialogue now. After all: “Arthur is struck down by his son Mordred, and departs for Avalon”, but if Sonic fills the roles of BOTH Arthur and Mordred, then Camelot’s ending plays out much differently.

If there’s one thing I love in SatBK, it’s that DESPITE being crowned as King Arthur, he actually fills 2 roles (Arthur and Mordred).

Him filling Arthur’s role is PRETTY self explanatory. He’s crowned king at the end of the game, pulled the sword from the stone, leads the knights and kingdom, etc. But Mordred’s role is something ENTIRELY different.

First, Mordred and Sonic both doomed Camelot in different ways: Mordred with usurping Arthur and taking his throne, Sonic with giving the scabbard to Merlina resulted in the kingdom almost being destroyed. Mordred disregarded the code of Chivalry (Sonic does this out of overall disinterest and his morals, Mordred has more lustful habits and unchivalrous behaviors, which Sonic DOES NOT have).

Then, we have the more obvious parallels between them. Mordred killed Arthur, and Sonic did the same with the illusionary Arthur. Mordred used Clarent to kill him, a sword that Arthur used in ceremonies, and BEFORE getting Caliburn, the sword Sonic uses for Misty Lake’s tutorial levels is, in fact, Clarent as well.

This is all REALLY circumstantial, and of course it’s not 100% accurate, I just thought it was a really cool thing to mention.

But I also really want to know what this would mean for Merlina’s dialogue now. After all: “Arthur is struck down by his son Mordred, and departs for Avalon”, but if Sonic fills the roles of BOTH Arthur and Mordred, then Camelot’s ending plays out much differently.

One thing I have always been obsessed with is photos, not just ones I've taken, but the ones where people are oblivious to the fact they have just had a second of their life captured, to be remembered for decades and, when they finally pass, relatives will be able to see them happy and not just forced to smile for a photo. I would always beg to see pictures when I was younger, I didn't care how old they were, I just needed to see the people I loved go through life, It didn't matter how old they were, I was always happy when I got to see them, I always kept a firm grasp on the photos and, if someone were to try and take them away, I would yell and cry, I needed the closure. So when I think about merlin and how there probably wouldn't have been any pictures for merlin to carry around and remember his friends, family and most importantly Arthur, who was his destiny, he was what kept merlin near that lake, he was the one merlin probably would have cared for the most, it's upsetting. Merlin had to stay on earth for 1500+ years and has probably forgotten what Arthur sounds like, or his most important features which he probably wouldn't think were that important before Arthur's death, merlin had to live with the vague memories he had and a blurry image which stayed in his mind. BBC needs to make a season 6, i need to see a happy merlin, they can probably have their kiss in the year 2023

*some of the legendborn talking about Sel*

Sel: *enters the room*

Someone: Ah speak of the devil

Sel: ExcUse mE I'm not a dEviL I'm a haLf dEmOn learn the difference you uncuLtured swiNe

It was also my first reaction!

I wanted to scream: ONE MORE TIME! I will go to cinema again. It was SOOO GOOOD

“King Arthur: Legend of the Sword” was amazing!

Alright, so my boyfriend’s first review of the movie was that it was “a movie for people with ADHD, made by people with ADHD”, because he thought the pacing and action was crazy fast, and he could barely follow what was happening at times.  Lol!

And, while he is right that the pacing and action was pretty intense, this is one of the things I just loved about this movie!  The regular jumping back and forth between narration and cut-scenes with the fast paced music (and often great visuals).  Then again, I do have ADHD, so maybe he was onto something there.  Lol!

To me, it’s a movie that falls more or less into the “Tron: Legacy” category.  i.e. a feast for the senses that doesn’t need to have a solid plot or even remotely make sense to be enjoyed.  And the 3D on that one is superb! 

My immediate reaction when it ended was pretty much to go: “OMFG! This was so much fun and awesome!  Can we watch it again?  Like now.  Now would be good.  I need that soundtrack.” (While my boyfriend’s was something a little closer to “I need a moment to catch my breath and to process this.  What just happened?”  Lol!)

Also, I can’t help but be amused by the fact that Arthur (Charlie Hunnam) was raised in a brothel, and I think someone (Bedivere, possibly) mentions at some point in front of Goosefat Bill (Aidan Gillen) how much he’s blossomed (or filled out…  Can’t remember what term was used exactly) since the last time he saw him.

Now, most of you probably know Aidan Gillen as “Littlefinger” (a.k.a. Petyr Baelish) on “Game of Thrones”.

But Gillen also played Stuart Jones on UK’s “Queer As Folk”.  Where a then 18-year-old Charlie Hunnam played Stuart’s 15-year-old lover, Nathan Maloney. So, seeing Bill basically assessing Arthur / checking him out in that scene, where he and Bedivere are wondering what he can do with that sword, and having one of them comment on the fact that Arthur’s more or less all grown up now…

Let’s say it was a little difficult to refrain from smiling.

I’m guessing old “Queer As Folk” fans are probably going to be having a field day with this movie, and “Arthur/Bill” shippers will be glad to know there’s plenty of steamy material for them out there.

Should you ever wonder what would have happened if a younger Bill had ever come to that brothel when Arthur was 18, and shared an intimate moment with him?  Wonder no more!  YouTube has the answers you seek.

More seriously though, Hunnam and Gillen both gave very solid performances in their respective roles, and Gillen even managed to make me completely forget about Littlefinger, which is quite a feat!

I really can't understand why people hate so much new King Arthur Movie?

Ok, it's fast... maybe even a little to fast, and I would like to hear more dialogues but even without them characters are still pretty complex. Music play a major part in this movie and it's simple amazing. Special effects and pictures are beautiful, and the are a perfect much to a story. I was really afraid of this movie because I am a huge fan of story of King Arthur but I am not disappointed. Jude Law was perfect for a role. Charlie Hunnam? I know that a lot of people are disappointed and didn't like his performance and his version of Arthur. But I don't agree. He does not play a king, yet! Arthur in this movie don't accept his legacy, for him it's just a revenge. If they create sequel I believe that we will see him in glory. But remember who he was. He can't be like his uncle, he was raise in brothel for a fucks sake! He will be always less royal.

But still I love this movie... but it could and even should be a little longer and have a few scene of normal length.

Forever a hater of the fact that i lost this drawing because i forgot how to use csp for a second.

I spent like 2 hours drawing those letters by hand (￣^￣)