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Romantisized Borderline.
If you have bpd this may triggers you!
Why the fuck would people even do that?
"I wan't a borderliner as my significant other."
No you don't. Its hell for you and for them.
You want someone who is absolutely obsessed, to the point just a wrong breath make them think you hate them.
You want someone who's probably is suicidal, self-destructive and self harming? "I can fix them." No you can't. Neither i think you can stop them.
You want someone that is extremly lovingly and affectionate only to become distant, ignoring and maybe even offensive in a eyeblink because they got triggered into Splitting or rage?
You want someone that probably feels offended if you need time for yourself or do spend time with your friends and don't answer your phone.
You want someone that may shouts and yells in one moment, only to cry and feel guilty in the next moment, maybe begging you to stay?
You do realise that its not just from time to time, but every fucking day? If they have a bad day's maybe even hourly moodswings?
You want just to help them? Thank you, but that's not your task in a relationship/friendship. Take care of yourself because the chance that you just ruin yourself is high.
Fuck, imagine cuddling in bed in a comfortable silence, they overthought something and suddenly push you off, just because a single though.
Wanna know what the worst is?
Maybe you noticed that I am extremely aware of my bpd. But that doesn't mean i can change, or fix myself. Because with the sudden overwhelming emotion, my mind is drowning in things like selfhate and that everyone will leave, no more awareness or control. I think its like that for many borderliners.
Please don't romantisize something people are suffering from. Thank you.
combating my depression one jar of maraschino cherries at a time
im sitting naked on my floor
smoking and listening to music
and this is the most at peace
i have felt in a while