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Hua Cheng + being blatantly in love with Xie Lian 🥺💖 | Heaven Official’s Blessing  Special Episode

i hope you are interested in me not just platonically or romantically but also as a specimen

feeling sad so i made this

THEY MAKE ME SO FUCKING SICK. IM VISCERALLY ILL

THE SUN BETTER BE TURNING THEM INTO BURNT CHICKEN NUGGETS WITH HOW MUCH IT SHINES!!

“The sun will shine on us again”

Oh god I never thought of this... 😭😭😭😭😭

All of you rewatching the video to find secrets are just making JJ go through that over, and over, and over, and ov

Tell me you said no.

Tell me we were on the same page, that you know Heaven is just as terrible as Hell, that there is no good side, no right people, that both sides are happy to destroy all life on Earth if they come out on top.

Tell me you said no.

Tell me you remember how terrified they made you every time you did something good that wasn’t Good by the laws of Heaven. Tell me you value yourself more than that.

Tell me you said no.

Tell me I wasn’t alone in seeing all that cruelty done to humans and wanting no part in it. Tell me you’re not going back to help those people.

Tell me you said no.

Tell me you’re not going back to the people who hurt me first, the oldest, deepest wound. Tell me you understand why I can never go back there. Tell me you know I didn’t deserve it.

Tell me you said no.

Tears

Crying is uncomfortable. I would know.

tears burn salt traces across your face

and your eyes feel oddly sticky

your respiration gradually strangles

until it feels like you're breathing through a straw

and yet

I keep doing it

I gave this show a two star review

so why am I watching it again?

Why am I silently letting tears slide

as I wish for something simply impossible?

Why am I still finding shelved sorrows

to tear me apart?

Why can't I finally shed a tear

that will be the last, at least for awhile?