Writtingcorvus - Myo's Thoughts

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SO TRUE, it has to be someone else involved!! after all sigma exists bc they were written in the book, but they stole the page from taneda.

except DoA wrote sigmas existence like "3 years ago this person appeared..." and etc. but that doesn't make sense because fyodor found sigma¿

and i don't know if this makes any sense, srry

Does anyone else kind of feel like there might be a secret third person pulling strings within the decay of angels? Because I kind of get that feeling sometimes. I have absolutely no basis for this tho.

But like Fukuchi and Fyodor are the only members who seem invested in it. Nikolai and Sigma are essentially Fyodor’s plus ones. And does Bram literally even count as a member? I mean that seriously. Like, he doesn’t want to be there, and he’s literally being used as a weapon. A secret weapon up until this point. Why, if it was known that there were five members, would they count the vampire on a stick that Fukuchi enslaved and like keeps hidden in his office or something? What if someone else is the actual last member? Like maybe that’s how Agatha Christie will finally be plot relevant. But more likely it’ll be the guy who wrote the Decay of Angels.

I just feel like we’re missing something there, but I might just be imagining things.

Picture perfect Amanene coloring (^o^)

watching link click and i gotta say again how i adore doomed siblings

am i the only one that thinks about how similar teru and hanako are? i mean in the sibling™ area. it would be interesting for terus character to actually put him in a spot where he could sympathise with hanako, but also obviously draw out more their differences

i think...

Well, seems like something that was just a theory before has come very close to truth...

Because of this major revelation, I wanted to take a deep dive into what we know about Donovan so far and how hints throughout past chapters could indeed indicate that he can read minds. While we still don't have concrete proof for this other than Melinda's word, I don't believe there's anything that discredits this idea, either. In fact, many things throughout the series support it.

First we have Loid's encounter with Donovan way back in chapter 38. I always found it strange that we never got insight into Donovan's thoughts throughout that whole exchange. We always get to know what characters are thinking, even without Anya's mind-reading support. It's not an uncommon storytelling mechanic in general after all, especially for manga. Yet, Endo chose not to give us any insight into what Donovan was thinking. I figured this was simply to avoid spoiling anything about what his exact plans and motives are for future stories (also why Anya was absent for this). But now it seems like this could have also been to hide the fact that he can read minds. If he can read minds, certain things he said during that exchange take on a more ominous meaning. For example, what he said below about how people can never truly understand each other.

It's been a headcanon of mine that the reason why Anya, and perhaps Donovan, were given mind-reading powers, stemmed from the desire for world peace...the idea being that if people could read each other's minds - in other words, always know what others are thinking and feeling, sympathy and understanding would abound.

We learn later on that Donovan had ideas like this even as a kid when he made a similar comment during his debate competition speech. He said that it's impossible to know the true intentions of others so people will forever doubt each other, thus war is inevitable.

We also have the little detail in today's chapter that Donovan did not have the scars on his head during Melinda's flashback (of course, he didn't have them as a kid in chapter 99 either).

Now this is totally my theory, but if we take Melinda's words as the truth, without any misunderstanding, then sometime in Donovan's adult life after he married and had a child, he was experimented on and was given mind-reading powers, perhaps by force but most likely by choice. Now that he has these powers, his laments about people not being able to understand each other are no longer true, at least not for him. Perhaps the experiments done on Anya were preliminary tests that he put together to perfect the mind-reading implementation science before actually doing it to himself. Again, totally just speculation, but not out of the question.

Then we have Demetrius...we learned in chapter 93 that Anya has trouble reading his mind.

If we put that together with Melinda's comment in today's new chapter, that Demetris also took note of Donovan being able to read minds...

...then perhaps Demetrius conditioned himself to think in ways that would make it difficult for his mind to be read, specifically to thwart the "alien" that's impersonating his father. I mentioned last time that I don't think Donovan is actually an alien, and that this description is the only explanation Melinda could come up with to explain his mind-reading powers. If this is true though, it really does make the Desmond dinner scene all the more telling...that throughout all those panels without dialogue, Donovan was absorbing the deepest inner thoughts of his family members (and again, no insight into his own thoughts, just like in chapter 38).

But if the "Donovan can read minds" theory holds true, then the most disturbing idea of all is that Donovan knows that Twilight is a spy. He knows that he's the target of Twilight's mission, and that Twilight seeks to thwart him. Not only that, but depending on what he's read of Damian and Melinda's minds, he knows that they're fond of Anya and Yor, respectively - people who are close to Twilight. Mind-reading powers in the hands of a child are one thing, but in the hands of a shrewd and power political figure...I'm both excited and anxious to find out what Donovan's next move will be!

Everything aside, the current state of bsd manga is absolutely hilarious from the point of view of Akutagawa specifically. You have no idea who you are or where you came from, only that you must guard those people you don't know against the evil spirits™. You get your ass handed to you by said evil spirits™ in the span of one chapter. You are currently alternating between getting punched, thrown, impaled, hung by the head, and stabbed. There is a guy next to you experiencing ten mental breakdowns all at once. The other guy you are supposed to fight against is half blabbering metaphysics nonsense, half talking about how much he loved spending time with another guy. You have been alive for a total of maybe two hours

bawling my eyes out

the apothecary diaries does such a great job of portraying how traumatizing it can be to be a victim of pedophilia and grooming, instead of romanticizing it like a lot of anime series do. it is disturbing, it makes audience uncomfortable and disgusted — which is how we must feel about pedophilia. you're not supposed to feel comfortable because it's 'normalized' or 'just fiction'; you're supposed to feel disgusted.

the creator didn't make anshi 'fall in love' with the previous emperor or develop a stockholm syndrome — instead, she took her revenge in the same way he hurt her and other girls, which he deserved. her anger, hatred and disgust towards him are rightly justified and realistic for a victim of pedophilia.

the older palace lady (who might or might not be a ghost) told the girls abt her story as a victim of the previous emperor at the ghost story gathering:

whether or not she was a ghost, she wanted her story to be heard, of how much the victims suffered at the hands of the previous emperor. they were imprisoned for the rest of their lives in the same place that ruined their lives. telling her story might be the only way for her to find peace within herself.

an abuser may die but the trauma he leaves on his victims will last forever. it does not go away.

it's even presented as a horror story because there's nothing more terrifying than SA.

(i may have missed a few points but im keeping this brief. thank you for reading my essay!)