I'm Trying To Doomscroll And Keep Getting Boop Notifs 😭

It was sad at first but then got pretty interesting and more story based than sad, only a few chqpters out so itll probably get worse later maybe. The second one I read bc i was still looking for something was too fire to be sad about. I do know one thats guarenteed depressing but its a lil too depressing i cried reading it. But it was also fire so i dropped it for a bit to save episodes but now i forgot where i was and im a lil too lazy to try and see. Dont want to reread it either since its depressing. Im too sensitive ;; I need something beartbreaking to actually make me sad but then when i do get sad I get way too sad.

Ones i read are Valhalla 0, Ark of the law (both are in their worldbuilding starts), and Banhyang: The Remote Island.

The one I got really sad reading is called The Warrior Returns, but I do tell anyone that decides to read it it contains tons of triggering content and is honestly more sad than happy. It is interesting though, so it has that.

theyre all on Webtoon

gonna read something depressing wish me luck

When i was itty bitty my brothers would watch one piece and i always thought it was kinda cool but it was boring. Then one day i saw my brother watching fishman island and i thought it was so beautoful and shirahoshi was so cool that i finally pushed through just watching the first 10 episodes and catching up

Why did you start watching One piece?

I started because I saw a picture of Ace. . . . . . . 😅 I was like, yeah I'm gonna simp for this guy. "Better start watching."

Even though I knew he wouldn't show up until a couple hundred episodes or so. 🥲

And now I can't stop simping over him, it just dosen't get over. (I'm not complaining though. 😏)

"Did anyone start for a different reason?"

Is This Love?

Luffy x male reader. Angst(?) Slowburn still. 1703 words Part one, Part three, Part four

Desc: You confessed to Luffy and he tries to find out what it means to him.

You’ve started sleeping in the men’s quarter’s again. It was hard to get some sleep at first, but life at sea is tiring, especially with the occasional marine attack and random weather conditions. Your body will shut itself down eventually. Unfortunately, someone else isn’t having much luck tonight.

“Hnnnnnnnn..”

Rustle

“Hrrrmmmmmmm”

Rustle rustle

“Hnnnnngaahh!” Luffy sits up quickly, his arms in the air. “Can’t sleep.” A shoe is thrown at his head by Sanji. “Ow!”

“Then go outside instead of bringing us into it!” The chef barks while the rubber man rubs his head. He pouts while getting up, making his way out onto the deck.

“waaatchhhh… night watchh.. heheheh. As if I even need to. Who would even dare approach the ship of the GREAT Captain Us-”

“Usopp.” The sniper feels a hand on his shoulder.

“EEAAAAAAHHH!” He screams and bursts into tears, ready to plead for his life before realizing it’s just his friend. “Oh. Luffy.” He has a hand on his chest, quickly pretending nothing happened. “Why are you up?”

“Wh- What happened!? Did you scream!?” A large muscular human reindeer runs over. “Luffy?” Fwoosh, back to small.

“I scared a bird, that’s all. I already took care of it.” The captain tries to open his mouth but is quickly shushed by Usopp. “You couldn’t sleep, right? Why?”

“(Y/n) sleeps back in his bed now but he still doesn't talk like before.” Changing the subject works, why wouldn’t it.

“Like before?” The two crewmates ask.

“Yeah like, he doesn’t.. look at me, the same. Like it’s… different. Not as warm.” He wracks his brain to explain, making weird hand signals because he can’t translate his thoughts into words he knows properly.

“Loving? Caring? Like you’re the only thing that matters in this unforgiving world?” Usopp finishes and Luffy nods, similar enough. He hums while nodding, eyes closed with a hand on his chin.

“Seems like he fell out of love with you.” The sniper states after a bit of fake pondering for dramatic effect.

“Out of love?” Chopper and Luffy ask before Usopp nods.

“I mean, you rejected him, right? Even outed his feelings in front of all of us, sounds like he just moved on. Let the feelings fade out into the wind.” He explains while the doctor nods. Luffy’s brain goes empty-er as he lets how he feels translate into thoughts,

“I didn’t reject him” and out through his mouth. The two previously chatting teens stop.

“You didn’t?” They ask and Luffy shakes his head.

“I just called him weird, then he didn’t say anything else.”

…

Is that not a rejection?

“Is that not a rejection?” That’s what I said. Usopp furrows his brows, trying to see through his friend’s eyes. “Did you also stay silent?”

“I didn’t know what else to say.” The sniper hums, he would definitely start ugly sobbing if someone he was in love with did that to him.

“You could’ve said, ‘Thank you for your feelings, I do not feel the same way.’ If he continues then scold him.” Chopper says with a hoof on his chest. Very kind. “Or kick him off a mountain.” Two different parents taught him two different things.

“That could kill someone..” Usopp points out, slightly concerned. Chopper nods.

