I Think Wanting To Marry Is A Trauma Response From Seeing Your Parents Not Love Eachother As A Kid. When

Waaa I don't want my days centered around me hating myself...... I have chores to do...

I'm not of your species or your age. I probably live in a different biome from yours, too

Maybe to be someone i have to be myself. !

Far too normal to be who id like to be far too weird to be what people around me would like me to be

Everything I have said can and will be used against me

My brain resets way too often

I have been really self deprecating in my conversation, own thoughts, habits, etc. Which is, as many would say, very tiresome and annoying. Still, I don't think that noticing how bothering others with the guilt you feel for being bothersome is a "self fulfilling prophecy" will be the reason for me stop doing so, because I think that was atleast (but not necesseraly) uncounsciously the point from the start. It is a very egocentrical act, which is fitting for someone so insecure, to want to be right for once, to prove and to be proved correct. My intentions were never being loved, it was merely being seem (as something really unloveable)

Being on tumblr for 17 hours reading discourse since youre like 15 was not infact that good for my brain.

Wrote a paragraph of why i'm truly, and i mean truly, a bad person, kept away in drafts because if I din't it would be a public confession of why I should be shot. But in summary I am literally griffith

O LORD TEACH PHYSICS