I don’t know if this is relatable or not, but do you ever watch a tv show or read a book or engage with some type of media, then have a very very difficult time determining what is from the media and what is actually real. I’ll think I’m a character from the media, that my loved ones are characters from the media, that I’m in the place where the media takes place. I’ll have a difficult time telling if my dog just died or if that happened in the media, if I just won a competition or if that was the media. Anyone else? Just me?
— Virginia Woolf, from “Carlyle’s House and Other Sketches.”
• if I stay cold enough, I won’t want to get up and follow things around
• if I only use the same websites/watch the same shows/don’t answer unknown calls, I don’t get paranoid.
• if I don’t make friends, I won’t stay up all night wondering about what they’re plotting against me.
• if I stay inside, nobody will be watching me.
• if I don’t speak or think, no one can hear me.
i am exhausted to the point of aggression