im literally so dumb because i'm constantly shifting between "im so gross i need to lose weight now" and "im fat anyways so i might as well eat a lot" and it's honestly so exhausting
hey babes quick reminder that EVERY SINGLE thinspo or body check image you see on here is either insanely flexed and posed to look as good as possible, or edited. don't compare your relaxed body to a completely different person flexing and posing.
i say this, scrolling through thinspo anyway
I'm not crying you are š„ŗ
actually you will not enjoy hearing this but you literally have to abandon your self deprecating humor. besides the fact that it can drive people away you literally are only hurting yourself by constantly making jokes that further cement the idea in your head that you are not good enough. I do not care that you think its a good coping mechanism it is absolutely not and you need to start challenging negative thoughts instead of feeding into them.
PSA
I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.
you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think youāre ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you
this is everything I wasn't able to say <3
i donāt think i was supposed to live in this world. maybe it was too early for me, maybe i was supposed to be born in a couple of decades. or maybe i shouldnāt have been born at all. but iām here now, and iām suffering, and i donāt want to be here. this world, this society, its a nightmare i cant navigate. iām completely out of touch. i can barely breathe anymore. i donāt think iām supposed to be here.
I wonder what kind of a person I'd be if i didn't have anxiety
I donāt think enough people talk about the social hierarchy of eating disorders.
So, this is simply a reminder that Bulimia is NOT āfailed anorexia.ā Binge-Eating Disorder is NOT laziness and lack of self control. EDNOS is NOT any less valid that anorexia. And, Anorexia is NOT cute or desirable.
These are all horrible and deadly disorders, and there is no way to āfailā at having a mental illness. We are all suffering is different ways and that is always valid and deserving of help.
my heart is stupid
scrolling through tumblr like looking at skinny people would make me skinny
I don't feel like I'm made for life. I am constantly stressed and anxious because of āØšµš²šÆš®āØ especially when it comes to applying for shit like wtf I don't have any special qualities at all. why you should hire me instead of others? bro idk. I'm bad at everything I don't know anything alright lmao. I just wish I could end myself