“If they survive they ask for your help and then you have a new customer/patient.” What did Dr. Kureha teach him? The long nosed man stares at Chopper in concern and shock before Luffy speaks.

“I don’t wanna do that.”

“Well yeah he’s still our friend, kicking him off a mountain is a bit mu-”

“I mean, I don’t wanna lie.” He clarifies and Usopp stares at his friend, lips jutted out still from being interrupted.

“Lie?” The small reindeer asks instead and the captain nods.

“I do have feelings for him. I just.” Luffy motions at his chest, “Just…” This is why he couldn’t sleep. “I don’t know what love like that is. Being in love. He’s in love with me and I love him but I don’t know what my love is if he feels like that.” Luffy feels platonic love easily, he feels joy and happy and angry all very easily. Even something like excitement from a woman’s chest he can feel via living through Usopp, but romantic love he doesn’t know a lick about feeling. Passion and smooching, hugging and holding hands, staring into each other's eyes. You could do that all with a friend, mostly, so what’s the actual difference? It’s not like lust is the difference either since people do stuff without loving each other all the time.

“Romantic love…” Hiriluk loved Drum Island and Dr. Kureha loved having fun. “Romantic love is having big antlers and sturdy fur.” Chopper reverts to what he learned when he was a wee baby. Luffy rubs his own head, no antlers. In response to his captain’s confusion, Usopp speaks confidently.

“It’s okay. They call me Captain of Love Usopp for a reason!” He strikes a pose and Chopper claps. “Love is like the warm sun on a snowy day, a ray of light peeking through storm clouds, an oasis in a desert. It’s the light at the end of a tunnel.” A lot of metaphors, but not a lot of actual explanation. It’s not doing much good, though Chopper at least seems into it. The rubber man isn’t as interested though, realizing this isn’t answering much of his questions. He looks down.

“I don’t want (Y/n) to be out of love with me if he’s like this because he doesn’t love me romantically anymore.” Luffy mumbles to himself, deciding to go to the restroom. Maybe that’ll help.

“Amorrr is- Luffy? Where’d he go?” Usopp looks around, realizing he’s gone. He looks down at Chopper, who’s expecting more. The sniper clears his throat and continues. “Love is like!” You get the point. Chopper doesn’t know about romantic love much, even as a reindeer. They don’t usually love romantically to mate, while both Hiriluk and Dr. Kureha were interested in their medical endeavors and danger. As for Usopp, he’d been on the same island all of his life always focusing on other things to ever truly register romantic love. His sick mother, her death, then trying to become a brave warrior of the sea. No parents to teach him either. His assumption was it would be figured out once on the ocean, being surrounded by lovers and admirers all the time. Neither of them can help Luffy, at least not in the way he needs.

So what does Luffy need? He doesn’t know, and neither do they. So he goes to the restroom.

“Love…” Luffy says while sitting on the toilet, not going or anything, just for thinking. “Loovvee. Loav.” Repeating it isn’t helping, “Louuvee, loaf.” though it is cheering him up. “Shi shi shi!” He laughs a bit, then stands up. This didn’t give any answers, but he won’t stress about it. Things will work out eventually. Luffy splashes water and soap on his hands, dries them off, then leaves the restroom. He goes back to the men’s quarters. Before going back to his own bed he stops by yours. “...” He crouches down and stares at you. “..luv.” A small mumble before flopping onto his mattress. His heart and mind feels clearer.

Meanwhile, your eyes open, what was that about?

_____________________

‘Why’d he just stare at me? Or maybe he wasn’t? My eyes weren’t open but I definitely felt his body heat and breath.’ You think to yourself as you poke at your food with a scowl, finally taking a bite out of it.

“Luffy’s gonna steal it if you don’t eat in time.” Nami tells you, pointing to your plate with her fork. On cue, the captain tries to reach for her food, hand smacked away before he could grab anything. No time for thinking during breakfast, but you’re on dish duty today. That should give you a chance to think.

“Hey.” A voice says behind you and you almost drop the plate you’re rinsing off. It’s Sanji. “So… about you and Luffy.” He starts, looking awkward. “You’re really in love with that id- with him?” He’d like to insult Luffy but feels it’s not the time.

“Way to bring it up again.” You grumble, placing the last dish to dry.

“Did he reject you?”

“Yeah, obviously. Don’t know what I expected to happen.” You don’t really feel like talking about it but he’s asking so you answer.

“Are you sure?” The chef asks and you look back at him, irritated.

“Hell you mean ‘are you sure?’ I’m pretty sure, dude.” Your eyes glare at him. “He called me weird and acts like I’m a specimen now.” Your sass makes Sanji frown back.

“I’m trying to help you, dumbass. Luffy’s not like other people. What you think might be a rejection can be something else entirely. He could say someone has a strong smell and consider it a compliment.” He lights a cigarette, annoyed at the attitude. “You could’ve read him wrong.” It’s a bittersweet thought that you just misunderstood.

