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It is sad to see that you have such a wrong image of yourself, you are such a sweet, romantic and talented man <3

Is it really me who has a false image of myself, or is it you? You know me through a self-directed blog with selected content, I've known myself for over a quarter of a century, completely without euphemisms and in raw form.

Why don't you answer my message in your inbox? :(

By being anonymous, you make it quite difficult for me to match you to a specific question. But if I haven't answered it, it's most likely because I don't find it interesting, don't have the time, willingness, or creativity at the moment, the "question" wasn't a question but another unnecessary side note on a topic of your choice, or a mixture of the reasons above.

I have the feeling that you will take your own life in the next 2-3 years because of the world view you have revealed on this blog so far. And I also have the feeling that nobody will miss you because you are a lonely, unlovable person which is further proven by you being alone on christmas.

You had sent me these and other messages on Christmas Eve, and now I could speculate on what this says about you as a person or why, as an anonymous individual on the internet, I seem to play such a significant role in your life that you take the time on such a day to send multiple messages of this nature to me. You could be surrounding yourself with much more positive thoughts and activities on a day like this, yet I will refrain from delving into such reflections. I will not further address these or the other messages, as they are not worth my time.

In that spirit, I wish you joyous holidays with your family or those close to you and hope you have been able to release whatever burdened you with this message.

Da du in deiner Antwort über deine Interessen auch Philosophie erwähnt hast und viel über deine Gefühle gegenüber dem Leben ausgedrückt hast würde mich interessieren, wie du selbst zum Tod stehst?

Ohne ihn romantisieren zu wollen, erkenne ich in seiner Gewissheit eine Freiheit, die ich im Leben vergeblich suchte.

I admire your perspective and the way you explain things. I've been interested in what your opinion is on drugs for a while. Would you please share it with us?

Thank you. And of course I can give my view on that.

I think that drugs can be an important resource and asset in certain areas; for example, in the medical field for the treatment of mental illness, where I think they have been underutilized. But also apart from the medical field, they are of great importance in areas of research and art, for example.

Moving away from the above uses, they are of course also an option for personal use cases, but this is a much more difficult topic.

Drug use apart from tobacco and alcohol is still a highly stigmatized topic and I find it strange that we allow certain drugs while banning others. In my opinion, people should be allowed to decide for themselves which substances to consume and which to avoid; but this idea arises from my point of view and I am a person who gives a lot of thought and does not rush into anything. This cannot be said about all people.

I think it's important to look at the effect profile, your circumstances and the drug itself before you use it. It is also essential to be able to look at and analyze oneself in a reflective way. In summary, one must have a certain foresight and respect for the effects. However, this is not only true for drugs, but also for medications of all kinds.

I also think what many people forget is that the body can only feel so much and certain drugs, like strong opiates, can push the body to its maximum emotional limit. Think about your first time walking in the rain, your first kiss, your first time having sex, and all the euphoric feelings that had built up inside you during such moments. After using such strong opiates, no moment will ever feel like that again, and every new moment will be overshadowed by the high experienced through use. The only way to increase this high, to feel truly alive one more time, would be to increase the dose. This is an almost sure path to addiction, depending on what kind of person you are.

In summary, I think that each person should be allowed to choose their own poisons. There should be more education instead of prohibitions, as the latter are often still more of an incentive for younger people and uneducated consumption can often have serious consequences. Drugs can bring many benefits, especially in the medical and research field, but they also contain many dangers that one should be aware of.

Flower

Deep into the dark of night

a single seed was cast to earth;

buried with no star in sight

hoping for a loving birth.

And a flower was to rise

from the dusty ground it grew;

could I really trust my eyes

when all I saw in it was you?

And I watered it with tears

and given it your name;

still it wilted in its fears

was I the one to blame?

by Weltenasche.

Gebrochene Nelken

Als Symbol der Freundschaft wurden sie bekannt und im Hinblick der Reize sind sie ernannt.

Doch die einst so prächtigen Blumen sie drohen nun zu verwelken im Sturm größter Zweifel da brechen selbst Nelken.

Ein leidvolles Gefühl voll innigem Schmerz und wenn sie schwächeln so bricht mein Herz.

Ich will sie nicht allein in ihrer Einsamkeit lassen denn wenn sie da liegen drohen sie zu verblassen.

Doch längst muss ich wandern in der Nacht, dieser kalten; Kann nur darauf hoffen dass sie ihre Blüten wieder entfalten.

by Weltenasche.

Ich wollte mich einfach mal still und heimlich für Dein regelmäßiges Feedback zu den Posts auf meinen Blogs bedanken.

Von jemandem der so poetisch schreibt wie Du ist es besonders schön ein Like auf nicht annähernd so kunstfertige Texte zu bekommen.

Viel Licht und Positives an Dich!

Und ich würde mich gerne ein wenig weniger still und ein bisschen weniger heimlich für deine lieben Worte bedanken.

Von deinem Licht würde ich gerne einen Teil zurückgeben und mir wünschen, dass du es für deine Texte verwendest, denn wenn ich sie mit einem Like verziere, dann müssen sie sich keinesfalls verstecken und stehen sicher nicht im Schatten meiner Schrifstücke.

Und falls mir ein weiterer Wunsch erlaubt wäre, so würde ich mir wünschen, dass du diesen geheimnisvollen Schleier lüftest, mit dem du dich so gerne kleidest. Es würde mich freuen ein "Gesicht" zu diesen liebevollen Worten zu kennen.

Heey I know it's not the usual subject of your blog but I find it really interesting to hear a bit about game development if you don't mind (▰˘◡˘▰) Like what would someone need to develop a game? Is it hard? Could I do it and how much time would I need?

Since you kept your questions quite general, my answer to most of these would be “it depends”, as game development is a very broad field.

The answers would depend a lot on what kind of game you want to develop, what tools you use, whether you create all your assets yourself or buy them, what previous experience you have, … and so on.

Could you be a bit more specific?