That bpd feel when one minute you’re screaming, crying, scratching at your skin and pulling your hair and hitting yourself and ten minutes later you’re sitting on the sofa scrolling through tumblr eating potato waffles
U ever purge so much that when u consume anything ur stomach bubble or is that just me
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- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.
- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.
- “I shouldn’t have done that”
- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly
- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.
- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating
- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy
- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*
- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it
- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”
- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't
- body dysmorphia
- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed
when you feel a craving coming on:
drink a glass or two of water, slowly
have a piece of fruit, like an apple
make some warm herbal tea with natural sweetener
go for a long walk or hike, put your earphones in and clear your head - walk with a friend if you’d prefer
if you’re still craving the food, have the tiniest bit of it, no more than a bite, and have another glass of water
distractions:
watch a long movie or start a new show
study! complete homework or begin revising for exams
write down your own thinspo imagines
do some online window shopping and look at all the outfits you want to wear at a smaller size
make your own thinspo playlist
do some yoga or meditation
things to keep in mind:
you already know what your favourite foods taste like - you don’t need to eat them again in bulk
imagine the amount of progress you’ll make tomorrow if you exercise self control right now
the shame and guilt that follows a binge is not worth it
the physical pain and exhaustion is not worth it
you’re not just affecting your weight, you’re affecting your overall health, your mental well-being, your skin
binging means you’re wasting your time when you could be doing something much more productive
Me waking up: ah what a beautiful day,, to sTarVe 🥰🥰
Dolce & Gabbana S/S 2019