Do You Ever Feel Like Such A Burden That You Just Wanna Apologize For Existing

Straight up hate myself 🥰

I dont understand why you thing you treat me so well

You ever purge so much u start shaking and feeling really lightheaded and your hands and feet feel really cold and hard to control bc me rn lol

The way i wanna die rn

i need a friend who's dealing with the same shit as me. i need someone who can help keep me on track, and ill do the same for them. i need someone who i can talk to without censoring things because im afraid of them finding out i have an unhealthy relationship with food. i need a real friend.

Avoiding my brain by taking overtime shifts at work

Like heh,, ive cracked the system

I’ve gained.

I suck at staying on track, one minute I’m eating less than 500 cals a day and dropping loads of weight.

Other days I can’t stop eating. What the fuck is wrong with me.

I need to pull it together man.

i feel fucking broken...

U ever purge so much that when u consume anything ur stomach bubble or is that just me

A note to my body

I am sorry.

I have cut you, hit you, and burnt you. I have shoved more food into you than you can handle, jammed my fingers down your throat, and starved you for days until all you can see is stars.

I’ve consumed too much alcohol, too many substances, and exercised you into the ground.

But what I am the most sorry for is that I can’t seem to stop… no matter how much I want to be better for you, I don’t know how to stop this self destruction.

And for that, I am truly sorry