“I Don’t Want To Die, I Just Don’t Want To Exist Any More” Sounds Mild If You’ve Never Experienced

Hahahaha

So I went out of my way to figure out what this is, and apparently its mild shock,, the things I do to be sKinTy 🤡

You ever purge so much u start shaking and feeling really lightheaded and your hands and feet feel really cold and hard to control bc me rn lol

That bpd feel when one minute you’re screaming, crying, scratching at your skin and pulling your hair and hitting yourself and ten minutes later you’re sitting on the sofa scrolling through tumblr eating potato waffles

Dude there was a big boi roach and it did really be flying around and now its gone hahahahahhahahaahhelphaha

I want to go home

Are my hands 'spo yet 🤔

A note to my body

I am sorry.

I have cut you, hit you, and burnt you. I have shoved more food into you than you can handle, jammed my fingers down your throat, and starved you for days until all you can see is stars.

I’ve consumed too much alcohol, too many substances, and exercised you into the ground.

But what I am the most sorry for is that I can’t seem to stop… no matter how much I want to be better for you, I don’t know how to stop this self destruction.

And for that, I am truly sorry

You ever purge so much u start shaking and feeling really lightheaded and your hands and feet feel really cold and hard to control bc me rn lol

Alrighty, so I started my diet off today and gotta say, we're off to a pretty good start. I managed to stay under 400 calories and worked out through out the day, and ill be adding a walk in a bit later today. I've almost reached my water goals, and im gonna have a tea bc we cold, but other than that, im done eating for the day. I am a bit worried about this Thursday because my family and I will be staying in a hotel and they'll get full monitoring of what I eat and what I do so that should be interesting. In other news watched a lot of gossip girl today (highkey cringe ik but we aren't gonna talk abt it), and did a lot of drawing. I hope you all had a good day, and if u ever need to talk, the inbox is always open 💕

Stay safe, loves ❤