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So what's your name? (Platonic Bad Omens X trans man Reader fluff/comfort)

Request: Nope

Pairing: Platonic Bad Omens x trans man reader

Synopsis: You came out as trans FTM to your friends, the Bad Omens boys.

Tw: brief mention of self-harm, self-loathing and dysphoria

Notes: You are all amazing and loved <3

Thank you @louis-the-french-one for beta reading this fanfic.

(picture found on Pinterest, not mine)

Today was the day you had decided to come out as a trans man to Bad Omens. You were friends with Folio and when he joined the band, he kind of dragged you with him for the adventure because: “everyone will love you and you are important for the group” he had said, to which you shrugged but you still went with it. You didn’t know that this decision would lead you to meet those who would become your best friends.

You helped with the merch selling during tours and would help Matt as much as you could so as to not feel like you were doing nothing. It made your relationship with the different boys grow a lot and you will be forever grateful. With Folio, nothing has changed, you two stayed best friends and will forever. There are still funny banters and playful teasing between you two, but you know that you can go to him if anything happens. His smile, as always, lights up your day. With the others, you had slowly gained their friendship and trust, you would often watch anime with Noah and would give each other recommendations; it slowly became a routine after shows or simply when in the house you all share. You bounded with Nicholas through his cats. You saw a photo of them one day, and as an animal lover, couldn’t help but to marvel at them, which later led to you showing pictures of your family pet to him and him more photo of his to you, the conversation flowing naturally between you and him. You were a bit intimidated by Jolly at first, but it quickly went away when you two talked about your respective home countries; you found his calm nature grounding.

So, you know that everything will be fine, they’re your friends, it is not a big deal, they’re not going to hate you, right? Of course, it is a big deal! You don’t come out as a transgender man like you say hello! You started overthinking again, and your mind found itself flooded with ‘What ifs’ of every bad scenario you could think about. Lost inside your own mind, you didn’t hear the different footsteps approaching you and someone sitting next to you on the sofa. You came to your senses when a hand was waved in front of your face, Folio’s. You jumped a little and turned around to be faced with Folio’s concerned expression.

“Dude, are you okay?”

“Yup, why?”

“You were zoning out for a solid minute when we arrived and you didn’t answer when I called your name.”

When Folio said “we”, you quickly looked around and saw that everyone was here, looking at you. You run your hand on your face and send them an apologetic smile.

“I’m sorry, I just have a lot going on in my mind.”

“You want to talk about it?” says Noah, sitting on the plush armchair next to you.

You stiffen a bit, which doesn’t go unnoticed by everyone. Folio places a hand on your knee, squeezing softy.

“It’s ok if you don’t want to, no pressure!”

Your fingers started fidgeting, anxiously doubting again if it is really a good idea to tell them now. However, you know that you can’t do it anymore, feeling the itch on your skin every time you hear your deadname, wanting to crawl out of your body because of dysphoria, all the scars…You couldn’t take it anymore, you need to tell your best friends. You breathe in and out trying to calm your nerves and to think about how you are going to tell them.

“I…I actually have something to tell you guys…”

            They all nod their head; Folio’s finger was still tracing random shapes on your knee while Jolly and Nick came to sit closer to you as well on the other sofa. Their presences were not pressing which eased you a bit. Exhaling nervously, you looked down and blurted out:

“I’m a boy.”

You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. The silence you received from them made you start to overthink again. Did I say it too quickly? Are they gonna accept me? Of course, they’re gonna accept it… and again, and again. Lost in your own thoughts, you were still not facing them. You couldn’t see the kind look in their eyes and the gentle smile on their lips so you ramble anxiously:

“I mean, I’m trans and I’ve always been a boy but I didn’t tell you because I was scared of rejection and I’m sorry because I know that you would never do that but my mind always took over and made me think of all the bad possible outcomes and-“

            Stopping yourself from rambling, you breathed in and out to calm yourself down, and finally found the courage to look at them with a timid stare. Folio sighed and brought you into a side hug, your head finding itself in the crook of his neck.

“You don’t have to apologize you know… it’s a lot to come out and I can speak for everyone in this room when I say that we’re proud of you for it.”

            All the boys nodded their head, agreeing with Folio. Tears were welling up in your eyes but you didn’t want to cry now, you needed to stay strong. Nick quickly came next to you and encircled you with his arms, hugging you tightly.

“And it’s not going to change anything between all of us. You are one of the most amazing persons we’ve met and you’re literally our best friend! We could never hate you; we like you too much for that.”

            Nick smiled softly at you after his little speech which immediately brought out the tears you had been trying to hold back all along. They slowly rolled on your cheeks while you mouthed a ‘thank you’ to all of them. Jolly stood up, went behind the couch and ruffled your hair affectionately, it felt nice, making you lean into this comfortable feeling.

“So, what’s your name?” – Jolly

“Oh yeah, so we don’t deadname you anymore, sorry about that by the way…” – say Folio sheepishly.

            Sitting up, you shook your head at him. You didn’t want them to feel any guilt about this, it was not their fault that you did not tell them sooner, it would not be fair.

“Don’t apologize, you didn’t know so it’s not your fault. I’m not angry or mad or anything. I should have said something sooner.” You sniffed, trying to stop the tears. Noah saw it and quickly left, only to come back with a box of tissues a few seconds later. “My name is Y/N, if you could use it…”

“Of course we are going to use it!” – Nick

“That’s a cool name.” – Jolly

“It suits you.” – Noah

“Let’s welcome you properly! Group hug!” – Folio

            Quickly, you were engulfed by 4 pairs of arms, squeezing the life out of you. Of course, you return it and although you had managed to dry your tears, some rolled again with the support and love you felt in their hug. Yeah, its going to be okay, you don’t have to worry anymore, unless…

“Wait, I need to tell everyone now!” you say, realization in your voice.

“Yeah, but you’re not alone in this now.” Jolly patted your head again after saying it and smirked slightly: “I mean, we could be pretty menacing if someone give you shit about it.”

            Noah nodded his head and you see a determined glint in his eyes which made your laugh.

“I’ll remember that, thank you guys.”

“No problem!”

            After this moment, they did everything they could to help you during tour and in general in your daily life. Supporting you in every step of your transition and cheering when you got your first shot of testosterone. You couldn’t find words to express how grateful you were to be friends with all those amazing people… And indeed, they were pretty menacing when someone gave you shit about your gender.

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Thank you so much for reading this, I really hope that you liked it! :)

Sorry again for my grammar errors, English is not my first language :) and again thanks @louis-the-french-one