I Got Kinda Bored While Waiting For My Meeting Time, So Enjoy The Avatar I Made Of Myself. Depending

"you're so funny" - thanks man can’t wait to stare at the ceiling tonight.

I don't deserve a family I don't deserve friends I'm the worst friend ever I'm the worst child ever

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

“The world needs men! Women need men! Otherwise, who is gonna protect you”

Protect us from WHO or WHAT? Other men? And what kind of protection if being offered to women? Because I’m not seeing any form of “protection” lately. For example, the New York punching. Most of the women being punched were in broad daylight, in public, stating there were other men around. No help???

Just recently, a women in University of Chicago got threatened at gunpoint, this man tried to rob her. There were 2 men who could have helped her, and they just stood by doing NOTHING! The only reason she even lived is due to self defense, she grabbed the magazine out of his gun. He was robbing her for her cellphone.

So meanwhile she’s quite literally struggling, there’s just 2 men watching, relaxing, this is a normal event!

I’m not saying we need men for self defense. But if the few arguments men have left to seem useful, one being “we will protect you!” It’s all bullshit. They don’t mean what they say, they don’t even do what they say.

Women, we can defend ourselves. Once again I will stress the importance of learning self defense and arming yourself with any weapon. It might save your life one day!

The longer you’re clean the worse the relapse

I feel this but with family/friends :(

I want love but I don't want to have to beg for it. Please love me too. Please acknowledge me. It's like you don't want me here anymore...are you better off without me? Is everyone better off without me?...

Guys I’m having a freaking panic attack rn, I’m helping a friend of mine find out who was told about an accident. And just this whole topic is really triggering to me, but I want to be a good friend and support my friend. But I’m kinda spiraling about it

life update

over the past few weeks a lot has happened that I haven't talked about on here. to sum it up there's this man that's been stalking me since November and my college is doing next to nothing about it.

ive been to a fuck ton of meetings about it and I had one today where someone finally took me seriously about how this guy is not a student but instead a guy that's old enough to be my father. he knows where I live and just stands across the Road or paces by the door waiting.

its creepy as fuck and has left me feeling unsafe and like im being watched all the time. im terrified of walking by myself and im jumpy no matter what.

my friends are mostly being people that I can lean on but just today a close friend of mine has told be to not keep them updated and that they don't care. it might be an extreme reaction, but when things like this happen I block their number for a bit to give people space and to take a step back.

I want to continue being active on Tumblr but everything is getting to me and im honestly this close to deleting all of my socials and not talking to anyone on my campus. this on top of my eating disorder is not going well at all. im In a constant state of binging and then purging it all from worry and then I starve for 3 days and then I repeat the fucking cycle all while going to classes and meetings with the head of our campus security. it wasn't until today that I fully told my boyfriend what's been going on because I didn't want to admit that im being stalked as that would make it seem more real.

this on top of the state of the us is making me really debate why im still here. I might have stopped being super suicidal, but the urge to slit my wrists is coming back super strong. ive even started writing in my old journal about it while also drawing out how I have been feeling in it.

everything is getting to be too much for me and I want it all to end immediately. I NEED it to end before I end it all once and for all guys.

ITS BACK!

There’s so much to unpack here:

Pack of Beakers

Goth Beaker

The Beaker snitching and pointing out the photographer

The Beaker that’s about to unload on the photographer

The terminator strut before the ass whooping and you know he’s moving at speed because of the blur

The ominous feeling that you know this is 3 in the morning