I Think I’ll Continue To Wear A Mask When This Shit’s All Over, And Huge Sunglasses. My Face Is None

Good afternoon, I want to cry

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed 

I've eaten so much today its literally insane.

i need a friend who's dealing with the same shit as me. i need someone who can help keep me on track, and ill do the same for them. i need someone who i can talk to without censoring things because im afraid of them finding out i have an unhealthy relationship with food. i need a real friend.

2 days into my depressive emo side and I’ve gotten 2 new tattoos and cut my hair,,, excited to see what tomorrow holds ✨

If that aint a mood

The way i look pregnant post binge