“Even if I did misunderstand, so what? It’ll still mean a rejection, just in his own way.” You’re too stressed to talk about this. You were already trying to move on.

“He asked me about love yesterday.” Your eyes widen. “Usopp and Chopper said the same thing happened the day before.” Sanji says after taking a breath of his cigarette, blowing the smoke out the window. “That’s what I mean, but if you’re going to be a dick about it-” He leans into your face “-I don’t have to tell you anything.” He says mockingly.

‘Asshole.’ Though you were mean first, technically. Still, you really want to know the details. You clench your jaw, then speak. “I’m sorry for being an ass, tell me.”

“Huh? What’d you say? Tell you what?” He puts a cupped hand to his ear.

“Tell me more about what Luffy asked you.” He continues to stare at you until you sigh. “Please.” That gets a satisfied smirk out of him.

“Should’ve just said so.” You hold in your anger so he can continue. “What Luffy asked me…”

Cliffhanger wooaaaAAOoah. But still, theres another chappa. I already had a good portion of this one finished but the next one will prob take longer. Also my bad if this one was more comedic than you would like, all of my stuff ends up having a moment like that, plus moments with Usopp always tend to be unserious. I thought about not posting this immediately after it was done to space stuff out but.. nah. Not my style ig. Comment if you want, idk. Havent done slow burn in a long and by a while i mean years and also only like 2 or 3 times.

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hi, holy shit, YOU ARE AMAZING AND SO GODDAMN TALENTED, wow—like, your writing is already so vividly descriptive and brilliant, and then, as if that wasn’t enough on its own, you go to the lengths of including FUCKING ASCII ART to truly underscore the reality of those images sticking with the reader by not only showing them to the reader in the text (in the sense of, like, the reader as a character-insert) but also showing them to US, the actual readerS (in the sense of the reader as the irl audience) i am so, so, SO blown away, and i feel so immensely thrilled and privileged to share this space on this website with such gifted and extraordinary fellow fanwork creators.

i (platonically) smooch you and your big beautiful brain. mwah.

–love, @siegescript (^w^)

STOPPP OMG GUYS MY FIRST FANMAIL. 🥲 Im so touched. I worked hard on the art thing so im glad people liked it, was genuinely worried people would hate it 😭🙏. It was fun to do though. I won't do it often or anything though, it helped create a very specific feeling that i wanted in the one shot. Even if i did do another scary-ish gore thing there prob won't be any of it. The reason I put it is because I felt like it needed something to show both the intensity of feelings and also an almost.. maybe empty feeling? I feel like an actual image would've been too like, real. I wanted it to feel disconnected story wise, and the txt art was the best i could think of. Especially since the shapes are vague enough that you still use your imagination like with regular reading, therefor not interrupting the mindset of being in reading mode, also helped that its still in the text format and not a whole image. I thought of things like the faith horror game or milk inside a bag of milk where the shapes are vague and still the same color as everything else to give off a sort of empty feeling. Thats why i never gave the reader any super big emotional moments where they fight and insult, because it happened. Before they even thought it happened, it happened, and theres nothing else that can be done. An incomplete empty feeling while still clearly being disturbed by what happened. Sorry if i'm rambling just wanted to give my thought process. Anyway when i got this i started showing it off immediately i'm so happy since its so like specific and stuff and my first fanmail where someone gave their genuine thoughts and stuff. Im putting it in its old folder in my phone gallery.

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing happens, but it's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out🖤

Oil up

it was so windy i was taking my dog out to go bathroom and she kept having to sit down to not get blown away 😭

?? Wha??

Got me scared i b askin shit i dont remember again. Weird ass glitch 😭

i KNOW oda bout to regret Shamrock's design when he gotta draw that fancy ass outfit over and over again. Rip the animators when the anime gets to that part too lmaoo. 🙏

fuck i think i might have really messed up my pelvis. I went climbing today and fell wrong and kneed myself in the stomach hard and i thought it was just stimach pain but it hurts bad to walk and has gotten worse the more i've walked. I did good today but need to work on my falling bc this sucks balls. I hope it didnt dislocate or some shit

Yeah and i hate people saying he "fumbled" buggy like buggy wasn't already a little shit and left before even giving Shanks a chance. I get Buggy's motivations but you gotta remember Shanks also have motivations, and ones that seem to be infinitely more important and self sacrificial than Buggy feeling inferior.

Sometimes I think about how if Shanks didn’t fucking fumble so hard, him and Buggy would have been an insane duo.

Buggy and Shanks together as pirates would have been a diabolical pair. Gay and powerful.

I can’t even imagine how much cooler Shanks would have been if he took showers and wasn’t an alcoholic lol. The world couldn’t comprehend an even cooler shanks so oda had to nerf him.