Missing Someone

You know that feeling? It's like a deep ache in your chest and every time you think of someone, it's there. That's how I feel. I feel like I want to make everything better. But for selfish reasons. I want to fix everything so that I can have that person back in my life. When I think about it. I know that it's not possible and that's what hurts the most...

I'm learning to Accept Things...

So recently my best friend has been going through some things. But because of these things he isolates himself, he keeps telling everyone he's okay when we can clearly see he isn't. I'll admit that over the past year we started growing apart. We both just kinda started hanging out with different crowds, but I wanted to try and keep the friendship. I never wanted to lose him. But the fact that he's going through all that's happening to him is hurting him and he's keeping it all locked away inside his head... I feel like it's changing him and I don't like the person he's becoming. I want to hold on to who I remember him being so badly. But I don't see that person anymore. So here is what I'm starting to accept. I accept that he's pushing me away, even though I want to hold on. I accept that the person I see every day is no longer my best friend. I accept that I don't know who he is anymore. I accept that he needs time to deal with everything. I accept that I need to wait for him to decide if he still wants this friendship or not. I accept that maybe I'm not important to him anymore...

Sorry for the long paragraph. This is just something I need to get off my chest...

There Are Days

There are days where I contemplate. I contemplate a lot. On these days I want to run. I want to run away to and island and spend some time there. I wouldn't tell anyone or say anything. I would just leave. Just to see if anyone besides my family would notice. To if anyone would even care...

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4 years ago